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Had a massive headache all day

Had kratom about 5 grams, codeine 100mg, 12,5mg diazepam, 25mg oxazepam, promethazine 50mg, 0.150mg ketamine snorted few joints of Cali and some clonidine
 
Kratom can be bitch to get off huh?
Yeah... I thought it's gonna be easier to get off of, that's why I switched. But I kept switching back when I was aiming for a high, being unaware of the extent of tolerance that resulted in. Means I had to use terrible doses of Tram/Tilidin (for my taste at least) and that ruined my tol even more... ๐Ÿ˜’...
I just can't get over the goddamn craving to feel something from all the stuff I'm taking once in a while... But I finally learned the lesson, that switching between Kratom type and classical opioids is a bad idea - therefore the Mitragynin as I can't control myself with 7oh ๐Ÿ™„
I've never tried it. I've heard enough about it to know it's not for me. It would be awesome for a bit then the returns would diminish and I'd just get addicted.
100%, same as every other opioid. Stay away if you can...
How long does the WD last?
Idk tbh... I never got over the first one - two days โ˜ ๏ธ
Thought about tapering?
I do... Since January, but every attempt to get high results in nearly immediately increased tolerance, so I'm playing jo jo all the time ๐Ÿ˜‘
Edit: added another
3,3 g powder and
25 mg Mirtazapin and
25 mg cbd
 
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I really don't like kratom on three levels. It's hard to choke down. It makes me dopey and dumb. and I get constipated.
The vape pen I blew through 2g of I thought was a THC vape was a kratom vape. the reason I was having a hard time going since last year.
 
I really don't like kratom on three levels. It's hard to choke down. It makes me dopey and dumb. and I get constipated.
The vape pen I blew through 2g of I thought was a THC vape was a kratom vape. the reason I was having a hard time going since last year.
A Kratom vape!?! Means you keep using it or are you talking about extended WD?
Edit: the constipation from Kratom is nothing compared to classical opis ime. When I switched to Kratom I had to deal with diarrhea and cold sweats for days...
 
I was using it since the new year assuming it was a weed vape.
It was not labelled at all as to what was in it. I stopped using it and have an easier time in the restroom.
 
I was using it since the new year assuming it was a weed vape.
It was not labelled at all as to what was in it. I stopped using it and have an easier time in the restroom.
Unlikely to be kratom, likely a random RC opioid maybe some mitragynoid derivative if youre lucky but since its unlabeled I would bet its not
 
Oops, wrote a post yesterday but forgot to hit the post button. Alchohol is weird man, definitely not my drug, although I didnโ€™t have a significant hangover this morning, only upset stomach.

Today has been tiny bit of IC-26, weed and 10mg deschloroetizolam just now. Heading to bed rn.

Hereโ€™s yesterdayโ€™s chemical cocktail and slight ramble:

chaotic day, my life is never boring which is fun and all but sometimes I want a break

- 4-5mg bretanizil
- 3-4 lines of speed (roughly 0.45g)
- 1/3 last nightโ€™s joint + 1 joint
- couple shots worth of vodka, lowkey idk

Couldnโ€™t fall asleep, too doped up and in the flow of drawing I suppose. Ate I think like 4-5 bretanizil 1mg tablets and eventually slept a bit, but was still very benzoโ€™d and tired, so couple lines speed.

Wasnโ€™t good quality speed, but this at least had some actual amphetamine in it. Needed a bit of weed to be able to eat breakfast.

Uni was exhausting and I think Iโ€™m almost completely certain of my decision to switch studies, especially cuz now itโ€™s the most convenient and Iโ€™m hoping I can just skip this last semester .โ€”.

That decision partially would relieve me, but also scary cuz ughh having to do the first year over again at another university. But then I would be studying in the same city all my rave friends live and also study, while living where all my childhood friend groups are.

So ehh not totally โ€˜newโ€™ and socially Iโ€™ve grown a lot more confident since I started my gender transition.

Also holyshit Iโ€™m rambling, sorry๐Ÿ˜ญ I think I am feeling the alchohol maybe. Underestimated the apple flavored vodka oopsies

But uhh yes, I cooked some yummy pasta and sat outside while smoking a joint and drinking the vodka drink.

Normally donโ€™t fuck with alcohol, but it was on sale so why not. Definitely think testosterone has changed how my body responds to alchohol. My tolerance is higher, which is good cuz previously one beer and Itโ€™d be 24h of throwing up followed by days of nausea๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ

Definitely craving opioids, but also feeling pretty content. Stoned & slightly alchohol-buzzed eating mango sorbet I forgot I had in my freezer. Hmmmmmm I want to ramble forever.

Honestly Iโ€™d feel more scared about my own safety going out on alchohol than on my usual rave chems, cuz damn I feel up for anything suggested rn, not even high dose benzos or high doses of MDMA do that to me to this capacity .โ€”.

Uhh but yes I AM shutting up now and forcing myself to do the last of my chores, cuz uni early again tomorrow๐Ÿ˜ž
 
5th day back on gear:

50 mg
methadone

22.5 mg diazepam

10 mg indica edible.

i was really high earlier, like rushing and at peace.

i just plugged another dose and im back down now but hoping i can break through into that total release and ease when this hits
 
5th day back on gear:

50 mg
methadone

22.5 mg diazepam

10 mg indica edible.

i was really high earlier, like rushing and at peace.

i just plugged another dose and im back down now but hoping i can break through into that total release and ease when this hits
Mate it aint too late to hit the breaks on this relapse, I hate to see you poisoning yourself after you made it a month clean ๐Ÿ™

In another week or two you wont find satisfaction from these dosages. Idk what youre going through but take care of yourself and stay safe โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ
 
Oops, wrote a post yesterday but forgot to hit the post button. Alchohol is weird man, definitely not my drug, although I didnโ€™t have a significant hangover this morning, only upset stomach.

Today has been tiny bit of IC-26, weed and 10mg deschloroetizolam just now. Heading to bed rn.

Hereโ€™s yesterdayโ€™s chemical cocktail and slight ramble:

chaotic day, my life is never boring which is fun and all but sometimes I want a break

- 4-5mg bretanizil
- 3-4 lines of speed (roughly 0.45g)
- 1/3 last nightโ€™s joint + 1 joint
- couple shots worth of vodka, lowkey idk

Couldnโ€™t fall asleep, too doped up and in the flow of drawing I suppose. Ate I think like 4-5 bretanizil 1mg tablets and eventually slept a bit, but was still very benzoโ€™d and tired, so couple lines speed.

Wasnโ€™t good quality speed, but this at least had some actual amphetamine in it. Needed a bit of weed to be able to eat breakfast.

Uni was exhausting and I think Iโ€™m almost completely certain of my decision to switch studies, especially cuz now itโ€™s the most convenient and Iโ€™m hoping I can just skip this last semester .โ€”.

That decision partially would relieve me, but also scary cuz ughh having to do the first year over again at another university. But then I would be studying in the same city all my rave friends live and also study, while living where all my childhood friend groups are.

So ehh not totally โ€˜newโ€™ and socially Iโ€™ve grown a lot more confident since I started my gender transition.

Also holyshit Iโ€™m rambling, sorry๐Ÿ˜ญ I think I am feeling the alchohol maybe. Underestimated the apple flavored vodka oopsies

But uhh yes, I cooked some yummy pasta and sat outside while smoking a joint and drinking the vodka drink.

Normally donโ€™t fuck with alcohol, but it was on sale so why not. Definitely think testosterone has changed how my body responds to alchohol. My tolerance is higher, which is good cuz previously one beer and Itโ€™d be 24h of throwing up followed by days of nausea๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ

Definitely craving opioids, but also feeling pretty content. Stoned & slightly alchohol-buzzed eating mango sorbet I forgot I had in my freezer. Hmmmmmm I want to ramble forever.

Honestly Iโ€™d feel more scared about my own safety going out on alchohol than on my usual rave chems, cuz damn I feel up for anything suggested rn, not even high dose benzos or high doses of MDMA do that to me to this capacity .โ€”.

Uhh but yes I AM shutting up now and forcing myself to do the last of my chores, cuz uni early again tomorrow๐Ÿ˜ž
It's not easy to stick to good resolutions... Especially concerning drugs, right? I just fear you're getting hooked on the IC-26..
OT: Added another 85 mg Mitragynin and vaped weed last night, achieving nothing but sedation. Looks like the Mitragynin got me high only once... Oh the repetitions ๐Ÿ˜’
... Now I'm awake at 5 am; the cocktail wore off Ig..
 
It's not easy to stick to good resolutions... Especially concerning drugs, right? I just fear you're getting hooked on the IC-26.
Are you referring to the speed? Cuz with that one I did break my resolution yeah.

With the IC-26 I so far have stuck to my โ€˜once every other dayโ€™ resolution and yesterday I kept it at the small bump at uni for my bone pain. I feel the same fear about the IC-26 though. Wonโ€™t lie about knowing damn well I like the stuff too much .โ€”.

Fear of withdrawal, stomach issues and my constant fear of not being productive enough, are keeping me from using daily at least. And also just the general shame of hiding my use of specific drugs from my friends, so just trying to focus on these things to keep my use functional.
 
I am running out of kratom it's gonna be tough, got myself gabapentin boxes

I took 5mg diazepam + 1800mg gabapentin in multiple times + joints of high grade skunk

I do feel the gaba still feel the adderal feeling talkative and jumping around

Every joint is geting me higher

I gotta manage the kratom wd got myself clonidine , tramadol, codeine we'll see how it goes
 
I am running out of kratom it's gonna be tough, got myself gabapentin boxes

I took 5mg diazepam + 1800mg gabapentin in multiple times + joints of high grade skunk

I do feel the gaba still feel the adderal feeling talkative and jumping around

Every joint is geting me higher

I gotta manage the kratom wd got myself clonidine , tramadol, codeine we'll see how it goes
Did you run out on purpose or because of a ban? I hope you're gonna be alright back on Tramadol...
 
no not on purpose cant get any.. I think I am gonna quit...
OT added gabapentin and gonna smoke some cali
Good luck, man, I mean it... ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž
And I wish I could as well... At least I made it through today dosing only twice... But I swear it's itching me so badly to just take anything rn ๐Ÿ˜’

How bad of an idea would it be to plug 2c-b? I can't keep my stomach empty fwiw...
 
Today's mix so far:
  • 40mg of memantine.
  • A sum total of 2.2mg of MGM-15 over the last 20 hours or so.
  • An unknown though large amount of THC/HHC/THC-B vaporized in a box mod.
  • ~50mg of intranasal ice.
  • 30mg of noopept earlier, mostly gone by now though.
  • About 600mg of caffeine so far, and by the gods do I want another 200mg tablet.

Considering adding (one or two of these, not all):
  • 1-2.5mg of Etizolam, or 200-600ug of Phenazolam.
  • Maybe another 40 (even up to 80)mg of memantine.
  • My serotonergic tolerance is through the goddamn roof, ruling those out. I also need no more ice, had more than enough already.
  • Gabapentin or mirogabalin intranasally.
  • Noopept intranasally or phenylpiracetam orally.
  • Bromonordiazepam.
  • Promethazine.
  • Vaporized MDMB-5F-PINACA (aka 5F-ADB).

We will see how tonight goes. If I was tolerance free, I'd have built today around an LSD/DOB mix I've been scheming on doing, but I'll be tolerance free just in time for Beltane. Perhaps that would be a fitting day for the combination, who knows. Might do LSD + DOB, then as the acid wears off take 80mg of memantine to ride out the DOB.
 
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