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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

PenguinWithNapalm said:
Christ almighty. That is fucking unhinged. It makes me angry that they would fucking give this to anyone without telling them that this shit is a REAL possibility. This shit seems like a lobotomy injection. I would rather risk death than take this drug
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I made this observation to someone yesterday. They lock you up for like however long and your desperate to leave, in my case I was still mildy delusional they gave me a peace of paper thay listed side effects, and dangled "you can leave, but we just need you to take this injection, it last for month " I was clueless took it, they discharged me. 2 weeks later all the side affects hit , and at that point no hospital or mental health facility has any effective treatment to end your suffering.

So like most people here, you find ways to die, and one only hopes you dont, and you come put the other side like me and others.

But unfortunately I dont think suicide is uncommon from these injections

We lost @rawbanna 😢

Its devastating

Thanks for ummn listening man and showing your compassion for people you dont relate to suffering.

Need more peiple in the world like that.
 
IOSIP said:
I've been on it for 10 plus years, and outside of it knocking me out for sleep. I don't think it has any affect.

Compared paliperidone its basically a nothing burger.

I dint have schizophrenia and it was never prescribed as an antipsychotic for me. I can definitely see its plus side of someone in active psychosis would be to a. Knock them out or b. Prescribe the long acting version to zombify there brain.

Post psychosis once they Injected me I was begging for seroquel to knock me the fuck out. Dick head psychiatrist wouldnt Prescribe it.

Now thay I got an autism and chronic pain diagnosis, I sent off a bunch of emails providing feedback to the government psychiatrist team, in an effort to ensure they dont treat everyone as inhumanly as they treated me.

After all my emails, the psychiatrist and case worker came to my house to assess if I was manic / had lost my mind again.

Spent 2 hours telling them my life story, and the government psycb goes "i agree this isnt manic"

I only got into psychosis in 2024 after all my doctors and family called me manic. But I was fixing my body while taking 5 dexies for chronic fatigue, weed for chronic pain.

Because everyone called me crazy i caught with a friend and accidentally snorted meth. Nek minute psychosis, funny thing is now ive fixed my body, my Autism/ ADHD are thre the fucking roof, to the point everyone was wondering if ive lost my mind again.

But you cant lock up a guy like me now that im not on dexies or weed , and when people listen to my story i know I can remain calm.

In 2024, I was cover head to toe in bruising because my body was in muscle knottes and I was attacking it witb piles of massage and trigger point tools.

Got call crazy, yet at the same time I self diagnosed all of the conditions now proven by new medical professionals.

No one can call me manic again. Winnninggg.

Anyways just wanted share
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Do you take zyprexa ?
 
IOSIP said:
I've been on it for 10 plus years, and outside of it knocking me out for sleep. I don't think it has any affect.

Compared paliperidone its basically a nothing burger.

I dint have schizophrenia and it was never prescribed as an antipsychotic for me. I can definitely see its plus side of someone in active psychosis would be to a. Knock them out or b. Prescribe the long acting version to zombify there brain.

Post psychosis once they Injected me I was begging for seroquel to knock me the fuck out. Dick head psychiatrist wouldnt Prescribe it.

Now thay I got an autism and chronic pain diagnosis, I sent off a bunch of emails providing feedback to the government psychiatrist team, in an effort to ensure they dont treat everyone as inhumanly as they treated me.

After all my emails, the psychiatrist and case worker came to my house to assess if I was manic / had lost my mind again.

Spent 2 hours telling them my life story, and the government psycb goes "i agree this isnt manic"

I only got into psychosis in 2024 after all my doctors and family called me manic. But I was fixing my body while taking 5 dexies for chronic fatigue, weed for chronic pain.

Because everyone called me crazy i caught with a friend and accidentally snorted meth. Nek minute psychosis, funny thing is now ive fixed my body, my Autism/ ADHD are thre the fucking roof, to the point everyone was wondering if ive lost my mind again.

But you cant lock up a guy like me now that im not on dexies or weed , and when people listen to my story i know I can remain calm.

In 2024, I was cover head to toe in bruising because my body was in muscle knottes and I was attacking it witb piles of massage and trigger point tools.

Got call crazy, yet at the same time I self diagnosed all of the conditions now proven by new medical professionals.

No one can call me manic again. Winnninggg.

Anyways just wanted share
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The shrink i had at first to was a cunt. She cold turkeyed me off 6mg's of clonaz and 150mg's of morphine and wuldnt give me a antipsychotic though i had psychosis and cotards syndrome. Most inpatient shrinks are useless but i was lucky enough to get a good one after that that didnt usually do inpatient
 
paranoid android said:
The shrink i had at first to was a cunt. She cold turkeyed me off 6mg's of clonaz and 150mg's of morphine and wuldnt give me a antipsychotic though i had psychosis and cotards syndrome. Most inpatient shrinks are useless but i was lucky enough to get a good one after that that didnt usually do inpatient
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Mate that's so fucked. You cant do thay to people. Thats fucking destroys me inside is how they label you after psychosis. Your no longer human, they treat you like a dog, i used to take 12mg of clonaz a day, plus 400mg of codeine (roughly a little less) I'd take 4 burofen plus, with 2 paracetamol/codeine every 4 hours with doses of 4mg of clonaz every 4 hours or so just get through my workday.

Tapered that shit over 9 months, mate fuck me what they did to you no human should have to suffer like that. I can relate to the pain that must of caused you.

See i know now I used to take all those meds to manage chronic pain due to Hypermobility/EDS and because of my Autism my pain signals dont seem to fire like other people.

If that happened to me I'd be in a ball on the ground/looking for a cliff to dive head first off. Oh my god cold turkey from those meds is disgusting and life threatening.

No wonder people shoot up heroin. Like if thay happened to me amd I had access to hard drugs like heroin I'd have a needle in my arm no questions asked.
 
IOSIP said:
Mate that's so fucked. You cant do thay to people. Thats fucking destroys me inside is how they label you after psychosis. Your no longer human, they treat you like a dog, i used to take 12mg of clonaz a day, plus 400mg of codeine (roughly a little less) I'd take 4 burofen plus, with 2 paracetamol/codeine every 4 hours with doses of 4mg of clonaz every 4 hours or so just get through my workday.

Tapered that shit over 9 months, mate fuck me what they did to you no human should have to suffer like that. I can relate to the pain that must of caused you.

See i know now I used to take all those meds to manage chronic pain due to Hypermobility/EDS and because of my Autism my pain signals dont seem to fire like other people.

If that happened to me I'd be in a ball on the ground/looking for a cliff to dive head first off. Oh my god cold turkey from those meds is disgusting and life threatening.

No wonder people shoot up heroin. Like if thay happened to me amd I had access to hard
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lukeflowz said:
Do you take zyprexa ?
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Only seroquel, not sure what zyprexa is !
 
IOSIP said:
Mate that's so fucked. You cant do thay to people. Thats fucking destroys me inside is how they label you after psychosis. Your no longer human, they treat you like a dog, i used to take 12mg of clonaz a day, plus 400mg of codeine (roughly a little less) I'd take 4 burofen plus, with 2 paracetamol/codeine every 4 hours with doses of 4mg of clonaz every 4 hours or so just get through my workday.

Tapered that shit over 9 months, mate fuck me what they did to you no human should have to suffer like that. I can relate to the pain that must of caused you.

See i know now I used to take all those meds to manage chronic pain due to Hypermobility/EDS and because of my Autism my pain signals dont seem to fire like other people.

If that happened to me I'd be in a ball on the ground/looking for a cliff to dive head first off. Oh my god cold turkey from those meds is disgusting and life threatening.

No wonder people shoot up heroin. Like if thay happened to me amd I had access to hard drugs like heroin I'd have a needle in my arm no questions asked.
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I dont remember the wd i think my brain shut it out. Thankfully i got back on my meds about a year afger getting out of hospital
 
PenguinWithNapalm said:
What the fuck IS this drug??? Jesus fucking Christ. I always see this thread and I just started reading it. How in the flying fuck is a drug this powerful and fuck you up this badly? My heart goes out to all of you guys that this stuff has damaged
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Because:

1: i never needed that drug in the first place, because i was completely normal (never had psychosis neither mania)

2: They “cold blood” me with the injection without letting my brain adjust with oral pills trial.

3: They chosed the MAX dose aviable for this depot (50mg).

So i’am not surprised my brain got so shocked by that “malpratice”, but it’s more likely they tried to kill me at the end.
 
guys it has been 716 days since last injection or almost 2 years and I have no recovered. Shits cooked bro. Should i like get a invega serum test done surely it will show 0 since 2 years the invega would be gone now so i dont understand why i have not recovered even substantially so far?
 
Abilify2mg said:
guys it has been 716 days since last injection or almost 2 years and I have no recovered. Shits cooked bro. Should i like get a invega serum test done surely it will show 0 since 2 years the invega would be gone now so i dont understand why i have not recovered even substantially so far?
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It’s like if you got shoot in the head, not because the bullet was removed from your brain that the damage caused by it automatically heal once they remove it from your brain.

The brain just got blocked so deep and for so long that just said “ok then i don’t have anymore to properly work like before” so the whole SNC go into a traumatic setting.

Some people’s SNC can heal and go back to baseline but some other people’s not. As i said i’am almost at 19 months after my last injection, i just developed tinnitus after 13 months, none of my family member ever had tinnitus and i don’t get any head trauma or hearing trauma.

These drug are horrendously powerful and the brain got so shocked by them than it’s like if it’s just broke and never repair itself, idk. Probably if someone don’t recover it’s because it got basically overdosed by this chemical.
 
A guy over reddit got ONE injection 7.5mg risperdal, took him 14 months to recover. I got TWO injections 50mg (Max dose aviable), here i’am at 19 months..
 
twinpeaks123 said:
would it be worth sueing the manufacturer after this? I doubt i could do anything about the clinic
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Sueing the doctors Who did this to us would lead to nothing, we cannot prove we don’t need their drug when they forced us to take it.

Sueing the clinic/hospital/psych ward would lead to nothing as they have their own lawyers ( a lots) and we cannot prove we don’t need their drug They force us to take.

Sueing the big pharma who manutactured this poison would lead to nothing because they know the harm their poison do to their victims, and they have BILLIONS worth of businness because of these injections and they would prevent any legal trial to disclosure the harm their poison do to their victims, and yes, they have THE BEST lawyers out there, so forget about that.

There is nothing positive that will came out by seeking “justice”, you will put into that effort a LOTS of money that you already need for yourself, and you will spend YEARS just to lose it all.

As we aknowledge here, in other forums during the past decade, there is no Hospital, University Hospital, Research center, Psych Ward, Doctor, Who can help us to heal our damage.

The only thing we can do is wait 1 year, then another year to see what happen in 24 months total after the harm, then we can decide to wait another year just to reach 3 years, maybe we will be recovered, maybe what they took from us will be so important and living without it is not worth, but we did our duty as victims: Wait at least 1-3 years to see if we recover. That’s it.
 
Just look what happened between israel and palestine in the last 70+ years: MILLIONS of people mobilized to protest and boycot but nothing has changed, israel is committing a GENOCIDE in plenty wiew, live streaming, in the past 2.5 years and despite the people of every country tried his best to stop the massacre, nothing has changed.

We cannot win a “legal war” against a country or a BigPharma worth BILLIONS of dollars each years. This is the world we live into, “Justice” is something we learned watching Hollywood movies and NETFLIX series, but in our real world, there is no justice.
 
InvegaInferno said:
Hey guys, I took a break from the site to focus on healing as it was getting too much for me and I didn't have anything positive to share. I'm sad to hear that @rawbanana is gone is anyone sure that he did it? has anyone spoken to him beforehand? I hope he just took a break like me. I'm still shocked and sinking it in, Im reading the messages trying to catch up on everyone and I'm glad @lukeflowz you haven't done anything keep holding on man, haven't you had any windows or any slight changes so far?

I came back to give everyone an update, I haven't fully recovered but I started feeling better mid month 6 since the injection which was end of December beginning of January, but wanted to make sure I was actually better before saying anything. The depression is practically gone, my emotions are slowly coming back, although rare but I've had moments of happiness, I can laugh, I can feel empathy sometimes, a bit of love as well but its not consistent so I do feel numb at most. I can also feel my interests slowly but gradually coming back, as well as motivation when I had none in the past.

I must mention, at the end of November I started getting treatment through quantum medicine. I was skeptical from it at first but I did improve; I was also fasting during that time, between December and January trying to make up for the days I didn't fast last ramadan since I had a manic episode. This could've aided in my recovery, or maybe just time or could be all of it. I am also still receiving treatment.
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Great to hear you have had some improvements!
 
Invegatorture said:
Great to hear you have had some improvements!
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Did you have intrusive thoughts that come and goes while you are sleeping? Man i feel like my brain damage is so bad i make up rabdom stories in my mind but im bot asleep thats so weird
 
My whole face and forehead/head feel numb, even my jaw. I feel some sort of pressure also, something it’s happening, but I don’t know if it’s good or a bad thing..
 
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