ChemicallyEnhanced
Bluelighter
My Morphine has been lasting shorter and shorter times.
My script is meant to be 14 days and even though I effective double it by plugging it (10mg rectal morphine = ~20mg oral morphine), it NEVER lasts no matter how hard I try.
Two prescriptions ago, it was the worst and I ran out 5 days early, so went 5 days cold turkey (I used moderate Lope on 2 or 3 of the days).
Last prescription I ran out 6 days early and had to go SIX days cold turkey...no lope but I had full-spectrum CBD, passionflower extract, gabapentin and sodium ascorbate as "comfort meds".
Spent all of those days promising myself never to run out again...and of course here I am 48 hrs into going 6.5 days with nothing.
However, I don't have any acute withdrawal symptoms after 48 hours? It feels like PAWS where I feel mildly depressed and contantly bored, but that's about it. No muscle pain, no nausea, no diarhoea, nothing. One maybe symptom is I'm a little sweaty...well, more clammy, I'm not like soaked or having constant beading pouring off me like proper withdrawal...and it's hot here and also I'm in diabetic ketoacidosis and also I have a soft tissue infection...so fever maybe?
Do you guys think if I'm asymptomatic after 48 hrs that I can be safely assured wd isn't gonna happen. Since I cold turkeys for a little over 6 days, then used for 8...that 8 days just wasn't long enough to start a physical dependancy again after effectively getting fully past detoxing before (6-and-a-bit days is basically the full-length of the severe, acute withdrawal...I think generally you start improving for sure on day 6)??
^Could I be that lucky?? The hope is keeping me from...IDK self-harm or something...I feel kinda like the very first time I was hospitalized after an alcohol withdrawal seizure and they kept me in for 8 days, detoxing me with (extremely high vitamins, especially B vitamins, especially especially thiamine..all IV, on a drip) librium (50mg as needed) and lorazepam (2.5mg, 3 x day)...and I think also Haloperidol 1.5mg 3 x a day for a bit (hallucinations/delirium from severe withdrawal)...anyway, after the 8 days when they said I could go home I asked if I needed to drink less than before and was told I didn't need to drink at all and that the 8 day detox had fully gotten rid of any PHYSICAL dependancy. I was so happy, not being trapped by it anymore.
*I don't do that, haven't in like 8 years....but I don't have ANY substances to take (unless you count Gabapentin...or Cyclizine, but I'm not gonna self-inflict the "high" you get from first gen anti-histamines) and I already stopped eating (down14lbs in 15 days :D) and...I'm running out of coping mechanisms.
My script is meant to be 14 days and even though I effective double it by plugging it (10mg rectal morphine = ~20mg oral morphine), it NEVER lasts no matter how hard I try.
Two prescriptions ago, it was the worst and I ran out 5 days early, so went 5 days cold turkey (I used moderate Lope on 2 or 3 of the days).
Last prescription I ran out 6 days early and had to go SIX days cold turkey...no lope but I had full-spectrum CBD, passionflower extract, gabapentin and sodium ascorbate as "comfort meds".
Spent all of those days promising myself never to run out again...and of course here I am 48 hrs into going 6.5 days with nothing.
However, I don't have any acute withdrawal symptoms after 48 hours? It feels like PAWS where I feel mildly depressed and contantly bored, but that's about it. No muscle pain, no nausea, no diarhoea, nothing. One maybe symptom is I'm a little sweaty...well, more clammy, I'm not like soaked or having constant beading pouring off me like proper withdrawal...and it's hot here and also I'm in diabetic ketoacidosis and also I have a soft tissue infection...so fever maybe?
Do you guys think if I'm asymptomatic after 48 hrs that I can be safely assured wd isn't gonna happen. Since I cold turkeys for a little over 6 days, then used for 8...that 8 days just wasn't long enough to start a physical dependancy again after effectively getting fully past detoxing before (6-and-a-bit days is basically the full-length of the severe, acute withdrawal...I think generally you start improving for sure on day 6)??
^Could I be that lucky?? The hope is keeping me from...IDK self-harm or something...I feel kinda like the very first time I was hospitalized after an alcohol withdrawal seizure and they kept me in for 8 days, detoxing me with (extremely high vitamins, especially B vitamins, especially especially thiamine..all IV, on a drip) librium (50mg as needed) and lorazepam (2.5mg, 3 x day)...and I think also Haloperidol 1.5mg 3 x a day for a bit (hallucinations/delirium from severe withdrawal)...anyway, after the 8 days when they said I could go home I asked if I needed to drink less than before and was told I didn't need to drink at all and that the 8 day detox had fully gotten rid of any PHYSICAL dependancy. I was so happy, not being trapped by it anymore.
*I don't do that, haven't in like 8 years....but I don't have ANY substances to take (unless you count Gabapentin...or Cyclizine, but I'm not gonna self-inflict the "high" you get from first gen anti-histamines) and I already stopped eating (down14lbs in 15 days :D) and...I'm running out of coping mechanisms.
