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franchise16

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I've rolled on molly 5-6 times and pressed pills a bunch of times but haven't touched the stuff in about a year.

I had to stop smoking pot a few years ago for this very reason and I am concerned that mdma might have similar effects. I'm not sure why it happens but when I smoke pot I really get down on myself and beat myself up for the way I am living my life. I get severe anxiety and feel the need to 'fix' everything I am doing 'wrong' in my day to day life. The effects are temporary, I usually only feel down on myself for about a day after but throughout the high it is just super depressing and one of the worst feelings in the world.

I just came into some molly and wanted to do it but was concerned i may have a similar trip. It's never happened before on M and maybe I'm just over thinking but I want to avoid it at all costs.

Have any of you ever had a trip similar to the one i described while on M or even pressed pills? Any advice you can offer?
 
I think a lot of us can understand where you are coming from. Drugs in general can cause a great deal of negative self-thought, especially during the comedown. Cocaine is very bad in this regard.

My worry for you in the comedown, and days after, where depression can set in.

As for your self-fears, I can tell you from experience, things are probably not as bad as you think they are. As you get older you learn to love yourself (faults and all) more. Good luck!
 
I'm the same with weed, i don't touch it anymore. MDMA on the other hand i use every once in a while and always have a great time, view everything positively and still have no bad comedown/depression.
 
I don't even think it's possible to look at yourself negatively on MDMA. I think the Serotonin would completely block that.
 
franchise16 said:
I've rolled on molly 5-6 times and pressed pills a bunch of times but haven't touched the stuff in about a year.

I had to stop smoking pot a few years ago for this very reason and I am concerned that mdma might have similar effects. I'm not sure why it happens but when I smoke pot I really get down on myself and beat myself up for the way I am living my life. I get severe anxiety and feel the need to 'fix' everything I am doing 'wrong' in my day to day life. The effects are temporary, I usually only feel down on myself for about a day after but throughout the high it is just super depressing and one of the worst feelings in the world.

I just came into some molly and wanted to do it but was concerned i may have a similar trip. It's never happened before on M and maybe I'm just over thinking but I want to avoid it at all costs.

Have any of you ever had a trip similar to the one i described while on M or even pressed pills? Any advice you can offer?
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MDMA generally destroys anxiety like an atom bomb......

Have you considered taking it upon yourself to act on these thoughts and fix the things some part of you wants fixed? Its generally something that happens more on heavier psychs but hey, write down the things in your life that bother you and set about fixing them....

If your looking for a productive experience i would say do that before you roll and during the experience try to go over some of these aspects of your life that your not happy with, trust me in that if you have clean MDMA these thoughts are probably going to be easier to deal with....

This is a drug that has been used in psychotheraphy in helping people work through really traumatic aspects of their lives.... If you have someone you trust, a good friend or significant other have them there and talk to them about things....

These things are comming up for a reason, your subconscious is probably trying to tell you something.
 
jamaica0535 said:
MDMA generally destroys anxiety like an atom bomb......

Have you considered taking it upon yourself to act on these thoughts and fix the things some part of you wants fixed? Its generally something that happens more on heavier psychs but hey, write down the things in your life that bother you and set about fixing them....

If your looking for a productive experience i would say do that before you roll and during the experience try to go over some of these aspects of your life that your not happy with, trust me in that if you have clean MDMA these thoughts are probably going to be easier to deal with....

This is a drug that has been used in psychotheraphy in helping people work through really traumatic aspects of their lives.... If you have someone you trust, a good friend or significant other have them there and talk to them about things....

These things are comming up for a reason, your subconscious is probably trying to tell you something.
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Yeah the first time i actually remember having the bad trip was after a night of mushies. I found myself doing just this after every time i smoked pot, I would make a list of everything i didn't like and go about trying to resolve the issues. The only thing is I believe it came to a point where I was TOO critical of myself, beating myself up for small things that weren't really an issue. Trying to make myself almost cookie cutter perfect.

I am just going to drop them and hope for the best, if it happens then so be it I will take it for what it's worth.

Thanks for the advice all.
 
Even so, work on the smaller or major aspects as you please....

Self improvement and learning is a great reason to do these sorts of things.

Quitting cigarettes was and still is one of the hardest things i have ever attempted, but i am so so happy with myself to have finally gotten serious about quitting.... I sleep better, feel better, breath better, and damn its nice not to reek of cigarette all the time....

Just keep in mind that perfection is impossible, we are all human and its the flaws in us that remind us of that and keep us humble. Perfection is impossible but it feels damn good to know your trying to do good things for yourself. If you do decide to take my advice, you don't have to work on everything at once, fix more of the small things or concenrtrate on the big ones one at a time.

I have decided to take my kind of dislike for drinking to the point where i just abstain completely from it. I find it to be a crude and negative drug that leads to few good things. Quitting smoking is my current work in progress but im to the point where i see that the postives of quitting far outweigh getting an fix by smoking a pack a day....

Best of luck to you, have fun and be safe.
 
No there is pretty much no way mdma would make you view your self negatively. It's just how the drug works, releasing the neurotransmitters that make you most joyful positive mother fucker ever. But that is exactly what the drug does, releases those certain neurotransmitters that make you feel like that. Once you come down and the following days you can definitely bet that you may have negative thoughts and anxiety and so on. You can also bet that if you decide to smoke pot again it will be more anxiety ridden and over all a worse high(at least that is what happened to me for a while and numerous friends back when i was taking mdma). So to answer your question during the actualy high no, no negative aspects at all. After the high and following days...thats another story.
 
I've found that even if MDMA makes me get introspective and look at the problems in my life, it makes me see it in a positive way. I'll suddenly know the changes I need to make and how to make them. Things become clear and all paths seem connected.

I've never found that MDMA makes me feel bad about myself. In fact, I feel more beautiful on E than anything else. :)
 
jamaica0535 said:
Even so, work on the smaller or major aspects as you please....

Self improvement and learning is a great reason to do these sorts of things.

Quitting cigarettes was and still is one of the hardest things i have ever attempted, but i am so so happy with myself to have finally gotten serious about quitting.... I sleep better, feel better, breath better, and damn its nice not to reek of cigarette all the time....

Just keep in mind that perfection is impossible, we are all human and its the flaws in us that remind us of that and keep us humble. Perfection is impossible but it feels damn good to know your trying to do good things for yourself. If you do decide to take my advice, you don't have to work on everything at once, fix more of the small things or concenrtrate on the big ones one at a time.

I have decided to take my kind of dislike for drinking to the point where i just abstain completely from it. I find it to be a crude and negative drug that leads to few good things. Quitting smoking is my current work in progress but im to the point where i see that the postives of quitting far outweigh getting an fix by smoking a pack a day....

Best of luck to you, have fun and be safe.
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Thanks a lot man.
F1n1shed said:
No there is pretty much no way mdma would make you view your self negatively. It's just how the drug works, releasing the neurotransmitters that make you most joyful positive mother fucker ever. But that is exactly what the drug does, releases those certain neurotransmitters that make you feel like that. Once you come down and the following days you can definitely bet that you may have negative thoughts and anxiety and so on. You can also bet that if you decide to smoke pot again it will be more anxiety ridden and over all a worse high(at least that is what happened to me for a while and numerous friends back when i was taking mdma). So to answer your question during the actualy high no, no negative aspects at all. After the high and following days...thats another story.
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Dahli said:
I've found that even if MDMA makes me get introspective and look at the problems in my life, it makes me see it in a positive way. I'll suddenly know the changes I need to make and how to make them. Things become clear and all paths seem connected.

I've never found that MDMA makes me feel bad about myself. In fact, I feel more beautiful on E than anything else. :)
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Excellent. Good to hear.
 
The exact same thing happened to me, which is why I eventually stopped smoking weed. I would like to say that pot never made me feel like this until after I started using psychedelics. Now if I smoke potI I view myself as a waste of life, it really sucks. I dunno if there is any correlation between psych use and getting this feeling while smoking weed, but I know quite a few people who feel the same way
 
Seven-One-Eight said:
The exact same thing happened to me, which is why I eventually stopped smoking weed. I would like to say that pot never made me feel like this until after I started using psychedelics. Now if I smoke potI I view myself as a waste of life, it really sucks. I dunno if there is any correlation between psych use and getting this feeling while smoking weed, but I know quite a few people who feel the same way
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Replace psychedelics with E and I'm 100% there with ya.
 
Drugs really can have this side-effect, I went through a lot of issues with this kind of thinking after my days of e-tardation.

Although ecstasy is a wonderful thing, if you haven't done it for a year and you're content without it I would suggest to you not to start back on it at all, OR save it for a very special occasion with very special people.

Don't let drugs own you. I have fun with them but I find that life is lot, lot better sober.
 
I have the same problem with weed, it makes me hate myself and everything around me. I get severe anxiety and honestly feel like someone's negative thoughts are being inserted to my head, like I am not the one thinking them.
I have rolled five times and I have never had very negative thoughts when rolling, although there have been a few times where the rolls barely effected me, even though they were good. I feel like you should simply limit your usage to about once every few months, because at these increments rolling can definitely improve your life for the better.
Simply beware for piperazines, because these will send you down a terribly negative thought trip. I accidentally ate a half of one once, thinking it was ecstasy, and I felt so terrible and negative, and instead of only lasting a little while like weed, piperazines last up to 12 full hours.
Be safe.
 
Seven-One-Eight said:
The exact same thing happened to me, which is why I eventually stopped smoking weed. I would like to say that pot never made me feel like this until after I started using psychedelics. Now if I smoke potI I view myself as a waste of life, it really sucks. I dunno if there is any correlation between psych use and getting this feeling while smoking weed, but I know quite a few people who feel the same way
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Wooooooow. Yeah EXACT same with me. I've always said Mushrooms ruined smoking weed for me. I have a strong feeling it re wired my brain or something. I used to loooooove smoking pot then all of a sudden i just couldnt do it anymore.
 
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