probablyanxious
Greenlighter
I’m a longtime high-dose benzo user (clonazepam 2+mg a day, 14 out of the last 20 years). I stopped taking the benzo as of 7/26 of this year. The withdrawals sucked but relative benzo withdrawals not as bad as previous withdrawals.
However I have been taking gabapentin before that sporadically (max 300mg in a day, not everyday). But since I jumped off the benzo I’ve been taking 600-900 mg a day of the GBP, practically every day. Occasionally my dosing reached 1200mg, but I’d say the average daily dose is 700-800mg a day. I’ve since read about the hell of GBP withdrawal.
I’ve been having some symptoms since the July jump. Notably, horrible suicidal depression, restless arms/legs/shoulders at night, waking up 1 hour after falling asleep, some weird muscle and nerve sensations/pains, intense anxiety, fear and social avoidance, sleep disturbances and insomnia. I’m probably forgetting some. The symptoms seem not to wane and maybe even intensify.
I was attributing these symptoms to benzo withdrawal but now I’m seriously wondering if I’m actually experiencing inter dose GBP withdrawal or possibly even side effects.
I need any help I can get trying to identify my issue and how I should proceed. I asked my psyche and therapist but they said it couldn’t be the benzo and that GBP doesn’t cause withdrawal. That maybe it’s a side effect and I should just stop taking it or taper extremely rapidly, like a week of tapering and call it good.
However I feel stuck between jumping off the benzo and now this GBP situation. I’m seriously thinking about restarting like Valium to help me get off GBP and manage these terrible symptoms.
Would it be okay you think to start up Valium? Should I just taper the GBP rapidly with no benzo? Should I long taper, and if so what does that look like? What’s the protocol if you have side effects? How can I deal with this while being at least somewhat functional? I feel like I’m dying or that I need to die. It’s no way to live. Please help. Thank you.
However I have been taking gabapentin before that sporadically (max 300mg in a day, not everyday). But since I jumped off the benzo I’ve been taking 600-900 mg a day of the GBP, practically every day. Occasionally my dosing reached 1200mg, but I’d say the average daily dose is 700-800mg a day. I’ve since read about the hell of GBP withdrawal.
I’ve been having some symptoms since the July jump. Notably, horrible suicidal depression, restless arms/legs/shoulders at night, waking up 1 hour after falling asleep, some weird muscle and nerve sensations/pains, intense anxiety, fear and social avoidance, sleep disturbances and insomnia. I’m probably forgetting some. The symptoms seem not to wane and maybe even intensify.
I was attributing these symptoms to benzo withdrawal but now I’m seriously wondering if I’m actually experiencing inter dose GBP withdrawal or possibly even side effects.
I need any help I can get trying to identify my issue and how I should proceed. I asked my psyche and therapist but they said it couldn’t be the benzo and that GBP doesn’t cause withdrawal. That maybe it’s a side effect and I should just stop taking it or taper extremely rapidly, like a week of tapering and call it good.
However I feel stuck between jumping off the benzo and now this GBP situation. I’m seriously thinking about restarting like Valium to help me get off GBP and manage these terrible symptoms.
Would it be okay you think to start up Valium? Should I just taper the GBP rapidly with no benzo? Should I long taper, and if so what does that look like? What’s the protocol if you have side effects? How can I deal with this while being at least somewhat functional? I feel like I’m dying or that I need to die. It’s no way to live. Please help. Thank you.
