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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
We had BrokenSelf then rawbanana. Lukewolfz and moerez are both in a dangerous path rn.
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fuckk thats the person i was thinking of but couldn't remember their name. thats so sad I don't understand why he couldnt wait for recovery i literally dont understand why him and brokenself had to do this to themselves . If I am able to handle 13 injections and no recovery for 2 years I sure as shit expect them to toughen the fk up and atleast give recovery a chance whether it takes 3 years, 6 years or 10 years but now they are gone FOREVER. Sorry for their families atleast I apologized to rawbanana and brokenself and told them to not kill themselves im dms and that they will recover shits tragic af.
 
my memory has been really bad recently, there were times where it’s not as bad but past couple of days I struggle to remember what I was thinking off or how I felt, anyone else experienced this?
 
paranoid android said:
Basically. Ive seen it work good for meth psychosis but thats about it
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I see seroqel wont work for voices. But when im on a different antipsychotic it zaps all my energy. I dont want to expereince that either.

There any other way to get rid of voices besides antipsychotis? I hear cocaine makes voices go away.
 
Gdvffh said:
I see seroqel wont work for voices. But when im on a different antipsychotic it zaps all my energy. I dont want to expereince that either.

There any other way to get rid of voices besides antipsychotis? I hear cocaine makes voices go away.
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suggest abilify to your provider

i think it is better than seroquel
 
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Yeah ive heard celebrities say they do cocaine to make voices go away. You ever listen to music? They sometimes talk about voices in there head. Like this song.

You guys need to understand ive been on the forums since 2015. I was on risperidone in 2015 and felt terrible, but i didnt hear anything. After i recover and start hearing things again.
 
People on here don't realise how much suicide will destroy your family and friends. They will never be normal again and will be absolutely devastated about it every night. My own brother had an attempt 4 years ago and that totally fucked up our family imagine if he was successful. We even kept it hidden from my elderly dad because if he found out he'd get a heart attack. You also don't realize that when you kill yourself especially as a member of bluelight, you are creating so many copycat suicides meaning brokenself used to talk about previous members who suicided . Rawbanana was probably inspired to end it after brokenself suicide so imagine killing yourself and after your dead you inspire someone else to kill themselves and destroy their families lives . Horrible just horrible. I had 13 fkn invega shots , 3 haldol, olanzapine, abilify and im not recovered at all. Do i have dark thoughts? yes but would I ever act on them? never in a million fkn years, even if i reach the age of 65 and my parents would be dead by then and id be alone , i still would not suicide because my family would be utterely devesated with my suicide. I can never ever be selfish and do this to my family who love me. Im so severely depressed that some days i stay in bed for 20 hours just miserable but I would never go out of my way to literally end my life permanently its just so idiotic . I feel bad for mereks family , i feel bad for bojanas daughters, I feel bad for brokenselfs family and I feel bad for rawbanans family. If you are thinking of suicide you have no idea how much damage you will cause in the lives of your family and friends.
 
Abilify2mg said:
People on here don't realise how much suicide will destroy your family and friends. They will never be normal again and will be absolutely devastated about it every night. My own brother had an attempt 4 years ago and that totally fucked up our family imagine if he was successful. We even kept it hidden from my elderly dad because if he found out he'd get a heart attack. You also don't realize that when you kill yourself especially as a member of bluelight, you are creating so many copycat suicides meaning brokenself used to talk about previous members who suicided . Rawbanana was probably inspired to end it after brokenself suicide so imagine killing yourself and after your dead you inspire someone else to kill themselves and destroy their families lives . Horrible just horrible. I had 13 fkn invega shots , 3 haldol, olanzapine, abilify and im not recovered at all. Do i have dark thoughts? yes but would I ever act on them? never in a million fkn years, even if i reach the age of 65 and my parents would be dead by then and id be alone , i still would not suicide because my family would be utterely devesated with my suicide. I can never ever be selfish and do this to my family who love me. Im so severely depressed that some days i stay in bed for 20 hours just miserable but I would never go out of my way to literally end my life permanently its just so idiotic . I feel bad for mereks family , i feel bad for bojanas daughters, I feel bad for brokenselfs family and I feel bad for rawbanans family. If you are thinking of suicide you have no idea how much damage you will cause in the lives of your family and friends.
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But the question is how long can we live like that? For how long can we take a suffer and pretend like it didn’t happen? I care for my family but i cant take this agony forever and live without emotion love or energy, once you suicide , its over and you dont remember anything else, for me it obviously gonna happen but the timeline is not set yet but its 100% unfortunately, friends and family will accept that you were suffering and let you go trust me
 
Hey guys, I took a break from the site to focus on healing as it was getting too much for me and I didn't have anything positive to share. I'm sad to hear that @rawbanana is gone is anyone sure that he did it? has anyone spoken to him beforehand? I hope he just took a break like me. I'm still shocked and sinking it in, Im reading the messages trying to catch up on everyone and I'm glad @lukeflowz you haven't done anything keep holding on man, haven't you had any windows or any slight changes so far?

I came back to give everyone an update, I haven't fully recovered but I started feeling better mid month 6 since the injection which was end of December beginning of January, but wanted to make sure I was actually better before saying anything. The depression is practically gone, my emotions are slowly coming back, although rare but I've had moments of happiness, I can laugh, I can feel empathy sometimes, a bit of love as well but its not consistent so I do feel numb at most. I can also feel my interests slowly but gradually coming back, as well as motivation when I had none in the past.

I must mention, at the end of November I started getting treatment through quantum medicine. I was skeptical from it at first but I did improve; I was also fasting during that time, between December and January trying to make up for the days I didn't fast last ramadan since I had a manic episode. This could've aided in my recovery, or maybe just time or could be all of it. I am also still receiving treatment.
 
InvegaInferno said:
Hey guys, I took a break from the site to focus on healing as it was getting too much for me and I didn't have anything positive to share. I'm sad to hear that @rawbanana is gone is anyone sure that he did it? has anyone spoken to him beforehand? I hope he just took a break like me. I'm still shocked and sinking it in, Im reading the messages trying to catch up on everyone and I'm glad @lukeflowz you haven't done anything keep holding on man, haven't you had any windows or any slight changes so far?

I came back to give everyone an update, I haven't fully recovered but I started feeling better mid month 6 since the injection which was end of December beginning of January, but wanted to make sure I was actually better before saying anything. The depression is practically gone, my emotions are slowly coming back, although rare but I've had moments of happiness, I can laugh, I can feel empathy sometimes, a bit of love as well but its not consistent so I do feel numb at most. I can also feel my interests slowly but gradually coming back, as well as motivation when I had none in the past.

I must mention, at the end of November I started getting treatment through quantum medicine. I was skeptical from it at first but I did improve; I was also fasting during that time, between December and January trying to make up for the days I didn't fast last ramadan since I had a manic episode. This could've aided in my recovery, or maybe just time or could be all of it. I am also still receiving treatment.
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How were you doing at month5? Any progress? Because i see no improvement its been 5 months for me and its hell man
 
Gdvffh said:
I see seroqel wont work for voices. But when im on a different antipsychotic it zaps all my energy. I dont want to expereince that either.

There any other way to get rid of voices besides antipsychotis? I hear cocaine makes voices go away.
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Suggest zyprea to your doc
 
moerez said:
How were you doing at month5? Any progress? Because i see no improvement its been 5 months for me and its hell man
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At month 5 I had very few moments of positive emotions, windows you may call it, then I'd go back to feeling anhedonic; at that month I was still very much depressed and suicidal.
 
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