karma1485 said:
But then again what is your "feminine side" as a male? Just wondering if we're talking love and compassion and nesting etc. or if you just get a feeling of dis- attachment from your male "masculine testosterony selves
Good question, I have found that on certain psychedelics my libido rages wildly, and sex is quite fierce and passionate

- not like that though
Anyway, I have felt suffused with power in the psychedelic state; not power of people or things, as is somewhat of a male pre-occupation, but just Power. I find there has been a huge follow on effect; when I was younger (I'm only 25 now) I used to be a right cunt, fighting and aggressive, though I was always attracted to spiritualism (does black magick count??)- over years of using MDMA and LSD and DMT amongst others, I have defintely noticed a reduction in aggression. It could simply be that I'm just well clear of them fightin days due to maturity, but alot of my concious changing has come from insights gained when not as bound by ego.
That said, I am actually still very aggressive in many aspects; mainly in the sense that I tend to be confrontational, not physically, but ideologically- if that makes sense. So perhaps all that has occurred has been a change from external testosteroney-agression to more passive-agression.
I more think of the concept of feminine not as simply as the difference between men and women, but the opposing nature of most things, when examined. Yin yan and all that I Ching stuff....Hot/cold, light/dark, all really are the same concepts. Duality I guess... Trying to overcome such as that may be the aim of whatever we're actually doing (if we are doing anything at all)...the biological truth of male and females are that all embryos begin female, suggesting that somehow maleness might be almost a mutation, neccesary, but repleat with some dark waters. Of course, darkness is present for everyone, but its the masculine that physically emodies it. All categories of deviant and outright evil behaviour are dominated by males- that could be a socially learned response- or it could be a trait that is an outcome of both physical and mental seperateness from the 'Source', that males were severed from in the womb, and severe further in life. At least in my experience, I've only really seem apathetic or destructive males. Including me.
In a sense, a lot of guys I know are driven by a desire to self-destruct, or at least come close too, and psychedelics provide a decent means to do so. I really enjoy the feeling of my brain being completely overwhelmed by symbolic madness; my psychedleic use tends to be less frequent and higher dosage.
eek long stoned brain post. bedtime.
