first day of 10th grade

spypilot

spypilot

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i already finished my classes i just have to sit around for a few hours waiting for some assembly or some shit
its not like i dont do good in school, i did really good last year even when i was high as shit, finished the year with a's and b's
i dont really have friends at this school and why should i? i have some friends i just see them infrequently now
ive tried to socialize i just really suck at it, i know thats subjective but by these peoples standards (the people im trying to socialize with) i suck
i have a few good friends, adderall and art skills
i got this portable stereo recently
sony cfd-980
perfect for school
i go to my usual spot with headphones and a few cds and i just ignore everyone
sometimes i try to socialize but i need to really prepare in order to do so
i have a hard time understanding others, they all manage to just walk up to others and talk and just have a good time somehow
i dont relate to anyone here
when i try to have a conversation im usually the only one talking and they walk away within minutes or less
i have so much free time here id rather be home
if i dont have any drugs i would probably just start crying as i realize i have no friends here
im not an incel ive had sex before it just makes me sad and vulnerable and id rather not
i tell people im ok or im just tired
im not im just lonely and high
i try to talk to people knowing damn well i dont give a fuck about what they have to offer or say
its just a waste of time
 
I bet you could learn something from anyone. Even what you learn from them is what you don't like , process of elimination is helpful 😀
 
spypilot said:
a lot of the time i just end up wasting my time
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That's valid. Not everything will interest everyone.

Society isn't 1 size fits all, and being as you're a creative type of guy it might take some time to find those who you vibe best with.

But once you find them it will be worth the looking for.
 
High school, at least the 9th & 10th grade sucked in my lifetime. My family moved from a small Georgia town where I started the 4th grade. Had move at the end of 8th grade to a much larger jock town in Georgia. I absolutely hated living in LaGrange Ga. it was my dad's home town where he grew up.
After 10th grade my family moved to Smyrna Ga. 1972. I had choice to go to high school within my school district or to the high school where I had friends at the church where my dad preached. I had to get permission from the school board under the stipulation I provide my own transportation to school.
I was the new kid, I made a vow to get to know everyone. The new high school was much smaller than the one in LaGrange so making friends was easy. I was in a work release high school program Distributive Education Club of America where I got high school credit for working part time in school. I was elected State Parliamentarian for the Georgia chapter. We got to fly to Los Angeles California for DECA national convention. Nearly all of the state officers were removed from office for drinking and staying overnight in girls rooms during the convention.

My point is, no one knows the future, it may suck now but you have the power to change when you are ready.
 
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