I'm kinda trying to lay off BL for a bit for now actually; I realized my behavior has been really weird lately,
I love you all, seriously.
You're never anything less than friendly, thoughtful & helpful and have even been known to stray into most amusing territory on occassion. Blah de blah - how about a virtual censer that vapes DMT over the congregation in PD that ought to straighten things out little 
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Was that his account name? Anyway, no sense digging up old shitstorms too much I suppose. 
But the messenger is killing the message. Man I'm not gunna lie, I think Andy getting banned was a catastrophic loss to the PD vibe. That was a really shitty and unnecessary event for all parties involved, it would have been really nice if both sides could have come to a compromise and stuck with it-- it's really a shame that couldn't have happened for whatever reason.
Also, just in general a lot of once-prolific posters have moved on-- which is not a bad thing, its just different. But we need to work hard to continue cultivating the underlying spirit of the community.
I'm kinda trying to lay off BL for a bit for now actually; I realized my behavior has been really weird lately, and I don't feel like myself-- and I think my BL posts have kinda reflected that. Too much adderall, academic stress, relationship issues, anxiety, excessive pot use, and not having any time to reflect and use healing psychedelics-- it all adds up to me kind of becoming an opinionated, reductionist asshole. When all the shit with Teo started, it really made me look at myself-- and maybe I've been toxic to the environment here too. Feels colder here recently, but maybe that's just because I feel colder and my interpretation of the forum is affected by that. So I'm gunna try to limit my time here for a bit, and clean my life up and shit-- I'll get back to you guys when I feel healthy again.
I love you all, seriously.
Thats an option, but could you, yourself, compromise a bit and keep your posts to a more minimal and less opinionated slant?
You obviously know stuff, and its good stuff
I have already apologised to you, but I'll do it again: my telling you to fuck off was childish and realy egoic of me. Its not something I would normally say....It came out of frustration and basic childishness really.
You, Teotz, are getting that reaction, not simply because of what you say, but how you say it. In fact, I'd say the latter portion of that sentence is probably the ultimate reason for the recent angst and dark-vibe in PD.
If you look at PD from say 4-5 years ago (and a bit longer) there was a lot of rudeness and arrogance floating around. We all worked really hard to get it to this nice place, which can be a haven for people who don't have many comrades to discuss psychedelics with. The main way the vibe got changed back then was with kindness, love and DMT. :D I love PD because it feels like home; I check it everyday, and love the social aspect, as well as being able to contribute to topics that I generally cant in real life. We ALL need to get it back on the rails, and I think the way to do it is with a sense of humour, love, empathy and the knowledge that we are all humans in this odd maze of life together; let's help each other, not hinder.
to you all
Man I'm not gunna lie, I think Andy getting banned was a catastrophic loss to the PD vibe. That was a really shitty and unnecessary event for all parties involved, it would have been really nice if both sides could have come to a compromise and stuck with it-- it's really a shame that couldn't have happened for whatever reason.
I love you all, seriously.
