I had a massive experience on this one on the weekend... first truly mind blowing trip for me. 30mg of the fumarate, rectally. Started off with swirly visuals and an unpleasant body feeling - fast heart and breathing, like i'd just been for a run - but that passed relatively quickly, the i just went absolutely bonkers, visuals all over the place and MASSIVE shifts in perspective, i.e. i'd be looking at the patterns on the couch and all of a sudden the pattern would fill my entire vision and it was the only thing that existed in the world... then it would zoom out and I'd be back in the room.
Also, incredible CEV's, colourful sci-fi type hallways which i almost felt like i could reach out and touch. the CEV and OEV's were both so incredible that I couldn't decide if I liked having my eyes open or closed better.
The it shifted and i went completely insane, rolling on the ground screaming and babbling nonsese. I think i honestly got a glimpse of what it was like to be properly crazy. I had no sense of time or anything really, and when i was focused enough to form a proper thought I couldn't ever remember
not being that way. I felt like i'd been high and crazy my entire life. In fact i had no concept of life or time, I just felt like the state I was in was all there was.
The it shifted again and the visuals and craziness went away after what felt like years, and I entered a state of what I think was ego-loss. Having never had that before I can't say for sure, but I felt like I had no sense of identity and talking with my GF (who was also on it, but not a heroic dose) I couldn't tell the difference between me and her... like I didn't know where "I" finished, and "she" began. Was very werid, but very awesome. We started watching a movie (Double Jeopardy with Ashley Judd) and I couldn't tell the difference between the people on TV and my GF, I thought we were all in the same room.
Also, I couldn't stop staring at Ashley Judd, I just thought she was the most magnificent looking being on the planet. It wasn't sexual at all I just wanted to look at her face forever.
Through the 'ego loss' phase I felt like I was re-learning everything, and what it was to be human. I'd say things to my GF like "You're a girl right? And I'm a Boy? And they're not the same thing are they?" and "What happens after this? We do the thing with putting food in our mouths right? Then we sleep?"
It was like I knew subconsciously what it was to be human but I still had to re-learn the specifics... very strange, but also awesome
As the movie went on I think my ego and sense of self gradually came back, and by the end of the movie (about 3.5 hours after dosing) I felt mostly back to normal, not 100% but I at least knew who I was and that the people in the TV weren't real
Another interesting thing was, before the movie came on the Simpsons was on and I couldn't stand it. I normally love the simpsons but I think the fact that they were cartoons was something that my shattered ego just couldnt deal with. All I wanted was to watch "real" people, which is how we ended up watching Double Jeaopardy
The next day I had an absolute splitting headache and my head still doesn't feel right today (the day after) but at least the headache is gone
Sorry for the long post - that was my first proper "balls deep" trip, I've had other trips before but nothing on that scale. 4-aco-dmt is truly an unbelivable substance and I'm so glad I've been fortunate enough to experience it. I think if I do it again any time soon it will be a lower dosage, but I would like to experience the big dose again sometime.
Reading what I wrote makes it sound a bit scary and unenjoyable but thats not the case - I had an absolute blast, laughed my arse off, saw amazing colourful visuals and then the ego-loss was a very interesting experience... overall a very positive experience.