Hello all,
I need some help dealing with my chronic pain. Almost 2 years ago, I was helping my brother move, and I injured my back. I went to see my PCP and she gave me 60 percocet 5/325 and 60 tramadol 50mg per month, while I waited to get into the Pain Management clinic. When I went to the pain managment clinic, the doctor immediately discontinued the percocet and the tramadol without a weaning schedule, and put me on 15mg extended release morphine (2 per day), flexeril, and neurontin. I didn't take the neurontin due to how it made me feel, and recommendations from my psychiatrist to discontinue immediately (diagnosed bi-polar). I experienced no relief from the morphine or the flexeril, and went through extreme withdrawals for 4 days. I called the pain center, and was seen by a PA who at least seemed to understand that I needed something for breakthrough pain. She kept me on the morphine and flexeril, and added 120 5/325 percocet per month. They attempted a steroid injection, it only gave me about 10-20% relief for about a week. After this did not work, the PA increased the dosage on the percocet to 10/325, still 120 per month. These were working great, occasionally I would run out before the end of the month, and I would need to take some of the Tramadol my mom was being prescribed for her back to get through until my script got refilled. I had another injection after this, with similar results. They suggested pool therapy which did not help. They had me try an EMG to see if my nerves were damaged, and I could not go through with the test due to the intense pain. I went to an orthepedic surgeon on my own, not to get any other scripts, but just to find out what was wrong with my back. I was diagnosed with a bulging disc, fluid in my joints, arthritis, a pinched nerve, and degeneration in my lower back, and he recommended surgery(disc fusion of L4 and L5). I went back to the pain clinic for my monthly appt., and I couldn't get in with the PA I was seeing, so I had to go back to the original doctor. At this time, I had been being seen at the pain center for a year, and none of the therapies or solutions worked, the narcotics were the only thing that provided me relief. I asked the doctor what they planned on doing, and if they had any ideas. I was frustrated that they could not provide me any answers, and that the orthepedic surgeon was able to diagnose my problem in one office visit. The doctor got very defensive, and he told me that I was addicted to percocet, and I needed to go for fucking chemical dependency counseling. He AGAIN immediately discontinued the percocet without a weaning schedule, and gave me a 2 week weaning schedule for the morphine. It has been about 3 months since I was seen at the pain clinic, and I have had to rely on a lot of other ways to get percocet to manage my pain. Unfortunately, it looks like I won't be able to do this much longer. I am getting married in a week, and taking a 2 week honeymoon, and I want to be able to be pain-free for the most exciting time in my life. When I return from the wedding, I will likely do the surgery, but I want to be pain-free until then. My question is, does anyone have any ideas about how I can get back to the pills I was taking? I have tried going in to a couple of doctors, and they end up either calling the pain clinic(who will not see me until I go through chemical dependency treatment) or calling the pharmacy, and seeing that I have had quite a few percocet and vicodin prescriptions. All of these doctors referred me back to the pain clinic, and said I needed to get treated there. I am sick of being treated like I am trying to get high. All I want is relief. Help!
EDIT - In case it is important, I am a 25 year old female from the upper Midwest. I welcome any questions if something wasn't clear in my post. Also feel free to PM me to discuss further. It sure would be nice if I can find a doctor in my area willing to give me some relief.