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when i did coke, i would become introverted. it made me very unconfortable but i did it all the time?!? even though i would become introverted and keep to myself and the music going, i had to have some one around, which would usually be benificial for them. haha.

god its been like 8 years and its amazing to me now, and how coke is or was for me... i just could never imagine doing that again, such angst and constant anticipation. yikes.
 
It's like snorted cocaine except there is an intense rush that lasts for a very brief period of time but makes you crave another hit much quicker and stronger than snorting a line. The rush is a beautiful feeling but it lasts so short and the cravings are so high that it makes me never want to do it again.
 
Mystery Brew said:
Has Cocaine/crack changed anyone? well let me explain a little. I use to be on the conservative side, like alway saving the drugs, money so I have more later. But after fucking with rocks, my complusion to get fucked up is out the roof..kind of like it brough the addictive personality out of me
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once you find your doc all conservation goes out the window, and i think this goes for everyone.

crack was one of my doc's and it did change me like you said. I had maybe 600 in my bank account when i started using that was saved up for college/car expenses, and that was all gone within a few months. After that was gone, i turned to exploiting myself to get it from men: smoking with them in my undergarments at their request, having sex with my dealer for the crack, eventually i got kinda pawned off on another older user who talked me into having sex with him in exchange for a smoke session.

like i said, once you've found the drug that makes you salivate and crave, you will do just about anything to stay high on it, even going so far as to ignore your morals and values to obtain that high
 
Lifeandtimes said:
what is crack like, what is the high like?
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MarkRenton said:
It's like snorted cocaine except there is an intense rush that lasts for a very brief period of time but makes you crave another hit much quicker and stronger than snorting a line. The rush is a beautiful feeling but it lasts so short and the cravings are so high that it makes me never want to do it again.
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^This.


Coke is more gradual, and longer lasting. The cravings are not as strong as crack. The initial rush of crack is great, and that's what gets you craving that next hit. I was big on coke for a long time, and just recently got on crack since I can't get powder. The highs are pretty comparable in my opinion.


The big differences to me are the initial rush, the cravings, the fact yayo is more social (go to a party and people will be more than happy to blow some coke... crack, not so much, lol), and also the fact that my nose isn't bleeding and hurting like it's going to fall off if I go on a binge longer than a week. I've found myself spending A LOT more money on week-long crack binges than week-long coke binges though. I can go through 30 rocks in less than half the time it takes me to go through a half ounce of coke, and they cost me about the same.

How have they changed me? The impulse to score and get high fucked me up in a lot of ways. I was doing well for myself financially before, and I've never gone through money faster than once I started buying large quantities of coke. I lived for getting fucked up. Coke wasn't enough for me though, so I started doing tons of opiates, got hooked on heroin. Pretty much put me in a bad spot financially that I'm still not out of. I've since kicked the habit a few times, and now I'm pretty much recreational, maybe once a week for crack, and I always get heroin when I score crack, so yeah... I'd like to quit, but deep down inside I'm not ready to. Damn cravings.
 
pilldout said:
once you find your doc all conservation goes out the window, and i think this goes for everyone.

crack was one of my doc's and it did change me like you said. I had maybe 600 in my bank account when i started using that was saved up for college/car expenses, and that was all gone within a few months. After that was gone, i turned to exploiting myself to get it from men: smoking with them in my undergarments at their request, having sex with my dealer for the crack, eventually i got kinda pawned off on another older user who talked me into having sex with him in exchange for a smoke session.

like i said, once you've found the drug that makes you salivate and crave, you will do just about anything to stay high on it, even going so far as to ignore your morals and values to obtain that high
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i can't believe a rock can be so powerful. i never understood addiction probably never will, for some reason i always feel immune to addiction. Maybe people that have more going in life are more immune to addiction? Maybe some people don't have much going for them and therefore keep giving in and blaming addiction? but if this were the case then why are there instances of millionaires losing their lives to crack addiction? are there really such cases? I might never understand addiction even though it reveals how weak and strong man really really is. Huey Newton was a powerful mind why couldnt he overcome addiction, even though he managed to rally over 100 000 men behind him, we can't even convince 5 people.
 
^ I had $30,000 in my bank account before I started using coke. After 7 months, it was all gone. That was coke too, not crack, it was also oxycontins, ecstacy, and weed, but probably %60 coke. Probably the most fun I've had in my life, but I spent the down payment on the house I was looking for, and all my emergency money. When the economy started it's downturn, my income dropped dramatically, and I couldn't recoup my losses.

Coke (and heroin, and drugs in general) pretty much put me in a horrible situation. It's getting better now though, but it's been about a year rebuilding. My advice to anyone would be to stop before it gets too bad, I'm not going to tell you to stop having fun, but really, you know where rock bottom is, my best advice is to stop, or at least slow down before you're halfway there.

Once you get over the initial cravings for coke, it's pretty easy to quit. Once you get used to doing less, it's easier to get by on smaller amounts. Quitting coke for me has been nowhere near the nightmare quitting heroin has been, you just have to train yourself mentally to do less, or to stop. It's extremely tough if it's around you all the time though.

I just started smoking crack once a week, and I always have the urge to get more, but once I give it a day or so the need to get it drops dramatically.
 
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Subflict said:
^ I had $30,000 in my bank account before I started using coke. After 7 months, it was all gone. That was coke too, not crack, it was also oxycontins, ecstacy, and weed, but probably %60 coke. Probably the most fun I've had in my life, but I spent the down payment on the house I was looking for, and all my emergency money. When the economy started it's downturn, my income dropped dramatically, and I couldn't recoup my losses.

Coke (and heroin, and drugs in general) pretty much put me in a horrible situation. It's getting better now though, but it's been about a year rebuilding. My advice to anyone would be to stop before it gets too bad, I'm not going to tell you to stop having fun, but really, you know where rock bottom is, my best advice is to stop, or at least slow down before you're halfway there.

Once you get over the initial cravings for coke, it's pretty easy to quit. Once you get used to doing less, it's easier to get by on smaller amounts. Quitting coke for me has been nowhere near the nightmare quitting heroin has been, you just have to train yourself mentally to do less, or to stop. It's extremely tough if it's around you all the time though.

I just started smoking crack once a week, and I always have the urge to get more, but once I give it a day or so the need to get it drops dramatically.
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u just got over coke and all the other related problems, why would u stick to doing crack once a week. why not just move on in life and never look back?
 
being from melbourne coke neva done shit to me

until a mate sent back small amounts in bday cards last year from the states

omg , made melb shit seem like inactive pile of poo poo
 
I could never do crack just once a week if I had access to it. It's a very all-or-nothing drug. I don't actually have much experience with crack. I was more of an IV coke user, but I assume they are comparable (the only time I've ever had crack, I shot it). I hear a ton on these boards about heroin and how addictive it is. I will not deny this. I've been physically addicted to heroin on and off for over the last year of my life--been trying to quit drugs for the last 8 months or more. But I don't know, whenever I was on just heroin I always wanted to shoot coke. That rush is so much more euphoric. To me, I thought of it this way. Heroin was happiness for me, it was almost like an antidepressant. I used it to make me a better person almost. I was more social, more productive, etc. Shooting cocaine was pure pleasure. You can't even be around people on it, but fuck, it was like sex. I haven't used it nearly as much as others on here, and I'm glad for that. If I used as much coke as I did heroin, I'd be a lot more fucked right now. It really steals your soul, your life away so fast. But for me, I always associated heroin and coke together. If I just had heroin I'd be bored; if I just had coke, I'd have a God-awful comedown full of fiending and depression. I was definitely a polydrug addict between these two, although I did a lot more heroin than coke (cheaper, better access).
 
thats how i was, i remember the last time i shot coke; i would put on my headphones, hit record, put on the record(some hallucinogen track)that started with loud bells, do a shot go prepare to mix, screw up the first blend, then start over. i did this until the coke was gone for a couple of hours, then i just wanted to die i felt so awful.

that feeling of desperation and disappointment is one i dont ever want to fully remember... ~shutters... that was probably 10 years ago.
 
coke is a road ill never go down again. maybe once a year like on a birthday, but thats it. i was hooked for two years. i definately fucked up my nose. but hell if i could take it all back i wouldnt, i just would be smarter. the come down is horrible, and physcosis is not fun either after binging. opiates are a definate better choice.
 
I am new here in Bl, but having been off crack for over 13 months and doing a lot with the help of my pschyiatrist and now some new ssri and wellbutrin I am holding on. The depression has lifted somewhat but the financial devastation and the removal of myself from the bar industry has held me back with regard to my emotional wellbeing.

The other thing is the overwhelming urges to go back to my old haunts(which were really nasty and scary places to cop) and use is frightening. I am desperate , I go to bed dreaming of how I am going to have the perfect session. The girl I am going to be doing it with. The room we will be in. The drink we will have there,. The porn that will be on the channels. How good she will be when I take my first hit. The lingerie she will have on. How she will take care of my every need. She will smile and get Her freak on.

The first hit, the sizzle of the stem, but I forget , well I don't really, but try and pretend that it will be different. In reality The panic as I don't trust the hooker/crackho fiend I am with. The knocks on the door of the room from "neighbours". The towel down by the door, checking the peephole because of the noises in the hallway. The crack ho/ fiend in the bathroom as I hear her taking her hit saying she will be out in a minute, starting to shout. I have just taken my hit and She knows I want her to be in front of me as I get my freak on. I look at my stem, already I am thinking of another hit, but now I need to know how to get rid of this one with me. Oh how I should have picked up the other one on the other side of the street(like it really matters). I'm looking at the clock now and the couple of hours are nearly upin the short stay. And I didn't really get a good hit. I have got to get a really good hit just before I go home.

Wondering if the car is still there outside in the lot. Wondering how I will get to the cash machine and back again through bandit country. What if I can't get any more cash. What if the cops stop me on the way home. How can I go to work. I just want to die. Quick I need a hit ,Oh God how did this happen again. I will have to wait til after midnight. What if this dealer doesen't come back. What if "she doesen't come back" What if She brings some guy back with her.

That's ususally how it goes and then there is the whole next day if i have got home safe. which after writing the last part am a little tired mentally so I will leave it there and bid you all a safe and peaceful good night.
 
i use coke on and off never rly fully got addicted to it tho not like some people who get hooked.
 
i was always into amps and never really liked coke, thought it didnt have enough of a kick. until i started shooting it, and then i fell in love. however this love turned very quickly on me, made me the worst person i have been while using drugs. stealing and lieing to friends, trading almost all of my possessions, and i was only shooting for a month. it turned me into such a horrible person, i finally decided to go to rehab.

after all the drugs i have done, this was the one i couldnt handle. it kicked my ass. now ive been clean for 67 days - the longest time i have been completely abstinent in over two years :) most of the time i feel great, but then it just creeps up on me. the longing for that feeling, even though by the time i was done i couldnt stand it. it only lasted for 5 minutes and it almost lead to my arrest.

right now, im having a really hard time. i miss it. i try and not think about it, but it just pops up. my ears ring randomly and i just cant stop thinking about it. its pretty rough psychologically. at least i cant taste it in my mouth randomly any more. are there any tips on how to curve these thoughts and keep my mind off it? does that longing get less and less eventually? i know it did with amps, it just took a while. please tell me it gets better?
 
I never got too far into coke though ive had more then a few bad runs with IV coke and crack as well. Mostly crack. If i had the cash to do it all the time and had a bigger supply of opiates to ease off the crash i might be a cokehead as well as a opiate fiend.

Ive gotten bad cravings for coke especially after a few days of hitting the pipe or needle but it tends to go away fairly quick for me. I still think sometimes though why not just buy a gram of the stuff? Yeah like it's ever just a gram :p

You can lay off the stuff man it just takes willpower. I know some real coke fiends who quit after using for the better part of a decade and nearly dying as a result of the addiction. So yeah it can be done.
 
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