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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

moerez said:
For my last shot I might try psychodelics like DMT or shrooms even I know there is a chance of psychosis, but I wanna do that before off my self, at least I know I did whatever I could do
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Hey bro I would also look into seeing if you have B12 defiancy that can cause dick problems. I was working with a alternative health doctor and he had me on b12 it got rid of my auditory hallucinations it also brought my libido back unfortunately I was dumbass and used the card to pay for the shit for drugs. Now there all back with a vengeance
 
What it’s absurd to me is that they have permission to touch receptors and pathways connetctions of neurons and synapse where we don’t have any medical exam that can loock into these macro-area to see it something went wrong. M

They should warned us about “if something go wrong, we don’t have the medical technology to see what happened to your receptors, think carefully before take the injection”.

They don’t event told me i could die by NMS, because some people develop that and just die. This is not far at all, hiding a potential death consequence of a so called medicine, this is horrible.
 
My sleep from 8 hours to 6 now 3 hours, I still don’t know how am I dealing with it day by day, but everyday when I see people laugh and have relationship, I envy them and I wanna be dead
 
Time passes but not that shit feeling of not feeling a shit. I don’t know anything in biology that can take years to recover, if someone had a severe car accident the same day i got injected, after 20.5 month he completely recovered and could walk again, but i’am not recovered. Tinnitus got lounder instead of improving, other sympthoms just won’t go away.
 
Matthew01 said:
I want to sue but my brain is severely injured. Also it won't bring me back to normal
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These guys wanting to sue dont realize how much money it costs and takes a lot of time. If you win you may not get much money but I guess atleast you made pharmaceutical companies a pay a lot and thats a win.
 
fuckabout89 said:
These guys wanting to sue dont realize how much money it costs and takes a lot of time. If you win you may not get much money but I guess atleast you made pharmaceutical companies a pay a lot and thats a win.
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You find a lawyer that will only take money if you win. Thats what i did and I won
 
moerez said:
There is nothing to say bro, most of us are too fucked and hopeless , there is nothing to say anymore
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Yeah there is no point to keep complaining, we don’t have any other arguments since every day is the same (agony and hopelessness). Since there is no cure or antidote, and there is not a single doctor Who want to go with further medical exam to see what happened in our brain, we can’t share anything useful beside our daily agony.

Nothing will change in complaining inside a forum, yeah at the beginning you are connected with people who share the same agony but there is nothing more than that, at the end we are alone on our own fighting against this invisible and persistent illness.

At some point people don’t have anymore the willing to come here and complain because this won’t change anything, it’s just a post inside a forum that won’t help us recovery.

So people being less active on this forum, new ones maybe make a couple posts but then they also realize that there is no point in complaining inside a forum because we won’t get a cure and we won’t get Justice and we won’t go back on how things were before the harm by complaining inside a forum.
 
I think everybody inside here realized that it’s a matter of years, there is not “today i’am better than yesterday?” But it’s more a “Today i’am better compared to 6 months ago?”.

Daily complaining won’t bring us a cure, won’t bring us justice, won’t bring us back in time and won’t heal us, when people realize that they become less active on this or others forums, because what if you daily check reddit, Facebook, quora, bluelight? Will that make you recover faster? Not at all.

It happened some days in the last weeks that I don’t even made the “Daily check” on these forums because what’s the point? We just want to heal, we just want a cure, we just want to be belived and supported and have justice for what they did to us, but nothing of these things will came by daily complaining inside a forum.
 
I don't do a daily check anymore because it has gotten really depressing. I have some positives that have been developing but it feels pointless to share these in the current atmosphere & state of the forum. It no longer feels relevant to Invega, per se, but moreso feels like reading people's suicidal thoughts. I understand it's not beneficial to keep things bottled up, either, but I don't have the energy to talk anyone down, nor do I believe that's the responsibility of strangers. At the same time, I don't think it should go unchecked, either. I'm able to watch TV if I smoke, I laugh, I was able to cry once. Sleep is still absolute dogshit. I've lost some weight, got to put the work in to lose the rest, I've admittedly been slacking. Music sounds just OK, it doesn't knock my socks off like it did pre-Invega, but I don't feel an overwhelming void of nothing listening to it anymore.

The current state of the forum is stifling productive commentary; this is why it's dying/dead.
 
I agree… the people here who have recovered don’t want to come back anymore and they keep saying why. It’s hard to want to post on here and motivate others when you’re constantly getting told that you’re lying and recovery isn’t possible. I don’t understand wanting to truly believe there’s no hope either… I do understand when you’re depressed it’s harder to be positive and you feel very alone when you’re not, but when there’s so much evidence of people recovering why argue so aggressively against it? It almost comes off as wanting a reason to not put in any effort of trying to get better. It also scares off any new people from wanting to join the conversation, and can give them the impression that they also may never get better. I’m not saying people can’t talk about their suffering, but if you spend every moment of your time reinforcing negativity you will never feel better, because you’re not even giving yourself the chance to. So many people suffer from the same things as us for many different reasons, and people are suffering in different ways from us but they push on also. A lot of people have very low points in their lives for years at a time, and of course it’s not great knowing you’ve “lost” years to life events when you look back on things from years ago it doesn’t feel like it was that very long at all. You also shouldn't punish yourself for getting sick at all, people become paralyzed, lose their eyesight or hearing, have strokes etc that are permanent, and some people are just born that way. Your life may be different, but it doesn’t mean it’s not worth living, it’s just another stage in your life.
 
since working i dont really have time to check this site anymore, im tired when im done work at 6 and would rather spend the next 5 hours relaxing then checking this depressing site
 
Abilify2mg said:
since working i dont really have time to check this site anymore, im tired when im done work at 6 and would rather spend the next 5 hours relaxing then checking this depressing site
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How’s it been going so far at the new job?
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I think everybody inside here realized that it’s a matter of years, there is not “today i’am better than yesterday?” But it’s more a “Today i’am better compared to 6 months ago?”.

Daily complaining won’t bring us a cure, won’t bring us justice, won’t bring us back in time and won’t heal us, when people realize that they become less active on this or others forums, because what if you daily check reddit, Facebook, quora, bluelight? Will that make you recover faster? Not at all.

It happened some days in the last weeks that I don’t even made the “Daily check” on these forums because what’s the point? We just want to heal, we just want a cure, we just want to be belived and supported and have justice for what they did to us, but nothing of these things will came by daily complaining inside a forum.
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Same thing happened to me, i talked with AI and he said 7-8 months to be 85 precent heald, now i reached 8 Months in few days, he's saying i got a butt injection bla bla, its going to take until 12 months I'm completely heald. Fuck my life. Recovering from invega is like being shot in the head with a shotgun. Jesus Christ I can't work for 1.5 years now. No wonder people take there life, i still believe i can heal from this, but it doesn't shock me some people don't heal when it's this bad.
 
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