Today so far:
- 1,200mg of gabapentin over the last 2 hours, 300mg every half hour with a small handful of potato chips for some lipid content. My GI tract is missing numerous organs so I often wonder how well this stuff absorbs, and lipid coadministration always makes a major difference at least for me, I'm not sure if that applies to others though.
- 10mg of cyclobenzaprine.
- A good amount of THC/HHC out of the box mod.
- ~30mg of intranasal ice over the past ~6 hours.
- 75mg of bupropion XR, about to take another 75mg though.
- 2 Caffeine pills so far (200mg each), but taking a third one soon because I am unironically crazy addicted to one thing right now, and it's these little yellow caffeine pills. The withdrawal headaches genuinely induce migraine with aura now, it's absurd, but it's nowhere near as bad as I was back when I was doing my thesis project and consuming 800-1,400mg of caffeine a day, every day for months.
- Yesterday I said this: "If I hadn't used 15mg of miprocin (4-HO-DiPT) yesterday I'd possibly be vaporizing some 25E-NBOH right now, I'm tempted to still do it just to see if it cuts through whatever tolerance the miprocin brought on, honestly.". Today I decided to take a few hits off the old 25E-NBOH to see how it hit, and honestly I did not notice any reduction in effect, 5 large rips took maybe an eighth or so of the millilter of liquid down so I'm assuming it was something like 300mcg based on the concentration of active constituent in that PG.
- In a Redd's apple cider I put 1.5mg of MGM-15 (the most I can handle without nausea), and ~3.5mg of etizolam.
- An unmeasuerd quantity of datura and henbane ointment rubbed onto my inner wrists to soak straight into my blood stream (5mg/mL), I didn't make this or run it through the lab so I'm running on straight trust as to what this contains. It's warming, pro-sexual, and unironically the most intense music enhancer out of the almost 200 different substances I've used in my life so far. It also enhances psychedelics it seems, miprocin and DOM especially enjoyed the presence of this ointment. I still have the HPPD remnants of miprocin and DOM hanging around, but around a week ago I also broke my THC consumption record and vaped 8 grams of distillate out of a box mod in just under 48 hours, without even trying to smoke so much, it just sort of happened. What I've discovered about this ointment is that it can trigger HPPD in a very potent way, reminiscent of cannabis but sharper and far more emotional for some reason. More pro-social, pro-sexual, and music enhancing than cannabis too which is a high bar to cross, if you ask me.
Overall, been going hard for a couple days and getting a tremendous amount done. The fascinating psychedelic sheen that a low dose of vaporized 25E-NBOH can instill is super unique, small doses of 25C-NBOMe, 25B-NBOH, 25B-NBOMe or 25I-NBOMe all produce far greater adverse effects even in a barely noticeable dose like this one is. I also would never advise any readers to coadminister bupropion, meth, and an NBOMe (especially vaporized, jesus), but I have a tolerance to the former two, and some sort of perverted obsession with 25X-NBXX compounds to begin with. My caffeine tolerance is also skyrocketing as I push to be more productive coding and writing recently, so I need to balance that out, may start rotating 2 week cycles of coca tea with caffeine pills to keep the tolerances down. Enough people around me have asked for written trip reports, guides on things like laying blotter or descriptions of unique altered states I've explored, so I decided to just start writing as much down as I can as long as it follows Grice's Maxims and seems like something that may be useful to the community of drug users. Taking this period of unemployment to try to knock some shit out while I have this much free time. Writing this all down feels like some weird conceited act of hubris, I've been involved with drugs for about 14 years and have done a lot of experiments surrounding guided sessions, compounding, some synthetic chemistry, a solid amount of analytical work surrounding reagent testing RCs and samples from the street and all that. I don't know to what extent anybody is ever ready to write about these things, so I'm trying to thoroughly interweave statements like that, and an air of humility, into the writings. I don't know what it is that does or doesn't constitute being "ready" to write about this, but in the future shall I feel more prepared, I suppose I could always do it again and aim for a better outcome.
On the topic of the other project I've been working on, the layoffs and career field restructuring that's been occurring in the tech world has strained out the undesirable entities who were present to make money, now all that remains is the true few who do these things for the love of the game. I've been feeling a strong call to get back into cybersecurity related antics, rewriting my old mutagenic library could be neat. While mostly applied to malware when used in the wild, mutagenic software can rewrite itself but unlike quines it takes a new form, while maintaining the same function on the input and output side of things. This was simple enough to do in Lua, but trying to remake it in Rust is proving to be quite an unnecessary struggle, I may just write a better version but in Lua because Lua really kicks ass at contorting itself into novel forms like a shapeshifter with a strong imagination. Attempting to take a language with such orthodox structure as Rust or Python to do this would really rely on salting without logical polymorphism being able to stretch far, so you'd still leave easily recognizable tokens in the mutated output. I'm trying to avoid that as much as possible. Perl would be a better option than Lua in my opinion, as it seems that for every 10 ways Lua can accomplish something, Perl has 25 ways to do the same thing, which could give greater depth to the amount of logical polymorphism I could get this program to apply to itself. I'm just not enough of a Perl wizard to pull that off yet, but Lua feels like my native language so I suppose that'll be the tool for this upcoming project.
Edit: I just found the roaches of etizolam/phenazolam dipped cigarettes I finished recently, may mix some of those up with flower before bed tonight.
... it's never enough fr ... 
sedated but not really high... Gotta stop the bs for good ffs!! 
