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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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dude, meth fucked my adolescence up, i started smoking ice in 8th grade, and wasted 4 fucking high school years doing that shit, it made me a terrible person. im pretty sure it messed with my brain, i used to smoke alot in high school.

eventually i stopped when my mom had a breakdown due to my use,so i stopped hanging with the dealers and users, started getting into music and found a really good line for pot.
so by the 2nd qtr of senior year i was completely clean, only pot.

i feel like i missed out on my adolescent years, i never got to be a normal high school kid,even though my parents gave me the chance to.

im pretty damn sure ill never do that shit again, not even once, ive been 6 years clean, and everytime i see a package or see people smoking i get disgusted.
 
that's awesome skahawaii! It is so beautiful that you loved your mother so much that you changed your whole lifestyle for her. Every mother would be proud. <3
 
hitting the pipe again, but you know what, I damn well need it....its my escape from some the bad things in my mind...its better then the alternative.

Just gotta remember that they're for occasional use, and not 24/7...thats the hard part.
 
BeckyLee said:
that's awesome skahawaii! It is so beautiful that you loved your mother so much that you changed your whole lifestyle for her. Every mother would be proud. <3
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lol, yeah im a mamas boy, totally.8)
im just glad i quit wile i was still a kid, my stoner freinds helped me and my other tweeker friend get off the pipe.
i believe its the people u hang out with, sepereate urself from the users and dealers, break ur pipe, smoke some herb and take up a hobby.
i genuinely hope u all get through this.
 
I hate how my tolerance to stims has built up to the point that there is almost no point in me taking them. Fuck school!
PS- Hope you feel better claire and mia...
 
lol oh wow this past week. I just calculated how much I've smoked.
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An ounce

Ov average 3-4 grams a day at this stage. I just keep going and going and going,
 
BeckyLee said:
I hate how my tolerance to stims has built up to the point that there is almost no point in me taking them. Fuck school!
PS- Hope you feel better claire and mia...
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That's always me and coke... I get to the point where I do two balls a day and it's like why bother? I'm not even high...

My tolerance develops so much slower on this shit, thank god. But right now it's all over the place... It keeps going up and down??
 
claire22 said:
lol oh wow this past week. I just calculated how much I've smoked.
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An ounce

Ov average 3-4 grams a day at this stage. I just keep going and going and going,
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To be honest Claire . . . I'm going to be very fucking surprised if you make another 2-3 years at that rate.

I know that sounds blunt . . . but that is a fucking phenomenal amount of Methamphetamine.

I really hope . . somehow, something changes for the better of your situation.

Regards
 
I know. I'm dying slowly, with each pipe hit ...
My mental health is far gone. Not depressed-but emotionless.
It's sucked me dry and spat me out.
 
^^ I know what you mean by emotionless...

I remember watching my ex od on heroin in front of me; it was a scary sight and my mate was freaking out, crying, and I finished my pipe (!) then did what I had to do for him, but I felt nothing...

Another time, I was sitting in the car, I could see we were about to have an accident, we're skidding towards this car at super high speed, and I was sitting there, waiting for the fear to kick in, but nothing. I just felt nothing, as if I didn't even care.
 
claire22 said:
I know. I'm dying slowly, with each pipe hit ...
My mental health is far gone. Not depressed-but emotionless.
It's sucked me dry and spat me out.
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It hasn't 'spat' you out just yet!

I have no idea what a Meth addiction is like so I can't really understand fully.

But wouldn't you options be . . .

A) Continue smoking multiple grams a day and be dead before you're 30.
B) Move far away and start a new life somewhere else and live until you're nice and old :)

Really the only way to quit is too move away where you can't get it . . . . . that's how I quit my raging addiction.

That's my 2cents. :\
 
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rangrz said:
hitting the pipe again, but you know what, I damn well need it....its my escape from some the bad things in my mind...its better then the alternative.

Just gotta remember that they're for occasional use, and not 24/7...thats the hard part.
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Hey, dude...you know I'm always around to talk. I know meth makes the shit go away and you feel like you can take on the world in a different way than you might sober. But I'm always here, and that applies to any BLer period. Although you know you have a special place with me, you is good people.
 
claire22 said:
I know. I'm dying slowly, with each pipe hit ...
My mental health is far gone. Not depressed-but emotionless.
It's sucked me dry and spat me out.
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^^ One thing you must not do claire is just become blasé about your health and mental health because you think you've already fucked it. You haven't. As 8ft-Sativa said it's far from spitting you out yet. So you've smoked heavily for coming close to a decade; that doesn't mean you'll be drooling and being spoonfed gruel by the time you're 30. You still have the opportunity to quit, you just need the motivation/willpower to try.

Sorry if that sounds harsh, I don't mean it to be. Speed just cost me a lot about 4 years ago, I'm still paying for it, and I hate seeing other people going down the same road.
 
rangrz said:
hitting the pipe again, but you know what, I damn well need it....its my escape from some the bad things in my mind...its better then the alternative.

Just gotta remember that they're for occasional use, and not 24/7...thats the hard part.
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i have been unable to talk to you or anyone recently about the sheer magnitude of cravings and what brings them on as am extremely depressed despite high dose of anti depressants Ive been carrying around a stupid pipe thats empty, dont know why, wishing like hell I could have all the ice I used to. Sobriety might prove to be semi permanent only. I just want some fucking drugs. Partied recently with acid, some pills, I feel just so low.

Sober living is something that is necessary if occassional use is the goal. I could not keep use recreational. What a tool. If you want to keep using them knowing when not to kind of helps. Heh.
 
Lets say you have be methamphetamine for 30days almost every day about 5 days off here and there
2 low doses a day - almost always insufflated
You don't have problems eatiing - even 5 minutes after dosing
How longshould you buggery for after discontinuation to feel normal again?

a few days?
2 weeks?
or a month?
 
I feel like a chump talking about adderall when meth is the real devil's drug here. Adderall is like meth's dwarfish, slightly retarded cousin. But I've never tried meth, I love adderall. I really miss it now that I've been off it for a month (excepting two days last week). I feel like it restores a part of me that's missing - the motivated, energetic part of me that doesn't seem to exist without amphetamines. I don't know how other sober people do all this great stuff with the lives! What do they have that I don't?

Off adderall... I sleep twelve hours or more a night, I take naps during the day, I'm lazy and unmotivated to do any work, my legs are weak.... Does this ever go away? I'm considering going back on it (I have prescription) but this time making sure not to abuse my prescription, just using as much willpower as possible to take one little dose every day instead of staying up for three days in a row and taking more and more.
 
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