Axemancometh
Bluelighter
I was prescribed Sertraline (25mg daily) for a rather intense spell of depression and anxiety that definitely stemmed from my MDMA abuse a few months ago, and it gave me the craziest and most concerning side effects from anything a doctor has ever prescribed me.
I would take my dose in the morning - sometimes one pill, sometimes two. (it was super energetic and warm that's why) I loved the stimulating energy it was giving me, almost like I was on molly.
things would be groovy until about 4pm, when no matter what dose I took, I would crash HARD. The best I could describe it was a mixture of hypomanic and suicidal. I was reckless - saying/doing stupid bullshit that pissed other people off, but at the same time I swore that I had everything figured out and that I was really doing swell. Like a fucked up enlightenment. I would also feel overwhelmed at the same time, wishing I was dead. Repeat that every day for three weeks, until I eventually threw away all my pills in hypomanic rage and rode out the withdrawal until my mood stabilized.
Thank God I didn't decide to keep going with that stuff. Doing psychedelics for years before SSRIs proved to me which is the better helper (may not apply to everyone) and smacked my chemical head into taking a proper drug break so I don't lose it entirely and have to take risperidone.
Moral of the story: always listen when people say 'take a x-week/month long break from the last time you used' NO MATTER HOW much you wanna get high; and - drugs are also not the answer to everything.
Peace.
I would take my dose in the morning - sometimes one pill, sometimes two. (it was super energetic and warm that's why) I loved the stimulating energy it was giving me, almost like I was on molly.
things would be groovy until about 4pm, when no matter what dose I took, I would crash HARD. The best I could describe it was a mixture of hypomanic and suicidal. I was reckless - saying/doing stupid bullshit that pissed other people off, but at the same time I swore that I had everything figured out and that I was really doing swell. Like a fucked up enlightenment. I would also feel overwhelmed at the same time, wishing I was dead. Repeat that every day for three weeks, until I eventually threw away all my pills in hypomanic rage and rode out the withdrawal until my mood stabilized.
Thank God I didn't decide to keep going with that stuff. Doing psychedelics for years before SSRIs proved to me which is the better helper (may not apply to everyone) and smacked my chemical head into taking a proper drug break so I don't lose it entirely and have to take risperidone.
Moral of the story: always listen when people say 'take a x-week/month long break from the last time you used' NO MATTER HOW much you wanna get high; and - drugs are also not the answer to everything.
Peace.
