I take a myriad of drugs from day to day that includes gabapentin, oxycodone, poppy tea, Dilaudid, Suboxone, Xanax,
7-oh, pregablin, so my kidneys and liver have probably been working OT. I dosed 600mg in 4 hours and it really scared the fuck out of me. The average user would have went to the hospital, but I toughed it out & remained calm. The head pressure o experienced was I only had felt that one other time when I cooked 7 g of hashish & 14 g of weed into a buttermilk concoction & drank it all at once & so uncomfortably high it was scary shit. I wanted out of my skin is the only way I could describe it. The 7-oh had a penetrating head pressure that was almost unbearable. I think I am done with that shit, it too dirty from dose to dose. Who knows what's in that pill?
Sigmadrugcollector
Well...Only the one who test what the pill contains knows what is really in that pill..
I am now on high dose modafinil, 750mg of pregabaline and 3mg of alprazolam.
I am very awake.
At morning I will consume my last dihydrocodeine 60mg pill.
I won't go thouth full withdrawal but there will be noticable discomfort. But it's ok, i used this to somehow switch from my opioid use to something that will overpower the 2 days of discomfort. I never want to go through full opioid and benzo wd again. I did it and it was great decision. Now I use almost nothig but when I use, i do it in way of avoiding full physical dependency. I can take benzos now and not use them for next week and i will be ok. I wont use opioids and i will be ok. Still functional, no acute wd. It is sobriety combined with occasional and time-limited usage of mostly physically not addictive drugs. Meth was helping a lot at first but it is too potent and toxic, i quit that drug too..After every single time i did a few lines and smoked theough a day or two i was sick. Not comedown ( i don't have them anymore, i firtst used it 15 years ago ) but my body would be sick, for example diarrhea and skin problems which are not acne they are worse.
But I try to take very good care of myself. Without all the vitamines, minerals, hygiene i would be death right now.
After I quit my opioids and benzos at the same time without taper i felt absolutely zombified for a month or two after the acute wd was over. Now I am not lacking energy but I have to admit i lack being high. I know i have to be sober and if u use something i can not develop dependence on it.
I have to be free in a way like suddenly going out of town for a few days and not having to care and stress about having enough of opioids or benzos to be functuional.
I need to be functional sober and I am but once in a while i use now mostly what my very nice doctors prescribe me. It's not good that they kept me on physically addictive drugs for more than a decade but it is very good to score my prescription for what i want and need and they know about my addiction and my progress. They always give me comfort meds, opioids one times per month if i ask for it, benzos anytime. When I was too strung out on meth i visited my psychiatrist and i was just sitting in the waiting room, waiting until he will spend 15 minutes with every person sitting there waiting for their appointment. But he opened the door and instantly told me to come inside, they made me drink a lot watter slowly and they put me on IV diazepam, they gave me iv 10mg doses 3 times and i said ok i feel much better, i am save i will go home and try to relax. Doctor gave me prescription for diazepam to took at home and also for promethazine.
He knows i like promethazine because it potentiates every downer and reduce my benzo consumption....I ask if hydroxizine won't be enough but he said that for overstimulated patients it's best to provide benzo and promethazine because it has slight antimanic and antipsychotic effects so, he again gave me promethazine cause it's stronger and he didn't want me to fall into stimulant induced psychosis.
Isn't it nice having doctors who know u are using and they help u insted of telling u to visit er and than to get hospitalized ?
And to help me with craving for meth he gave me mirtazapine - it really works but u will eat everything at sight. And modafinil.
They have conferences where they teach them about new research on meds and he said that according to the new research mirtazapine is ultimate anti-wd and and anti-craving atypical antidepressant ( i would say it is more like heavy sedative with additional effect of making your brain release more of noradrenaline, serotonine and dopamine ).
And modafinil was prescribed instead of bupropion. He said that bupropion 450mg won't provide me anything after my 15years of meth experience but modafinil has anticonvulsant properties and doses higher than 400mg provide heavy dopamine increase comparable to metylphenidate and low dose dexamphetamine.
And it is true.
I took 800mg and I am more awake and capable of doing something productive then if I took some meth.
It also makes u stimulated by other than dopamine ways and benzos doesn't work to calm it down. Honestly I can fall asleep after meth much easier then after modafinil. I will need to use hige dose of antihistamineb-based sedative like promethazine and it will cause unwanted result = 2 hours of sleep and being wired but tired. For guite a long time.
What was the point of this ?
I detoxed and eliminated DEPENDENCE on opioids and benzodiazepines.
It was possible with right meds and u need to do it when u have 2 weeks of "holiday" but u will mostly lay on your bed, popping immodium + buscopan + sedatives ( in my case it was mirtazapine, promethazine, chlorprothixen), some nsaid and acetaminophen with dextrometorfan, levetiracetam against seizures.
I had no weed this time so i make it with only this meds and they really helped. Thanks to immodium and buscopan my digestive system was calmed down, buscopan even put me into slight anticholinergic trance. Sedatives made me sleep and they both reduce nausea and vomiting to minimum.
It was like 7-9 days of semi-coma state followed by extreme lack of energy. I was done. Clean but unable to even do basic things. So i obtained meth and it helped with energy but my body doesn't tolerate it anymore. So now my doctor prescribed me modafinil, pregabaline, alprazolam, promethazine oh and even another benzo - cinolazepam ( Gerodorm ). It's used for insomnia usually. But it is just nice hypnotic benzo. Everything in ammount to just have some kind of escape from that sobriety and lack of energy. But I won't use dihydrocodeine for a long time now. It is impotrant to use opioids just once in a while. Then they are the best drugs - comform, energy, mood elevation and relief from that fcking pain but u have to use them only for a few days and than stop.
Being capable of using opioids and not get physically dependent is something I am proud of myself to achieve.
Do your detox. Get rid of addiction. Than use smartly. And be aware there will be real sobriety for days or weeks - it is beautiful but u know...after 15 years of heavy drug use I sometines need to escape. But i calculate everything. Days, doses....
When I really want to stay completely sober but i need to feed my inner needs I buy some weed and just smoke a lot for a few days.
But it's expensive, maybe cause i have to smoke a lot when I have weed...And all of the meds my docs prescribe for me cost MUCH less. It is interesting life being functional user but not addict anymore and it's kind of lonely road, just me and my dog, my male cat Felix, 2 sober friends...I burned bridges between me and my friends who used or were dealers.
Much less drama, no waiting, all of this annoying bullshit being friend with dealers and phone always ringing or waiting hours instead of 30 minutes for him to appear and give me a lot of meth for free and than people suddenly want to visit me to have a free dose cause i was stupid and i often made a line and let my friend snort it and get high of my stuff. Than my dealer friend had semi-psychotic episodes of being unnable to find for days...I am so happy this is over.
