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lujoyalin

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western australia
Out of my thirty years of life i went through 8 diferent schools
have changed jobs everyyear
Have lost all friends or no one likes me at all
Abuse whatever i can get a hold (drugs)
been in trouble with the law on a few occasions(very lucky)
have never held a steady relationship with a partner for longer than a month.
Sometimes bouncing of walls with inpulse behavior other times withdrawn and depressed.
I have no outlook or interest in anything anymore.
its so hard to get work now because of my previous past.
Have recently been diagnosed HIV and really still do not care for some reason.

I have never been diagnosed or seen a doctor about my life and behaviour.Am scared to take medication or be classed as having some sort of mental disorder.But i think its time to ask for some proffesional help or see a doctor.

Any feedback on this would be great or other people that are the same as me and what they did to break the cycle of self destruction.::|:(:\:);):D8o
 
Most of the behavioural symptoms you're describing seem to fit an ADHD-type condition...

as in, erratic behaviour. There are a swag of other personality disorders that might be at play however, have you ever had manic or depressive episodes??
 
hyroller said:
Most of the behavioural symptoms you're describing seem to fit an ADHD-type condition...

as in, erratic behaviour. There are a swag of other personality disorders that might be at play however, have you ever had manic or depressive episodes??
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Its up and down for me so i really do not know if its adhd, although i love any sort of amphetamines ,thats my favourite drug of choice.But i rarely take it due to availability.

I think i have been depressed but it was not long enough to be classed as problem for me and its not drugs that are causing all these problems.at times i have been off drugs for long periods (6 months) due to work (drug tests)and i still seem to fuck it up.

Its a sticky question and a hard one to answer.
But thanks
 
Hard to give a diagnosis just from what you said... like hyroller said there are a lot of disorders that could be causing these problems for you.

Having no interest in anything anymore does sound like depression to me though, as does becoming withdrawn, having trouble with friends and relationships... do you have anxiety issues?
 
the best answer for you, is to see a doctor.

ive seen more then i will ever remember haha, and, they arent all bad.

ive been diagnosed with all sorts of shit, and have taken many drugs, and had many reactions.

i finally found what helps me, and its a major major relief... find someone you trust, see what they have to say, and do some research. everyone seems to react different to meds, you may find relief your first try, or through therapy; both would be best.

we cant offer any sort of diagnosis, but we can try and relate, and give our thoughts. i hope that you see you are not alone in this, and help is there as long as you accept it.
 
Mr Blonde said:
Hard to give a diagnosis just from what you said... like hyroller said there are a lot of disorders that could be causing these problems for you.

Having no interest in anything anymore does sound like depression to me though, as does becoming withdrawn, having trouble with friends and relationships... do you have anxiety issues?
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In big crowds yes because i hardly go out to events with allot of people.
I am always looking for someone i know.
 
panic in paradise said:
the best answer for you, is to see a doctor.

ive seen more then i will ever remember haha, and, they arent all bad.

ive been diagnosed with all sorts of shit, and have taken many drugs, and had many reactions.

i finally found what helps me, and its a major major relief... find someone you trust, see what they have to say, and do some research. everyone seems to react different to meds, you may find relief your first try, or through therapy; both would be best.

we cant offer any sort of diagnosis, but we can try and relate, and give our thoughts. i hope that you see you are not alone in this, and help is there as long as you accept it.
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well maybe next blood test i should ask the hospital doctor what the fucks wrong.its more scary asking him if i have a mental disorder than jumping out of a plane ,and yes i have
Thanks
 
^ Yeah, ask the doctor and he will be able to give you a better idea or diagnosis then us. It sounds to me like it could be an anxiety or depression related issue, hopefully you can get some help soon. :)
 
Yes, hopefully.

I'm also at a point where I feel that getting medicated is possibly my only option for leading a productive life.

I have no idea where to begin, but that first step is a necessary one to take.

good luck :)
 
with HIV, you had better start caring, and going to see some doctors. start some sort of treatment for the HIV asap... there are many new advances in medications, and the sooner the better.

my heart goes out to you and your family.

go see a general therapist at least, they will get you going in the right direction. they are all different, so if you dont like the first 50, you may be astonished by the next.


Life Love & Laughter!
 
I diagnose you as you and you are suffering from a general lack of yourself. Honestly you just sound like an unmotivated and unconfident individual. I cannot see how seeing a doctor would do anything for you. Perhaps seeing a therapist would allow you to talk out these issues, and that would help. There is no condition or cure to describe what you are experiencing, if there were it would be called 'the general meltdown of significance of modern humanity in the developed world'.


I don't care too much for doctor, doctor can't find me soul...


It might also be a side effect of living in Western Australia.


But honestly i think you should run out and grab the dragon by the testicles, nobody knows how much longer we've got.
 
It's not possible for even a doctor to diagnose you through a messageboard with a couple posts. And visit a psychologist first, not a psychiatrist in my opinion. It'll almost always take several visits in person to diagnose someone with anything, even if the symptoms are obvious. Who knows if it's even a mental illness. They have to look at body language, others' close to you testimonies (hopefully at least), your history, a battery of questions (either in order or just as a slip-in during consultations), any changes since last visit based on the previous diagnostics (the ones I mentioned being just a just a few of many more), until they can settle on a diagnosis. Sometimes it can simply take years to come up with an accurate diagnosis and you'll just be "considered" a certain diagnosis if it is confusing (for instance, it took me a few weeks to be diagnosed with very obvious clinical depression, then 2 years later it got to the point where it was so confusing they had no idea what was going on and just used that depression diagnosis as a mainstay while they looked into it more. I developed bad bipolar after those 2 years and it subsequently took 7 years to get a solid diagnosis. I suppose these are in cases of severe mental illnesses though).
So... only a doctor can tell. And I doubt any doctor can diagnose you first visit unless they're a quack.
 
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Go see a psychiatrist (or ask your doctor for a referral). Do some research yourself and try to nail down your problems. I score high enough on testing to be considered depressed, however as I told my psych, I feel my depression is a result of my situation, not the other way around. As such I don't want to be treated for depression, I want to be treated for the cause of my depression. My doc seems to think that's anxiety. I think it's ADHD. The doc agreed to schedule me for a full ADHD screening, including pulling all my school records and talking to my parents. They never would have done that if I hadn't done a careful and honest self evaluation, and voiced my findings and concerns.

So that is my advice. Seek professional help, but also try to understand yourself. Do you feel the way you do because you are depressed, or are you depressed because of your situation? If I were diagnosed with HIV I'd certainly be depressed, and it'd have nothing to do with chemical imbalances in the brain.
 
batmanplaybaseball said:
I diagnose you as you and you are suffering from a general lack of yourself. Honestly you just sound like an unmotivated and unconfident individual. I cannot see how seeing a doctor would do anything for you. Perhaps seeing a therapist would allow you to talk out these issues, and that would help. There is no condition or cure to describe what you are experiencing, if there were it would be called 'the general meltdown of significance of modern humanity in the developed world'.


I don't care too much for doctor, doctor can't find me soul...


It might also be a side effect of living in Western Australia.


But honestly i think you should run out and grab the dragon by the testicles, nobody knows how much longer we've got.
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Nice one i like your answer to my question.

I think i have just burnt myself out over the last ten years.

I self medicate with alcohol so thats my way out .I do not think doctors would make me change or diagnose me with something.It would create more dramas in my life i believe.Especially if they are calling my family or past employees ,no way everyone will think i am a crazy useless drugfucked cunt.

I need to cut the dragons balls off and make a stew with mushie peas and gravy.
 
"Especially if they are calling my family or past employees ,no way everyone will think i am a crazy useless drugfucked cunt."


lol not necessarily... not if you're trying to get your shit sorted. Usually they'll take your word for it, though, when describing the retrospective details of your personal life events....
 
^^^nahh its true ,its the way people are.

If i tell everyone i am a schizo with bipolar and need medication do you think they are going to really care for me.More like (lujo's ) all fucked up man hahahaa bwaahaaa who the fucks going to play a violin for me.

Its bad enough just facing people i know already.

Bah humbug
 
^ Label as a way to present one's self to others vs diagnosis as a way to get to a workable means of coping and improving one's situation.

If label as a social tool is your goal do not spend time and money on professionals. If you are looking for a diagnosis as a platform to get better & improve I'd keep your eye's peeled and ears open for a competent professional good at dealing with situations akin to your situation.
 
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