Been working the last ~16 months on tapering, methadone the first ten and my psych meds the last six, since I've been on my methadone taper pause. What I was on then, vs. what I'm on now:
August '25:
170mg methadone
10mg olanzapine
100mg lamotrigine
60mg fluoxetine
Now:
20mg methadone
5mg fluoxetine
I do still take gabapentin, clonidine and tizanidine sporadically, leftover comfort med scripts from the methadone taper. But not consistently, daily, longterm. I'm looking to start my methadone taper again soon, probably at the first of the year. I recently switched from split dosing back to once daily because my clinic has a stupid 28 count bottle limit for take homes, and I wanted to go to monthly from biweekly. The switch wasn't bad, but it should help with the taper at such a low dose. I'll drop a milligram a month if I have to.
Idk, I guess I've just been reflecting on how sometimes when tapering you'll feel utterly stuck, stagnant, low, dealing with all kinds of(re)emerging mental symptoms that you're not even aware of. Me anyway lol. And that's not even touching on the many, varied and often awful physical withdrawal symptoms from the different meds. But then I look back, look at those two med lists side by side and it's like, damn... this last year and some change HAS been for something. Not to mention, coming off this last mental health med, the ssri, my clarity and mental agility are coming back, brain fog receding, other improvement as well. Also very, very much looking forward to being able to take psychedelics again and actually feel edibles again soon too lol.