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Yeah BB !! Groovy vibes back at you. I could try to write music and am trying to stay composed too.

Thank Ya so very much. You're old school awesome as always. <3


🌻 I good.

BadBoy377 said:
Let me know if I can help at all.

Do you mean composer as in you're going to write music?
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Yeah, so are you! Right back at ya!

Fantastic. Yes, you write some tunes and I am looking forward to hear em!

And if in life whilst striving to stay composed and you feel overwhelmed perhaps you could try and express the excess emotion into the music and so turning one form of composing into another form of composing..

What kind of music would compose you the most do you think?
 
Don't remember me with sadness,
Don't remember me with tears,
Remember all good times,
Shared throughout the years,
So please don't be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
It always helps with support from you
Together helping like we always do.
And how we always try so hard to do it
all so right.
Each and every morning, and also noon,
and night.

🌙
 
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I took my Thursday medication. I feel better. Not really. I usually take them Wednesday night now. But I didn't know.

My brain and physically seem to be still adjusting. Getting way better than before though. Still not good enough however.

I am just wondering a lot, .. if former drug use or being addicted or and dependent on drugs and maybe not enough food but medicating

instead triggers a lot of the inflammation autoimmune deficiency or maybe intensifies ailing. Or is it and can it really a compromise to the immune

system by overuse of chemicals and being on drugs like narcotics.


I do suffer from paws at times.

Little by little. However, I feel like my immune system might kill me yet. I feel like I have a fever or the flu everyday but I don't.

Sometimes worse. Ha ha sometimes better !

Then ...


I have to have mild withdrawals sometimes that aren't even as bad as all that. I do know that I can get better with natural healing.


I wonder if former drug use triggers it though. Or if being around toxic chemicals too. I hope not. Or all of the above. Maybe drug use

has just a little effect and then everything else contributes. I'm almost out of my liquid vitamin D. Yes. I'm not going near the sun today

though. I dosed already this morning a bit. It's almost the bowels of Summer. But I sure have been enjoying the full moon at night. OwwWoooo.

Ha haa. The water is so cold because I am burning up.

🐕

Have a cool or warm breeze day.
 
But I do need Anger Management. I think. :unsure:

And I do know it is biological and a learned behavior.

Overall, it just feels quite sad.


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weed….the drug i wanted to minimize so much and say it doesn’t affect me.

after a long break i resumed daily use. i wake up tired, dragging ass. less natural happiness (and non while i’m high).

i notice i don’t enjoy or listen to music while on weed ; while im off it it’s a source of a natural high.

i’m more socially distant.

most of all though i just feel tired as fuck and less motivated to excercise too.

man it’s such an easy drug to do and the consequences are admittedly way less than other drugs but even harmless old weed takes a toll and throws my life out of balance.

i gotta stop
 
Ki3ly said:
I am just wondering a lot, .. if former drug use or being addicted or and dependent on drugs and maybe not enough food but medicating

instead triggers a lot of the inflammation autoimmune deficiency or maybe intensifies ailing. Or is it and can it really a compromise to the immune
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opioids increase the presence of pro inflammatory cytokines vs placebo (IL-6 is the one that sticks out in my memeory because i was specifically interested in it; but there are others).

so opioids increase inflammation

they also cause hyperalgesia.


but i totally understand the balance of the X hour span of relief and analgesia being worth the side effect trade off; so these side effects doesn’t mean it isn’t worth it for some patients
 
Yes, I thinks so too. Benefits outweigh the risks then.

So I have to save for what really counts.

I still love them. I will be cautious with opioids I promise.

And promise to myself.
 
Just wanted to drop a quick update here. Still dealing with those random PAWS waves - mostly just that flat, grey boredom where your brain is practically begging for a shortcut.

Back when I was at my worst and couldn't figure out why I felt so broken, I did a stint at Legacy Healing. A talk there with Dr. Ash Bhatt honestly kept me sane. He compared fried dopamine receptors to a bone-dry sponge that just needs time and zero flooding to learn how to absorb normal life again.
 
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LakeGuyNE said:
Just wanted to drop a quick update here. Still dealing with those random PAWS waves - mostly just that flat, grey boredom where your brain is practically begging for a shortcut.

Back when I was at my worst and couldn't figure out why I felt so broken, I did a stint at Legacy Healing. A talk there with Dr. Ash Bhatt honestly kept me sane. He compared fried dopamine receptors to a bone-dry sponge that just needs time and zero flooding to learn how to absorb normal life again.
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The PAWS should pass. Multivitamins and coffee helped a lot for me. That's a very good comparison. Hope things get better for you. Recovery isn't a straight line and there's gonna be dips here and there.
 
At least there is some sense to it all now. PAWS and all.

And yes, it could be a .... whole lot worse.

Piece of cake, just do it.
 
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