Dude, go to the site I told you to. Register, takes seconds. Get on the forum. THAT will get you on the right path. Get off fucking benzos, you wouldn't believe how much better you will feel. Things will get easier from there.
And I know you don't wanna hear it, but GO to therapy. DON'T make an excuse like you said you do.
Best of luck, man.
Once again I must second this. That feeling of low self worth that you described is exactly the thing being on benzos amplifies. There is so much potential for you in getting off benzos alone that I don't know why you would consider taking another pill before you had done that.