girlygrrl
Bluelighter
I decided to try some mephedrone. I didn't have a lot of $ so wasn't able to get the large amounts of it like most people talk about with their trip reports.
Anyway I have been really paranoid about doing a lot of it, hearing the horror stories about compulsive redosing and binging probs.
So I started with 25mg oral and I LOVED it, lasted like 8 hours with a great euphoria.
Then a few days later did 50mg oral and then a few hours later like 20mg insufflated which was really very nice.
After that I've done maybe 50-100 mg ever in a 24 hour period.
What I've noticed is that my productivity has gone way up and my chronic depression is GONE.
For the last couple years I've felt extremely depressed due to a series of life circumstances...and I refuse to take SSRIs for it because it is all circumstantial rather than chemical imbalance or whatever. Plus SSRI really doesn't play nice with dissociatives that I love like DXM.
But since taking meph a bit then it seems to have fixed the general bad mood swings, at least so far.
It also seems very nice with a hit of salvia leaf (not extract)
I notice that I have tons more energy but not in an over-caffeinated way, I feel completely chilled out but not exhausted like I usually am.
I have to say it is improving my life...and I am happy. I was just expecting another trip not to have something that could cure depression without using SSRI. I usually have to fight with myself to get off my ass and do anything because I have had seriously bad depression. So it is very interesting because the antidepressant effects last for days long after I'm at baseline. I have noticed I'm not sweating the "small stuff" that much whereas I used to have tons of anxiety.
It's not perfect, I do notice my Reynaud's Syndrome flares up sometimes from the meph and it can make me a bit dizzy or unfocused. But I'd say that so far so good. I don't feel like procrastinating as much and menial tasks that bore the crap out of me don't overwhelm me and don't feel menial when I'm listening to good music.
I don't think I want to do larger doses because I like what it is doing for me and I don't want to ruin it. I don't need a MDMA-like trip from it, I just like feeling mellowed out and subtle euphoria. My only real worry with it for the time being is if it becomes illegal but thankfully here in the US it seems hardly anyone knows about it, and I don't think it will get scheduled very quickly until kids start ODing on it like what happened with the online DXM chemical distribution chain.
Call me paranoid but as much as I love tripping I have no interest in having anything that could land me in jail in the house so it is nice to know that there are (quasi)legal options.
Anyway I have been really paranoid about doing a lot of it, hearing the horror stories about compulsive redosing and binging probs.
So I started with 25mg oral and I LOVED it, lasted like 8 hours with a great euphoria.
Then a few days later did 50mg oral and then a few hours later like 20mg insufflated which was really very nice.
After that I've done maybe 50-100 mg ever in a 24 hour period.
What I've noticed is that my productivity has gone way up and my chronic depression is GONE.
For the last couple years I've felt extremely depressed due to a series of life circumstances...and I refuse to take SSRIs for it because it is all circumstantial rather than chemical imbalance or whatever. Plus SSRI really doesn't play nice with dissociatives that I love like DXM.
But since taking meph a bit then it seems to have fixed the general bad mood swings, at least so far.
It also seems very nice with a hit of salvia leaf (not extract)
I notice that I have tons more energy but not in an over-caffeinated way, I feel completely chilled out but not exhausted like I usually am.
I have to say it is improving my life...and I am happy. I was just expecting another trip not to have something that could cure depression without using SSRI. I usually have to fight with myself to get off my ass and do anything because I have had seriously bad depression. So it is very interesting because the antidepressant effects last for days long after I'm at baseline. I have noticed I'm not sweating the "small stuff" that much whereas I used to have tons of anxiety.
It's not perfect, I do notice my Reynaud's Syndrome flares up sometimes from the meph and it can make me a bit dizzy or unfocused. But I'd say that so far so good. I don't feel like procrastinating as much and menial tasks that bore the crap out of me don't overwhelm me and don't feel menial when I'm listening to good music.
I don't think I want to do larger doses because I like what it is doing for me and I don't want to ruin it. I don't need a MDMA-like trip from it, I just like feeling mellowed out and subtle euphoria. My only real worry with it for the time being is if it becomes illegal but thankfully here in the US it seems hardly anyone knows about it, and I don't think it will get scheduled very quickly until kids start ODing on it like what happened with the online DXM chemical distribution chain.
Call me paranoid but as much as I love tripping I have no interest in having anything that could land me in jail in the house so it is nice to know that there are (quasi)legal options.
