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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I cannot endure all this alone on my own, i did for 21 months, but the reality is that I need basic help for eating, and support.

If They never damaged my brain with these injections, i would take care of myself and my cat like i always did before the harm, but some inside this forum know what i’am talking about, when you are severely disabled due to the harm, you have no choice but to protect your pet, and let others take care of you.
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I'm really sorry for what happened to you, I hope you can find compassionate people around you. Don't lose hope. I hope they can guide you well during the tapering off, it takes time but it's not forever. You will get through this, always believe
 
chima said:
I'm really sorry for what happened to you, I hope you can find compassionate people around you. Don't lose hope. I hope they can guide you well during the tapering off, it takes time but it's not forever. You will get through this, always believe
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I have sympthoms after 21 months i did my last injections, this is starting to scare the shit out of me, tapering mirtazapine and benzos for anxiety it’s not a problem.

The problem is that maybe the damage they did to me it’s permanent. Only time will tell but I can tell you; after 21 months i’am not really positive about my recovery, sympthoms are so severe and so lasting that not even after 21 months i got better.

Some people just don’t recover, we know that, we don’t understeand why, maybe in 50 or 75 years the medical system will have more knowledge about.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I have sympthoms after 21 months i did my last injections, this is starting to scare the shit out of me, tapering mirtazapine and benzos for anxiety it’s not a problem.

The problem is that maybe the damage they did to me it’s permanent. Only time will tell but I can tell you; after 21 months i’am not really positive about my recovery, sympthoms are so severe and so lasting that not even after 21 months i got better.

Some people just don’t recover, we know that, we don’t understeand why, maybe in 50 or 75 years the medical system will have more knowledge about.
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Don't worry, there is always a solution. Some people recover after some years. And if by then there is still no sign of improvement, the right medication and the right doctor can be helpful too. Praying for your recovery
 
chima said:
It's (not) funny how I have been anhedonic since 2021 as I have been taking an antipsychotic for 5 years before the injection... I wonder if in such a case natural recovery doesn't take more time... but as long as I'm functional I can wait I guess... today I was able to have a walk and wash the dishes thank God
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How many injections?
 
InvegaAnon said:
Maybe it's the sleeping pills? Have you tried melatonin?
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Yes magnesium, melatonin, z drugs , now on Davigo which is most expensive one, still no sleep, trying cbd oil, and my pssd and anhedonia is keep getting worse everyday, I think I’m unluckiest one that has gotten worse instead of getting better
 
Did anyone try cabergolin? Any improvement? I heard this works as opposite to invega.

I am going to hospital today again for more detailed test for free testosterone and some other hormone together.

Will get pde5 medicine for erection, and hopefully get cabergoline too.

I hope these will help me recover please. So disappointing life.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
21 months after the injections, i still suffer a lot and basically i dont even know how i’am still alive, the fact is that I can no longer give love or play-time to my cat, and he is falling into depression too because his owner (me) is still disabled to a point he can’t even play or share love to her, she don’t need to suffer inside this small appartment because i have brain damage.

I will bring her to a cat shelter, so they can give proper medical assistance
To her, and she can be around other cats, this is way better than being closed into an appartment with me, because she is suffering too.

I also contact the psych ward where i was 1.5 months ago and explained to them that I cannot keep living closed into my appartment since i don’t have any support from my family and i need a place where i don’t have to bother about meals and other things, since i cannot anymore take proper care of myself due to the brain damage.

I will go back there, until i will recover or spend the rest of my life there, idk, the fact is that my cat don’t deserve to suffer because of what they did to me, and i cannot endure longer on my own with a toxic family that not only don’t support me but they are sadistic to a point where they enjoy my agony.

They cannot foce me any drugs so i will stay there tapering benzo’s and mirtazapine, hoping i will get better by hitting the 24-26 months, or even the 30 months, so i can go back to my normal life and take care of my cat.
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I think the Cat is confused over how you changed, it may be sad but i dont think it hates you. Does it follow you around?

I dont know the risks involved in your case but try psychedelics or ketamine.
 
Treedoctor said:
Did anyone try cabergolin? Any improvement? I heard this works as opposite to invega.

I am going to hospital today again for more detailed test for free testosterone and some other hormone together.

Will get pde5 medicine for erection, and hopefully get cabergoline too.

I hope these will help me recover please. So disappointing life.
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Free testosterone can give a more accurate picture of libido and related symptoms, since it represents the biologically active form of testosterone
 
anonymoususer777 said:
I think the Cat is confused over how you changed, it may be sad but i dont think it hates you. Does it follow you around?

I dont know the risks involved in your case but try psychedelics or ketamine.
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Yeah it follow me around and search for my attention and love but i’am way too into the agony to be there for her, she realize that and it’s slowly falling into depression
 
Every day it’s just agony all the sympthoms are driving me crazy because wdym i have severe DPDR that scare the shit out of me every second because i keep noticing the distortion of my sense? It’s just a waiting game until someone develop a psychosis or just got crazy and lose The touch with reality
 
I searched about Cabercoline in this forum but I don't think it fixed anyone's sexual dysfunction.

And It seems it has some side effects too.

Hopefully, I heal over time.

I broke up with new girlfriend because of this again.

Only few days of dating.

It is so sad.

Maybe I need to give up dating life?
 
The disconnected feeling of penis and brain is such disappointment...

Does this ever come back?

I try to really think positive but I become too sad really...
 
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Treedoctor said:
The disconnected feeling of penis and brain is such disappointment...

Does this ever come back?

I try to really think positive but I become too sad really...
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Idk if chemichal castration is reversibile, some people here claim it came back after 2 years, i’am struggling to masturbate and I don’t even feel the “needs” it’s more a thing that I force myself to do like a “sexual rehab”

Before the injections was a need (i mean sex) and after it’s just a thing i dont think much about, not even seeing nice girls around made me feel “oh damn that girl is nice i would like to have something with her”.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Idk if chemichal castration is reversibile, some people here claim it came back after 2 years, i’am struggling to masturbate and I don’t even feel the “needs” it’s more a thing that I force myself to do like a “sexual rehab”

Before the injections was a need (i mean sex) and after it’s just a thing i dont think much about, not even seeing nice girls around made me feel “oh damn that girl is nice i would like to have something with her”.
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It seems like you are already near 2 years right?

Same for me almost 2 years since I got last injection.

I don't feel the "need" to do it.

I see girls and think some are attractive but there is no need for masturbation.

I still want to meet a girl maybe who doesn't need to do sexual thing with me.

For a moment I was really thinking about how to kill myself.

This is such a torture and if I can't become a saint this way, I would really die.
 
Treedoctor said:
It seems like you are already near 2 years right?

Same for me almost 2 years since I got last injection.

I don't feel the "need" to do it.

I see girls and think some are attractive but there is no need for masturbation.

I still want to meet a girl maybe who doesn't need to do sexual thing with me.

For a moment I was really thinking about how to kill myself.

This is such a torture and if I can't become a saint this way, I would really die.
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