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šŸ¤ Cultural šŸ¤ What Was Your Morning Fix v. Hit The Bottle & Go Right To The Rock

This morning I took
100 mg Tramadol only.
I chose it since I expected to be unable to redose at lunch ( which is very much necessary with Kratom,), and most of the times I had to avoid WD that much was enough.
Not today though. I had some mild WD the whole time until 3 pm.
What's shocking me the most is that instead of decreasing my tolerance, it apparently got worse! So 12 g Kratom/ day is definitely more than 200 mg Tramadol /day - for me at least. And that's a pretty disappointing realization šŸ˜•
 
This morning, I started with lots of the sacred morphine and around 80mg of caffeine. Over the day some metoprolol joined, and now a beer to end this day šŸ„²

Allegedly, beta blocker should potentiate the opioid effect a bit, but I never noticed it. They only thing I had once that I couldnt breathe properly after taking my metoprolol. It still creates this blissful calming effect on me.
 
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72mg Methylphenidate as Concerta this morning.

Have a lot of shit to do today, and I canā€™t be chain smoking spliffs and chain drinking tea, nor can I allow myself to be hyperactive and running all over the place.

Honestly I am proud of myself for taking such a long break but I am just as fed up as being disoriented, disorganised and constantly eating, smoking, and la de da.

Going to try keep it to just today, my missus doesnā€™t like me on stims. I donā€™t blame her. I become bit anti fun, and go on the grind.

(Edit as it has kicked in, itā€™s so funny how good it feels but this wonā€™t last long. I donā€™t understand being prescribed this shit, I have done everything properly under the sun with dosing and supplements and protocols, it works great for a week or two max and then it makes me suicidal, but right now Iā€™m feeling reallllllly good)
 
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Last night / I guess early this morning I went out with my best friend. Had roughly:

- 4 lines 2-mmc
- 2-3 joints
- 10mg deschloroetizolam

Considering a wake & bake today, but maybe not since I have checkup for my piercings later and donā€™t want to accidentally get too stoned.

Glad to be feeling semi normal again, but still feel this sense of dread I canā€™t seem to shake unless really high on opioids or benzos but Iā€™m done with the fucking O-DSMT and Iā€™m out of IC-26. Makes me crave morphine so fucking badly, but for now just sitting with the feelings I suppose.

Hope yā€™all are having a decent weekend :)
 
Not long back from this morning's errands - clinic/doc/pharmacy - and about to lay down for hopefully a few hours sleep before work tonight. Got off last night and laid in bed hours, no sleep lol. Doing a little better now. šŸ˜Ž

Coffee ā˜•ļø
Nic vape
Normal boring scripts
15mg methadone
.3mg clonidine
400mg gabapentin
1mg lorazepam
50mg testosterone IM
Some breakfast
And a couple bongs of Dosidos. šŸ”„

Hope everyone has a fantastic Monday. āœŒļø ā¤ļø

šŸ˜“
 
Man I had a really fun, but intense 2C-B trip last night, 6mg and the walls were changing color. Unsure if I still feel some sort of afterglow, almost feels like xtc in a way, sad that itā€™s over but grateful for the experience. Trip report coming TODAY, because I always say Iā€™ll make a trip report but then forget it, so saying it here to hold myself accountable haha.

Unsure how only 6mg did that, I got my shit professionally tested, I guess I just have a sensitivity to 2C-B or psychedelics in general? Anyone have a similar experience where with some substances you need a lot to feel even a little high but with others only a little bit and Iā€™m blown into space? I K holed of 3 small bumps my first time doing K and it was like 56% purity or some shit, so not that strong either??? God I am in a rambly mood

Back on this threadā€™s topic: early this morning or late night yesterday (around 02:30) I added sum stuff to the 2C-B trip:

- 1 big line of ketamine
- 30-40mg diazepam
- 5-10mg deschloroetizolam

Took the diazepam around 02:30 as I did want some kind of kind of rest. Intended only 30mg but looking at the pill strip thereā€™s 4 missing so uhh oops I blacked out and canā€™t remember shit from the last of my trip, bit sad, cuz the start of the ketamine hitting with my music playing felt absolutely godlike, but then I passed out I think. Also forgot I took deschloroetizolam, but I am now seeing it laying on my milligram scale and remember vaguely taking some.

Still feel fucking lovely though, been a while since I got diazepam and itā€™s right beside deschloroetizolam as my fav. benzo for sure. I am suspicious that these are counterfeit pills though, the packaging is sloppy looking and different from other strips Iā€™d previously gotten. Might get a pill tested cuz this feels a little too good compared to my usual ā€˜ahh I feel chill & pretty niceā€™ feelings from benzos, this feels almost manically euphoric but it could also be the 2C-B afterglow or the fact that my baggie of ketamine is also empty which I donā€™t remember doing .ā€”.

Unsure what chemical cocktail Iā€™d like for the rest of today, I feel nice as is but I do have chores to do and an important call regarding my testosterone to make so my collection of uppers is staring at me realll suggestively.

First Iā€™ll have breakfast though since yesterdayā€™s dinner was an alien experience with the 2C-B and only managed to eat a sad rice cake with plastic looking vegan cheesešŸ˜ž Okay okay, now Iā€™m actually shutting up and leaving the rest for the trip report because that entire experience felt like an alien abduction and I managed to write down some absolute banger thoughts I was having.

Hope yā€™all have a lovely day :))
 
Good morning fellow bluelighters, hope yā€™all having a decent start of your day :)

Itā€™s my 19th birthday today and man, this has to be the weirdest birthday so far. Did roughly 0.25g meth yesterday and it was good, but honestly I was underwhelmed.

Todayā€™s chemical breakfast:

- 0.18g meth
- 0.30g 2-mmc

Weirdest fucking thing is yesterday or technically today ig, I used meth around 01:00 with half a joint and way too big a line of ketamine and I literally fell asleep an hour afterwards.

I feel very medicated, sometimes I hate having ADHD and not getting to experience uppers like other people do .ā€”.

Going to get ready for a long ass uni day now, honestly feel sad despite the meth and 2-mmc. I have so much to do that I just canā€™t feel any joy surrounding my birthday :/ Hopefully have time to write that trip report today, that 2C-B trip was really good mentally in a way.
 
Sp4rky said:
Good morning fellow bluelighters, hope yā€™all having a decent start of your day :)

Itā€™s my 19th birthday today and man, this has to be the weirdest birthday so far. Did roughly 0.25g meth yesterday and it was good, but honestly I was underwhelmed.

Todayā€™s chemical breakfast:

- 0.18g meth
- 0.30g 2-mmc

Weirdest fucking thing is yesterday or technically today ig, I used meth around 01:00 with half a joint and way too big a line of ketamine and I literally fell asleep an hour afterwards.

I feel very medicated, sometimes I hate having ADHD and not getting to experience uppers like other people do .ā€”.

Going to get ready for a long ass uni day now, honestly feel sad despite the meth and 2-mmc. I have so much to do that I just canā€™t feel any joy surrounding my birthday :/ Hopefully have time to write that trip report today, that 2C-B trip was really good mentally in a way.
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Happy birthday, kiddo! šŸ˜œ
Though honestly I'm a bit glad you're not off the socks with the meth. I have a pretty close friend who keeps doing meth despite nearly suffocating every time... That stuff is just unhealthy in every way.
And just in case it matters by any means, there are quite a few people who don't enjoy uppers ( BIG arrow towards myself, and I know I'm by far not the only one - also definitely don't have ADHD)...

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3,6 g mixed Kratom, Nic vape, (back to bed for half an hour cause I'm freezing).
 
4g green kratom
15mg diazepam
A joint of some strong weed leaning strongly to an indica
Was nodding had to wake up:
5mg dextroamphetamine +0.075mg clonidine snorted
3g green kratom
5mg dextroamphetamine SL
Loads of strong Black Tea with fresh Lemon
 
Mushoku_Sensei said:
Happy birthday, kiddo! šŸ˜œ
Though honestly I'm a bit glad you're not off the socks with the meth. I have a pretty close friend who keeps doing meth despite nearly suffocating every time... That stuff is just unhealthy in every way.
And just in case it matters by any means, there are quite a few people who don't enjoy uppers ( BIG arrow towards myself, and I know I'm by far not the only one - also definitely don't have ADHD)...
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Thanks :) Iā€™m a little funny with uppers, every first few times have usually been underwhelming, including speed. Only xtc was an intense ā€˜wow I love thisā€™ drug, but even that was after redosing with twice the dose ā€˜meantā€™ for me body weight wise.

And maybe 3-mmc because I had really low expectations of rc drugs at the time.

Iā€™m more a poly drug user in the way that drugs fill my constant need for control. With speed specifically I found it boring at first, but then the more I used the more I came to love that control of being able to take something and immediately feel the way you want to feel.

Hope you were able to sleep a bit more, it is fucking hard getting out of bed when itā€™s so fucking coldšŸ˜­
 
ageingpartyfiend said:
150mg opium, eaten an hour or so ago

Getting up now (9.25am) and getting the coffee on
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I'm jealous of your opium intake mate. I've only had it a few times many moons ago, but I remember it fondly.

Are you managing to keep a lid on it or is it becoming habitual?

Also, are you smoking it or ingesting orally?

Just curious as it's not a very common drug over here.
 
Sp4rky said:
Man I had a really fun, but intense 2C-B trip last night, 6mg and the walls were changing color. Unsure if I still feel some sort of afterglow, almost feels like xtc in a way, sad that itā€™s over but grateful for the experience. Trip report coming TODAY, because I always say Iā€™ll make a trip report but then forget it, so saying it here to hold myself accountable haha.

Unsure how only 6mg did that, I got my shit professionally tested, I guess I just have a sensitivity to 2C-B or psychedelics in general? Anyone have a similar experience where with some substances you need a lot to feel even a little high but with others only a little bit and Iā€™m blown into space? I K holed of 3 small bumps my first time doing K and it was like 56% purity or some shit, so not that strong either??? God I am in a rambly mood

Back on this threadā€™s topic: early this morning or late night yesterday (around 02:30) I added sum stuff to the 2C-B trip:

- 1 big line of ketamine
- 30-40mg diazepam
- 5-10mg deschloroetizolam

Took the diazepam around 02:30 as I did want some kind of kind of rest. Intended only 30mg but looking at the pill strip thereā€™s 4 missing so uhh oops I blacked out and canā€™t remember shit from the last of my trip, bit sad, cuz the start of the ketamine hitting with my music playing felt absolutely godlike, but then I passed out I think. Also forgot I took deschloroetizolam, but I am now seeing it laying on my milligram scale and remember vaguely taking some.

Still feel fucking lovely though, been a while since I got diazepam and itā€™s right beside deschloroetizolam as my fav. benzo for sure. I am suspicious that these are counterfeit pills though, the packaging is sloppy looking and different from other strips Iā€™d previously gotten. Might get a pill tested cuz this feels a little too good compared to my usual ā€˜ahh I feel chill & pretty niceā€™ feelings from benzos, this feels almost manically euphoric but it could also be the 2C-B afterglow or the fact that my baggie of ketamine is also empty which I donā€™t remember doing .ā€”.

Unsure what chemical cocktail Iā€™d like for the rest of today, I feel nice as is but I do have chores to do and an important call regarding my testosterone to make so my collection of uppers is staring at me realll suggestively.

First Iā€™ll have breakfast though since yesterdayā€™s dinner was an alien experience with the 2C-B and only managed to eat a sad rice cake with plastic looking vegan cheesešŸ˜ž Okay okay, now Iā€™m actually shutting up and leaving the rest for the trip report because that entire experience felt like an alien abduction and I managed to write down some absolute banger thoughts I was having.

Hope yā€™all have a lovely day :))
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The alien abduction thing on trips is always interesting. Never done 2C-B but have experienced it with acid and mushrooms. It's not really like how I think about abductions or alien contact in pop culture when I'm sober, it basically feels like I know far less about what my reality is than I assumed before the trip and it starts to seem like I could be a part of a massive experiment or as though I am being tested somehow by something invisible. It is more of a sense of that than really really believing it, and I think it's just a reflection of how radically these substances can affect your perception of reality. It starts to seem like reality is inherently confusing and part of something far more complex than we could ever imagine and we just basically ignore that side of things when we are molded into members of our society. Kind of some hippy babble but I'm interested to read your thing. I love how you can just get a completely new world view thrust upon you in a trip, and how it can be at first scary and very weird but then you begin to get to some universal truths about how confusing and infinite life actually is. Less that it's an alien abduction or a test or a different reality but instead that those perspectives are about as possible as whatever we're conditioned to believe. When you lose your bearings like that you really start to see what actually grounds us, what actually is interesting and worthwhile in life, instead of trying to explain everything away and rationalize how our minds work. Instead of doing that in a trip, I have to basically focus on my immediate surroundings and how we can really only stay grounded and satisfied if we just appreciate what is directly in front of us and view our thoughts as things that just come and go without a ton of weight on them being right or wrong. Forever grateful to have had experiences like that even though they can get really scary if you get lost in the chaos, getting back "home" in the middle-end of a hardcore trip is one of the most relieving feelings I've ever felt, and suddenly I am certain that everything in my life and the world is going to be alright in the end. That fades away of course but what a powerful feeling.
 
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