HeadphonesandLSD
Bluelighter
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I'm going to double post fuck it. I'll be up front about what I think is going on.
I grew up an atheist. My parents never pushed religion on to me. My grandmother was devout church goer and we have a preacher in the family. But they never made me go if I didn't want to and if I did go I went like once a month (and hardly ever after age 12). Church was alright I didn't mind because there were other children to play with and it was only an hour long anyway. Our church is pretty laid back. My point is they never pushed it on me. The Christian values were certainly taught but they never used them as an excuse for why I should listen to them and follow them.
My point is...I was heavy into science and didn't believe in "fairy tales".
But by my mid-20s things started happening to me and in my life that made me question the state of things in this "reality". I guess I always did but lets leave it at things started coming to visit in the night sometimes. People around me changed after doing bad stuff. My use of certain substances didn't help matters and I noticed patterns that would happen around them (mostly during heavy use). Certain other substances were unlocking doors in my mind I probably shouldn't have been opening at the time.
I saw a lot of shit that made me believe in an afterlife. Then one day I got brave and "saw God". Not in the sense I had "sensed" him before. I saw it/him/her/whatever. Well it was more like seeing the underlying code of what the "reality" is running on and the fact that it/he/him/her really is everywhere and all things simultaneously. It's like he's operating a veil but it's a veil that also blinds it/him/her. It's impossible to describe in words. It was an "Ah Ha!" moment that one can only understand if they've gone through it themselves.
Now I don't want to give full credit to my stupid use of that stupid drug on that stupid day for my way of thinking. It was just the thing that nudged me in the right direction. I did a lot of study after that (well after I'd recovered a few weeks later). I got really into studying religions after this. All of them. The Jewish/Christian/Islam ones were basically the same as I'm sure most of you know. So I quickly moved on to eastern stuff. Then later American native American and African stuff. Kept seeing the same thing over and over: Savior story, man ate the forbidden fruit, treat others how you want to be treated, flood myth, one god ruling over a bunch of others that represent elements/animals and blah blah blah. Even the pagan stuff is like this. The names change but it's the same thing over and over.
On the "evil" path it is like that but in reverse. They think "God" was keeping us trapped in the Garden and Lucifer/Satan/Prometheus brought us "the knowledge" aka fire aka the divine intellect. They worship the intellect or some would say Satan. In other words: they're seeking to become Gods just going down a different path. Where people that believe in Jesus/Buddha/etc are trying to obtain godhood on the peaceful path. Both good and evil have to co-exist because otherwise life would be boring as fuck. So we're in a game with each other that keeps us all just interested enough to keep playing.
I think there is a way out of this reality and it is very likely it's a prison/trap of some sort. I think "evil" path followers cut deals with whomever is running the prison to keep things under control down here in exchange for material goods/easy life. I think those on the "good" path are training their minds/souls to escape the prison upon their death. I think most people have no idea this "spiritual battle" is taking place and will get tricked into coming right back here when they reincarnate. I think whatever is running the prison shows up when you dies, pretends to be Jesus/family member/whoever then gets you to agree to walk into the light everyone that has an NDE talks about seeing. I think with enough training you should be able to resist the prison guards and escape. To what I have no idea. But it must be better than this place. Since I'm pretty sure we might be in hell already.
There are many theories about the prison and why it exists. I don't really care about them. I just want out of the prison. I plan to try really hard to escape when I finally kick the bucket. I'm trying to prepare for it.
If there really is a "source" I think we're probably multiple levels down from it by now. Like the "God" in the bible (and others). The "jealous god" that says "no other gods before me". I think he's probably one of many. Running his own little fucked up prison. I think you could easily be as powerful as him. Provided you trained and weren't living in his hell we call Earth trying to scrape together enough to survive.
The whole "source" theory relies on it sending pieces of itself out into the universe/whatever to learn and experience everything. All I have to say on that matter is source must love pain because I'm certainly experiencing more than my fair share and not enough good stuff. If source exists I don't think I'd choose to merge back with it.
My ultimate goal would be to create my own dream world and cast of characters where everyone is happy and see if I could make it work. Engineer the perfect universe for me. But once I'd done it I'd want to forget I was really a "God" because otherwise it'd be no fun. So maybe God is one of us riding the bus just to trying to make his way home.
I think the goal is to become a god. Since we obviously exist outside of our bodies somehow. The brain proves that (among other things). So that's my goal: become a god and try to be a good one. It sounds like a hard job. I'd take it serious. I'd want more people to also become gods who want to take the job serious. Imagine the chaos that would result from a bad god.
I grew up an atheist. My parents never pushed religion on to me. My grandmother was devout church goer and we have a preacher in the family. But they never made me go if I didn't want to and if I did go I went like once a month (and hardly ever after age 12). Church was alright I didn't mind because there were other children to play with and it was only an hour long anyway. Our church is pretty laid back. My point is they never pushed it on me. The Christian values were certainly taught but they never used them as an excuse for why I should listen to them and follow them.
My point is...I was heavy into science and didn't believe in "fairy tales".
But by my mid-20s things started happening to me and in my life that made me question the state of things in this "reality". I guess I always did but lets leave it at things started coming to visit in the night sometimes. People around me changed after doing bad stuff. My use of certain substances didn't help matters and I noticed patterns that would happen around them (mostly during heavy use). Certain other substances were unlocking doors in my mind I probably shouldn't have been opening at the time.
I saw a lot of shit that made me believe in an afterlife. Then one day I got brave and "saw God". Not in the sense I had "sensed" him before. I saw it/him/her/whatever. Well it was more like seeing the underlying code of what the "reality" is running on and the fact that it/he/him/her really is everywhere and all things simultaneously. It's like he's operating a veil but it's a veil that also blinds it/him/her. It's impossible to describe in words. It was an "Ah Ha!" moment that one can only understand if they've gone through it themselves.
Now I don't want to give full credit to my stupid use of that stupid drug on that stupid day for my way of thinking. It was just the thing that nudged me in the right direction. I did a lot of study after that (well after I'd recovered a few weeks later). I got really into studying religions after this. All of them. The Jewish/Christian/Islam ones were basically the same as I'm sure most of you know. So I quickly moved on to eastern stuff. Then later American native American and African stuff. Kept seeing the same thing over and over: Savior story, man ate the forbidden fruit, treat others how you want to be treated, flood myth, one god ruling over a bunch of others that represent elements/animals and blah blah blah. Even the pagan stuff is like this. The names change but it's the same thing over and over.
On the "evil" path it is like that but in reverse. They think "God" was keeping us trapped in the Garden and Lucifer/Satan/Prometheus brought us "the knowledge" aka fire aka the divine intellect. They worship the intellect or some would say Satan. In other words: they're seeking to become Gods just going down a different path. Where people that believe in Jesus/Buddha/etc are trying to obtain godhood on the peaceful path. Both good and evil have to co-exist because otherwise life would be boring as fuck. So we're in a game with each other that keeps us all just interested enough to keep playing.
I think there is a way out of this reality and it is very likely it's a prison/trap of some sort. I think "evil" path followers cut deals with whomever is running the prison to keep things under control down here in exchange for material goods/easy life. I think those on the "good" path are training their minds/souls to escape the prison upon their death. I think most people have no idea this "spiritual battle" is taking place and will get tricked into coming right back here when they reincarnate. I think whatever is running the prison shows up when you dies, pretends to be Jesus/family member/whoever then gets you to agree to walk into the light everyone that has an NDE talks about seeing. I think with enough training you should be able to resist the prison guards and escape. To what I have no idea. But it must be better than this place. Since I'm pretty sure we might be in hell already.
There are many theories about the prison and why it exists. I don't really care about them. I just want out of the prison. I plan to try really hard to escape when I finally kick the bucket. I'm trying to prepare for it.
If there really is a "source" I think we're probably multiple levels down from it by now. Like the "God" in the bible (and others). The "jealous god" that says "no other gods before me". I think he's probably one of many. Running his own little fucked up prison. I think you could easily be as powerful as him. Provided you trained and weren't living in his hell we call Earth trying to scrape together enough to survive.
The whole "source" theory relies on it sending pieces of itself out into the universe/whatever to learn and experience everything. All I have to say on that matter is source must love pain because I'm certainly experiencing more than my fair share and not enough good stuff. If source exists I don't think I'd choose to merge back with it.
My ultimate goal would be to create my own dream world and cast of characters where everyone is happy and see if I could make it work. Engineer the perfect universe for me. But once I'd done it I'd want to forget I was really a "God" because otherwise it'd be no fun. So maybe God is one of us riding the bus just to trying to make his way home.
I think the goal is to become a god. Since we obviously exist outside of our bodies somehow. The brain proves that (among other things). So that's my goal: become a god and try to be a good one. It sounds like a hard job. I'd take it serious. I'd want more people to also become gods who want to take the job serious. Imagine the chaos that would result from a bad god.
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