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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Yes I also lost track of time and perception of what hour/day it is, sorta of disconnection with internal biological clock and time in general
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I dont know what hour it is if I don’t look at my phone (before the injections i could tell almost exactly what hour it was even without looking at the clock or my phone).

I don’t know what day of the week is anymore, before the injections i had a normal integration of consciousness and space-time so i could remember what day of the week was yesterday and i could tell what day of the week was today..

It’s really strange and scary at the same time, a total disconnection from time/space..
 
recovery100£ said:
What y’all up too today guys, I swear I don’t even know what day of the week it is anymore everything just blends in too one, anyone else feel like that atm?
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just trying to survive, tell myself every day just one more day, just try to survive a little longer, but nothing ever change is just constantly anhedonia by some overlod matrix psychiatrist who are trying to play game with my life. already 20 months like this. fucking sucks. i went to Asia and i feel like a sick dying old men, can't believe i felt in my prime before all of this i took Vyvanse and felt like the smartest person in the room, that's all gone now, possible forever, even if you heal from this everyone moved on and forget about you and labeled you a madmen, for me it seem i will never recover from this.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Yes I also lost track of time and perception of what hour/day it is, sorta of disconnection with internal biological clock and time in general
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Yeh it’s because everything feels the same at all times, time doesn’t matter to me now it’s literally just another day of the same shit until I recover tbh with you man, I can’t believe the drug depots take so long to leave the blood and muscle man it’s shocking
 
recovery100£ said:
Yeh it’s because everything feels the same at all times, time doesn’t matter to me now it’s literally just another day of the same shit until I recover tbh with you man, I can’t believe the drug depots take so long to leave the blood and muscle man it’s shocking
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i think part of it it it scars your brain, giving brain damage Alzheimer's like symptoms.
 
Bro what can I even do with my day at this point, everything is just the same, I eat, smoke, watch some shit and sleep, I’ve been doing the same thing everyday for 10 months now, 7 on the injection and 3 off it, this shits stuck in my blood and all I can do is either wait or end it
 
lostsoulowen said:
i think part of it it it scars your brain, giving brain damage Alzheimer's like symptoms.
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The reason it takes so long to heal is not just that it stays in the depot for so long but it changes the neurochemistry of your brain. After it wears off the brain has to literally rewire itself, and it never goes back to normal, just finds a new normal. It’s like having a stroke
 
I see why people kill themselves now, I’ve repeated the same day for as long as I can remember and I dont feel anything, I feel like this is a form of going crazy in an of itself, I don’t how much longer I can do this
 
I feel like there should be a movement to get this drug banned or at least to raise awareness for its effects. Something to inform the public so people know to avoid it like the plague. It should be common knowledge that this drug is deadly like how everyone knows about fentanyl.
 
Cant wait to collect money cause i work in netherlands now 🥰 and rent house near Greece beach hoping to have mystical experiences there after working hard for many months, then comeback home and maybe finally expose psychiatry as totally healthy man? Hm...
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Never suicide
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If I don’t recover in a couple of years, I will try to request assisted dying through Athanasius. And may God grant me the request. It’s truly frightening to think about living like this indefinitely. I feel like a completely different person. I can barely manage simple tasks like washing the dishes. I feel so physically weak, emotionally numb and I’m 36 years old. I’ve lost my sense of living. It’s difficult to explain this strange empty feeling. I don’t want to be negative, but I never asked to exist. I don’t believe God would punish me more in an afterlife for wanting to escape living with the suffering of possible brain damage. May God have mercy on us.
 
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