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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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Treacle said:
No, except some really nasty cunts. I've got far too much experience with dependency, and it's fucked my whole life up.
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Or those who are still not aware (or deluding themselves, or are too stupid...) that recreational use can slip into dependency and addiction... is a fine slippery and blurry line that no one ever expects to cross. But one day, some of us find ourselves on the wrong side and our lives and bodies damaged.

Of the people I've known who suffer.. it appears to be a thing that needs life long management. It is debatable whether there is such a thing as an addictive personality... but I know I have one and it'll find an outing in many other things as well as drugs.

The "age" thing is really helping to concentrate my mind on the issue :(

Treacle *hug* <3
 
Good luck Kate :) You can do it.

Yeah, weed was the one out of everything else that truly got me good and proper. Every single day for 2 and a half years. Only managed to break the cycle when I couldn't get a hold of it as easily and eventually saw what it had done to me through abuse. Now I only ever smoke it a few times every 6-8 months and I'm quite happy with that. Though if I'm not careful I'd slip back down that road - luckily I have someone to keep an eye on me :)
 
good woman kate it sounds like you have a plan and your going to stick to it.
one thing i do when im on my breaks is spend more time wiyh my non drug friends,i know its not nice to use them like that but needs must.
you should keep your self busy.i find that if i dont drink then i dont do drugs,after 5 or 6 pts i get the urge to get some drugs if i only have 2 or 3 pts then its not to bad.
you should get somebody to mind any drugs you still have.
dont forget you have people here that will try and help you if they can.best of luck.....
 
kate66 said:
Phew... bit of a long reply and to anyone else I've missed out - many thanks for participating. :) EADD is such a special place because of the people who come here... I love it and have become so, so fond of many of you, I'd hate to see bad things and awful times happen to you just because we all have a love of drugs. I want you all to be here for a long time coming and to enjoy our drugs and live as good a lives as we can. <3
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aye EADD is my favouritest place at the moment, lots of lovely lovely people and i think it's helping with the whole abstinence thing, in my case anyway. had a lot of encouragement from people here and it's very helpful and sort of heartwarming too <3 d'awwww i don't usually get all soppy
 
All very true - I wish I could go back in time and tell myself not to totally cane pills & speed the way I did so that I could still enjoy them now (and not have a shit-ton of stomach problems) 8)
I'm only 23 but I've totally fucking broken myself with stimulants. Hoping that one day I can get back to occasional, fun usage - the odd MDA pill, occasional bit of coke (sociable and up the nose style rather than IVing the lot)..

I don't think I'd ever have the willpower for a proper break from drugs, but I am trying to cut down on the morphine at the moment - don't want a big fucking pysical dependancy to deal with once I've found a job (and am therefore forced to cut down), it makes me EVEN lazier than normal, and I should spend more of my evenings socialising rather than fucked off my ass staring at the tv for hours on end!
 
I need to stop GBL,I'm fine when on it,but coming off it gets even worse each time.I constantly fear that I won't be able to sleep again.I managed 2 weeks off and could function without any meds,but as I keep doing turned into a drunk again and had to go back to the guice to stop drinking.24/7 Sat - Sat and no other drugs,functioned fine around people and didn't fuck up once.Until it came time to quit...and I fuck it all up.:(
I can't do this anymore.My alcoholism is sort of controlled when I'm not on GBL,eg I don't turn up to work/meetings drunk/drinking like I used to in the past.I don't want to keep having a fortnight of fighting my drink demon and failing,then going on the guice but failing miserably to come off it properly.
And I need to stay away from these fucking spice type products as they remove my ability to sleep completly.
I've got several months worth of trazadone stashed,but it doesn't help me sleep at all due to it having no gaba agonism or anti-histamine action.
I don't know how to function without some sort of mood improving substances.Right now I feel hideous,and I really hope I can get some level of medicated sleep tonight and tomorrow or Wednesday is going to be truly undealable.:(
Not having internet access at home is now seriously a problem,I mean on Saturday and Sunday I just sat around drinking and talking to myself as I knew I couldn't be around other people.
The substance misuse people have no idea how to deal with me as GHB/GBL isn't on their list of things and I've never been a chronic alcoholic.I need to sort some shit out with them,its been 8 months since I sort assistance,then the keyworker left and ever since then I've been one huge mess.:(
Please let me have some sleep tonight and tomorrow brain/body.
 
I hope you get your sleep, brokenbrain. Maybe it's worth trying to get some assistance again...you might strike lucky?
 
IzaBadger! said:
All very true - I wish I could go back in time and tell myself not to totally cane pills & speed the way I did so that I could still enjoy them now (and not have a shit-ton of stomach problems) 8)
I'm only 23 but I've totally fucking broken myself with stimulants. Hoping that one day I can get back to occasional, fun usage - the odd MDA pill, occasional bit of coke (sociable and up the nose style rather than IVing the lot)..

I don't think I'd ever have the willpower for a proper break from drugs, but I am trying to cut down on the morphine at the moment - don't want a big fucking pysical dependancy to deal with once I've found a job (and am therefore forced to cut down), it makes me EVEN lazier than normal, and I should spend more of my evenings socialising rather than fucked off my ass staring at the tv for hours on end!
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Fucked off your ass staring at the tv for hours has its places though !!
 
I had about a month of worthwhile chatting with the keyworker I was given last May/June,then she got another job and no one did anything about replacing her.My own Dr can't get through to the relevant dr at the centre,and all my appointments are utter shit.Last time I went there I took info on Baclofen but didn't even get a chance to talk about anything as it was a different dr who hadn't read my case notes and didn't know who was responsible for my prescriptions or anything.
Fucking hell,as I've said to my own dr If I had gone in under court order for curbing heroin use,they know eaxctly how to treat it:x amount of methadone or buprenorphine,plus counselling and group therapy.No one knows how to deal with me.When my heads in a better state I'm going to my proper dr to see how this can progress.I've been negative about it since day one,but I can't go on like this.Sure GBL is going to be illegal soon,but I've still got my shitty drink issues.
I can't take stimulants as that equals no sleep at all,eg I've looked at Mephedrone/methylone but I couldn't take them as I'd be on at the G by 4am.And thus the spiral continues.
I need to get internet action at home as at least then I can chat or something online.There isn't a single person I trust in the real world....eg my GBL addiction is totally hidden apart from certain NHS members.
Last week during 24/7 dosing I sorted out various things and got on with people and it was a decent week for me.This week is going to not be so.
 
brokenbrain take care and don't give up - keep on at the centre, keep talking to them and telling them it's not ok. <3 *hugs*

Iza - aye, being fucked some of the time is the best =D, but all of the time a bit of a missed life in my case... so many other things to do, see and experience. Here's hoping that any new job will help you to get a balance that suits you.

Day 1 for me and I'm pretty optimistic and upbeat :)

Feel like physical shit though, pains and whatnot... mentally I'm pretty sound though, so long may that last. %)
 
For me, the definition of a "drug sabbatical" is where I kick back from real life and indulge in some drugs.

I don't have the fortitude for the inverted definition.

Best of luck.
 
kate66 said:
It's only Tuesday and the crave is upon me :(
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I have to take a client out for lunch tomorrow, so I will be basically forced to splurge on decent red wine.

And then i'm off snowboarding with the boys for a long weekend.

So my sabbatical will have to take an enforced sabbatical.........:|

EDIT: Sorry poor kitten.............................
 
OMG he mentioned dead kittens :( *runs off crying* ......

A sabbatical from the sabbatical Kid?.... ah but it was a planned one, so you're allowed. Enjoy ;)
 
kate66 said:
OMG he mentioned dead kittens :( *runs off crying* ......

A sabbatical from the sabbatical Kid?.... ah but it was a planned one, so you're allowed. Enjoy ;)
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Thanks Kate. I'm actually enjoying being totally sober and waking up each morning with a clear head.......however I can see i'm also turning into a boring bastard who just wants to watch sport on telly!!!
 
Kid, Kid, Kid... that is not the point. Give your arse a big kick and go out and do something else! 8)

Like come and take drugs with me...=D

No I didn't mean that. Yes I did. No I didn't. Err yes I actually did... fuck it's the dead kitten thing, does Tambo not realise he's pushing me over the edge into drug use :!:!:!
 
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