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Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

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I went the the doctor yesterday cause I had this annoying cough (annoying to my mom, it didn't really bother me that much). I knew it was from snorting dope, but it wasn't bad like it usually is, so i thought it was just from the drip.

Turns out I have bronchitis, borderline pneumonia, AGAIN.

I've had bronchitis at least 4 or 5 times and pneumonia once all in the past 14 months.

I wonder how much damage (permanent) I've done to my lungs at this point.
 
I had a really weird thing happen today.

I don't know how the idea got in my head, but I started thinking about Suboxone (of all things) and started craving the fuck out of it. I actually started feeling physically sick, like having to shit, joint pain, sweats just because I wanted some so bad. I'm sure all of you know how you start to withdrawal quite hard at the prospect of doing some more of your OOC (opiate of choice - I demand royalties) when you either haven't in a long time or are sick and waiting for your fix.

It was crazy that it was Suboxone I craved so bad, though. That just goes to show that it really is just as addictive as any other opiate and just as easy to depend on. Be careful with it.
 
xxkcxx said:
I went the the doctor yesterday cause I had this annoying cough (annoying to my mom, it didn't really bother me that much). I knew it was from snorting dope, but it wasn't bad like it usually is, so i thought it was just from the drip.

Turns out I have bronchitis, borderline pneumonia, AGAIN.

I've had bronchitis at least 4 or 5 times and pneumonia once all in the past 14 months.

I wonder how much damage (permanent) I've done to my lungs at this point.
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How long have you been using dope ?

Does your doc know about it ? if he does do ask him about it, i suppose there are a few of use here that have the same prob. and would like to know about it.

Man its annoying, I am sometimes seriously scared as to how much damage have I done already. Its definitely not good :/ .

take care
 
^ for about a year and a half but I probably have 4 months of sobriety (non-consecutive) in there.

My doctor knows I used to do dope, but as far as she and everyone else is concerned, I've been clean for awhile now.


6/7: very weird about craving suboxone. How long have you been of dope for?
 
Ive been off daily dope since june of 07, but I used occasionally (like 1 - 4 times a month) for the entire two years, and now I barely ever use it - if at all. The last two weeks I did it on the weekend (Friday), but that was the first time in about 2 months.

I stopped taking Suboxone in the end of December and eased off with Immodium (24 a day at the time, but now I'm down to just taking 3 a day, so almost ready to stop that shit too).
 
the_ketaman said:
Would any amount of codeine help with WD's from a med-high dose oxy habit? I was thinking the other day that if I could get a box of 10mg/200mg codeine/ibuprofen pills and do a cold water extraction would it help at all?

Also How much poppyseed would you use to make a tea with a tolerance like mine 160mg to "just" get high, bout 80mg is the lowest that will keep me feeling ok.
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Codeine will fix you to the point where your comfortable. I have a pretty high tolerance and it takes me close to 200mg's of oxy to get a real good high when my tolerance is skyrocketing and i can take 1000mg's of morphine a day.

300mg's of codeine will take away the worst symptoms for sure. I just took some and the stomach cramps, sweats, skin crawling, dizziness and diarehea is gone. I still don't feel great but i feel alot better then i did before. Take some benzos too they help.

As for poppy seeds it's very hit or miss. Ive gotten loaded off 1000 grams of poppy seeds and have gotten nothing off 3 times that much other times. So it's very hit or miss.
 
Cool thanks for that. I just made a call to a detox unit to try and get on bupe and its such a fuckaround process, I dont even know if im going to get it, they pretty much said I have to do a detox then if that doesnt work then I can get bupe. Seriously im going to fucking neck myself soon if someone doesnt fucking help me, im sick of being fucking helpless and alone with my problems. MY family is the worst family alive, they disgust me. Last night a rat went in my room and I am really OCD and I went to my mum to see if she could calm me down and she just told me to shut the fuck up and go back to bed 8o I dont know why I deserved that. I had to call the police on my sister the other day too because she punched my in the face about 20 times, I wanted to get an AVO on her but I had to charge her with assault if I wanted to get an AVO(apprehended violence order, basically a restraining order) which I didnt want to do so now she thinks she can do to me whatever she wants. There is no winning for me I just want to die, I wish I did die when I OD'd the other night.

Of course I have all you and im sure I would have already necked myself if I didnt have you all this time, but now I need someone to help me in person, I cant live like this anymore.

I just sniffed 240mg of oxy and im not even high, how the fuck does that work? Over the last week ive been getting high off 160mg, sufficiently high with nods and everything but I just had a shitload of promethazine, a shitload of doxylamine succinate plus the 240mg of oxy. Im pissed off, if I didnt know better id say these 80's were fake but they couldnt be.

Anyway hope all you guys are having a decent day, Hugs to all the people in WD's, I feel for ya.
 
Aww man that sucks. My family kinda sucks too and i get ragged on alot. They certainly arent the best for self esteem 8). My mom can be alright though and picked me up codeine, lopermide and soup today cause i was too sick to handle going shopping. My nerves where shot.

She can be a total psycho too though :|.
 
oh god - i dont know where to start
ur all going thru a lot

to those who r sick/in withdrawal - look after urselves, i hope u feel better soon

ketaman - i hope u find that elusive detox that will take u in
i was lucky to get on the high priority list last time plus it was over xmas so it wasnt busy, so i got in pretty much straight away, but usually i hav to wait for months, stabilising on watever opiate im currently using at the time (last time it was heroin which is expensive so i was very lucky i got in so fast)
i know u want to get well and r frustrated by ur situation - im frustrated for u too, but all u can do is hang in there mate!

6/7 - interesting u shud say that about suboxone
i hope i never end up like that cos im probly going to stay on it for awhile and im not exactly on a low dose (20mg) - i do like the antidepressant effects too
ive noticed straight after taking it im more productive and pleasant to b around (a bit the way i am on oxy) - i dont feel high, id just call it the 'prozac' of opioids

it hasnt just taken away my craving for heroin (OOC ;)) but oddly its taken away to a certain degree my cravings for methamphetamines, and it seems to help my ADHD symptoms like lowering my hyperactivity, helping me concentrate and helping me sleep
im not sure why this is but id b interested to know if anyone knows anything about bupenorphines properties and how it works on the brain?

i cant imagine craving suboxone but then ive never gone without it (except in the past wen ive detoxed over 2 weeks using it, always starting at 16mg - this last time i started at 32mg) and then i didnt crave suboxone, i craved homebake/morphine/heroin
this is the longest ive ever bn on subs and at the highest dose ive ever bn on :\
 
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hi my name is jose.. ive been an opiate addict for 6-7 years.. ive been trying to get clean for the last year.. mainly do to the fact that my addiction was so bad(10+ 80mg oxycontins a day and it takes me about 5x 80 to barely feel anything (snorted or iv) that i wasnt able to work or do much of anything else.. i first tried to get on methadone and ended up addicted to that.. withdrawling from that was pretty horrible.. definitely up there from when i withdrew from 7-10x 2mg xanax a day(that addiction only lasted for 3-4 months).. im definitely still trying to stay clean but its getting to me more and more lately... i think that i am withdrawling more from my addiction to making money more then anything else now.. which is leading me is such despair.. today i woke up @ 2am and cried for roughly 2:30 hours.. i really dont know what im going to do.. especially with this fucked up economy.. sorry for the rant but i really feel like i need to either talk with somone or take some action (dont worry im not refering to suicide).. anyways i hope the rest of you are doing better then i am.. have a nice day..
 
Ya keep your chin up. Ive come off oxy more then a few times and although i don't find the physical withdrawals to be as bad as morphine or dilaudid withdrawal the depression coming off oxy is the fucking worst. Ive never been on methadone but ive known people who have come off it and they have said that methadone withdrawal is torture so you have my sympathies there.

Crying is nothing to be ashamed of i can't count how many times i cried over nothing the past 3 days coming off morphine. The other day i cried when i woke up because of some stupid thought i got in my head. I just felt so lonely for awile until my friend called to check up on me.

You can make it man i know it's tough. Ive been through withdrawals atleast 20 times myself over the past 3 or 4 years.
 
25 hours since my last dose, feeling ok except for upset stomach. yay for Immodium
 
So I haven't had a car for a few months because I wasn't able to afford both payments and a dope habit, and so it got repo-ed while I was in jail no less.

Today when I was on my way to rehab with my dad and passing the highway and I thought how it was a really good thing I don't have my own because my habit is getting really bad and I had this thought of wishing I could go to the pawn shop to sell stuff and then to go cop my own dope and that was a really scary thought to start that up again. I already sold everything I owned once, and now that I'm accumulating stuff again, I don't want to sell it.

Money is one thing, but pawning is a different ball game.
 
I just want to apologise, sometimes I feel like I focus all I have to say on myself. I realize this thread doesnt completely revolve around me so sorry if ive been a little self centred.

xxkcxx, yeah I wouldnt sell your stuff If I were you. im bout to go sell one of my speakers for 10 oc 80 and thats basically coz I have no choice, I need to stay well at least until I can get into detox and I can get another speaker, but pawning stuff sucks, it makes you feel pretty low. Dont do it KC, go get some immodium.
 
I have been doing good until I recently got my tax return..

Since last thursday I have been doing at least 40mgs-80mgs of oxy every day, at $50 a pill. Im now out of money and out $350...

Am i looking at any withdrawls tommorow? What can help?
 
sixpartseven said:
I stopped taking Suboxone in the end of December and eased off with Immodium (24 a day at the time, but now I'm down to just taking 3 a day, so almost ready to stop that shit too).
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I'm really happy to hear this :)!

Georgie25, you'll probably experience mild to moderate withdrawals.
 
the_ketaman said:
xxkcxx, yeah I wouldnt sell your stuff If I were you. im bout to go sell one of my speakers for 10 oc 80 and thats basically coz I have no choice, I need to stay well at least until I can get into detox and I can get another speaker, but pawning stuff sucks, it makes you feel pretty low. Dont do it KC, go get some immodium.
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Oh, don't worry, I can't drive myself anywhere and my parents aren't going to take me to a pawn shop and then to cop lol. I have to drive like 45 minutes (in mildly bad traffic) one way to get my shit from the city, so I can't really make that trip myself either.

I was just saying it is a blessing in disguise I don't have my car anymore, because I KNOW my new ipod (first 2 were pawned) would be gone amongst other things.



And don't worry, no one here thinks you are selfish...people come to TDS to talk and you are going through a lot right now. It can be hard to help others when you are in the middle of desperately trying to help yourself. <3
 
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