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Last night was an early 6,5 g Kratom+ 25 mg dph... no redose cause I'm close to running out ๐Ÿ˜’ just when I started to believe I'm slowly managing better ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ€๐Ÿ’จ... I was so tired that I fell asleep with my little one ...who woke me up twice later at night... ๐Ÿ˜‘
 
- half a mango kush joint
- bunch of vaped tropical cherry Peru weed

Just some weed so far today. Very nicely stoned tho, been a while since Iโ€™ve appreciated weed this much again. Wonderful drug truly.

Hectic few days, luckily am free tomorrow. Went to a different drug testing service today and ofc the 3-mmc is 2-mmc again, but very concerning, the speed isnโ€™t speed .โ€”.

This location had one of those fancy testing machines that can identify most powders, but it came up empty, so itโ€™s getting sent to the lab now. Literally no clue what tf is in it, my guess is a mix up by my dealer, but the machine would have identified it as molly or whatever else could be similar, so uhh yeah.

Fucking sucks. Only have a tiny bit of a previous batch left and 2-mmc is nowhere near as functional as speed for me, but now Iโ€™m stuck with unidentified non-speed and a mountain of 2-mmc.

Well anyways, ramble aside, tempted to do a k-hole tonight, maybe with a little 2-mmc if my stuffy nose allows it. First eating something and working on some creative projects to wind down. Hope yโ€™all have a lovely evening/night :)
 
- half a mango kush joint
- bunch of vaped tropical cherry Peru weed

Just some weed so far today. Very nicely stoned tho, been a while since Iโ€™ve appreciated weed this much again. Wonderful drug truly.

Hectic few days, luckily am free tomorrow. Went to a different drug testing service today and ofc the 3-mmc is 2-mmc again, but very concerning, the speed isnโ€™t speed .โ€”.

This location had one of those fancy testing machines that can identify most powders, but it came up empty, so itโ€™s getting sent to the lab now. Literally no clue what tf is in it, my guess is a mix up by my dealer, but the machine would have identified it as molly or whatever else could be similar, so uhh yeah.

Fucking sucks. Only have a tiny bit of a previous batch left and 2-mmc is nowhere near as functional as speed for me, but now Iโ€™m stuck with unidentified non-speed and a mountain of 2-mmc.

Well anyways, ramble aside, tempted to do a k-hole tonight, maybe with a little 2-mmc if my stuffy nose allows it. First eating something and working on some creative projects to wind down. Hope yโ€™all have a lovely evening/night :)
Damn, while I get it that this sucks, I absolutely envy you for the access to such testing machines... God it would be great to have one of those around!!

On another note one of the new Kratom batches arrived today, so I'm comfortably stocked up and therefore treating myself to an actual late night dose of another 5 g (red Bali) + 25 mg dmh, bringing my daily dose up to almost 24 g... Now let's see if I still wake up from WD tomorrow... And whether it still keeps me awake...
 
12,5mg propiomazine, 15mg melatonin and two 12mg nicotine pouches, the ones with extremly strong menthol and high PH that absorb quicker, although it pales in comparison to some of the stacks you guys are eating.

Been having constant pain these past days on top of being sick and sleeping terribly the past few days, hoping for a good nights sleep. I cant seem to relax my body or mind due to the pain, although it isnt unbearable its at a constant 4/10 level 24 hours of the dayโ€ฆ
 
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On another note one of the new Kratom batches arrived today, so I'm comfortably stocked up and therefore treating myself to an actual late night dose of another 5 g (red Bali) + 25 mg dmh, bringing my daily dose up to almost 24 g... Now let's see if I still wake up from WD tomorrow... And whether it still keeps me awake...
Btw would you say you still โ€feelโ€ the kratom at your current tolerance or is it more of a WD remedy?
 
Btw would you say you still โ€feelโ€ the kratom at your current tolerance or is it more of a WD remedy?
Definitely a remedy. What I feel is the relief, and around the peak nicotine hits harder - or at least I believe it does, lol ๐Ÿ˜…, then sometimes it is a hard to describe little plus of wellbeing. For an opioid similar to coming up slowly, but that's it... Around 9 g it would be a little bit more of that, but if I wasn't dependent I wouldn't bother to swallow so much of the stuff for that ๐Ÿ˜…
 
Damn, while I get it that this sucks, I absolutely envy you for the access to such testing machines... God it would be great to have one of those around!!
Ohh yeah, itโ€™s an absolute blessing having access to free professional drug testing here in the Netherlands, I wish more countries would introduce such a system. It could greatly reduce overdose accidents I bet.

For sure has saved me from taking wayyy too much MDMA in the strong ass xtc pills here and the testing people are also really kind and helpful with giving harm reduction advise.
 
Tonight I'm on:
200 mg methadone
120 mg Adderall
3000 mg gabapentin

And holy shit, the gabas are stampeding right over the Adderall. I'm talkin closed eye visuals, intermittent napping, swimming through custard, the works. They have me practically ready for bed and the night is still young!

Doing pretty good staying away from the fentanyl, too. I had some a few days ago but managed to restrict my use to a single night, and to just a few pills. Like I have said before I am not looking to quit completely (though if that happened I would be ok with it), so I think I am doing a decent job cutting down on my use.
 
couldnโ€™t finish logging yesterdayโ€™s night so doing it now I suppose.

- bunch of vaped weed
- 7.5mg deschloroetizolam
- 25mg IC-26
- roughly 3 bumps of K

Was a weird night, canโ€™t even remember what triggered me but moodswing got me close to self harming, which made me feel worse in itself as I feel Iโ€™m getting too old to still have those stupid urges, but whatever. Started of with the deschloroetizolam, didnโ€™t calm me down enough.

Wanted O-DSMT, but had taken speed earlier so that was a no-go. Ended up taking IC-26 instead, but accidentally took half instead of a quarter of a tablet. Fuck knows why they make them 50mg. I guess for someone with an opioid tolerance whoโ€™s using them as an alternative to methadone, but with my tolerance that 25mg hit really fucking hard.

Later added more weed and a bit of ket and then everything hit all at once and I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ve ever felt that good except maybe my first time taking xtc. Felt like floating above my bed from pure bliss.

Didnโ€™t mean to get to that level of euphoria, almost feel sad it was in the context it was in, but ohh well.

Taking it easy today with just some weed. Will be a weekend full of uppers. Bit anxious about Saturday as Iโ€™ll be going out with someone whoโ€™s stance on substances I donโ€™t know, so will see what becomes of that .โ€”.

Want to keep my opioid tolerance as low as possible though. The RC opioids are very likely to get banned soon I fear, I believe thereโ€™s an investigation or something going on into some of the big RC sellers over here. Almost curious what the aftermath of banning the RC opioids and benzos will be like. Illegal drug market will be delighted at the market gap Iโ€™m sure.
 
Wanted O-DSMT, but had taken speed earlier so that was a no-go. Ended up taking IC-26 instead, but accidentally took half instead of a quarter of a tablet. Fuck knows why they make them 50mg. I guess for someone with an opioid tolerance whoโ€™s using them as an alternative to methadone, but with my tolerance that 25mg hit really fucking hard.

Later added more weed and a bit of ket and then everything hit all at once and I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ve ever felt that good except maybe my first time taking xtc. Felt like floating above my bed from pure bliss.
Damn... Every time I read that type of experience it feels like doom. I'm worried about you, like it or not ...๐Ÿ˜›
And then again it makes me wonder whether I should better go for something long- lasting like methadone ๐Ÿ˜’... The ups and downs with Kratom are really not helpful ...
Wanted to stick to 3x 7 g today, but no fkn way... I'm at 28 g already and still so irritated I added
75 mg Pregabalin
10 mg Diazepam (third day in a row)
Usual 25 mg dph
And tempted to abuse K for potentiation again - like last night ๐Ÿ˜’
Please knock me out-state
 
Damn... Every time I read that type of experience it feels like doom. I'm worried about you, like it or not ...๐Ÿ˜›
And then again it makes me wonder whether I should better go for something long- lasting like methadone ๐Ÿ˜’... The ups and downs with Kratom are really not helpful ...
Wanted to stick to 3x 7 g today, but no fkn way... I'm at 28 g already and still so irritated I added
75 mg Pregabalin
10 mg Diazepam (third day in a row)
Usual 25 mg dph
And tempted to abuse K for potentiation again - like last night ๐Ÿ˜’
Please knock me out-state
The methadone is a tricky one, if your goal is to taper down sooner than later then I would stay on kratom since getting off that is far far easier than methadone.

However if you desire to stay on long term opioid maintenance then I suppose methadone is the better choice, just be aware the withdrawal is worse and more drawn out compared to kratom. Stay safe friend โค๏ธ
 
The methadone is a tricky one, if your goal is to taper down sooner than later then I would stay on kratom since getting off that is far far easier than methadone.

However if you desire to stay on long term opioid maintenance then I suppose methadone is the better choice, just be aware the withdrawal is worse and more drawn out compared to kratom. Stay safe friend โค๏ธ
Hmm... Right I heard that... Never had methadone before, so can't tell first hand.. Really I wish I could do with the Kratom, also I have a lot of it now and didn't plan on spending more money on drugs for a while... It's just too difficult to use for me. It hardly lasts 6 hours - if I'm lucky, and the frequent redosing is very unpractical.. I hardly get through work until lunch break, I'm in mild WD every time before I can leave... Rn I'm at home but with that instability it's not a great outlook...
 
So today I tried a 3x 9 g schedule ( and stuck to that):
9 g red Kratom, split into 2 doses 40 min apart
35 mg dph
30 mg dxm
100 mg Pregabalin
10 mg Diazepam
Weed vaped ( less this time and got p close to mysweet spot)
Small glass of red wine
Loads of nic vaped
 
Just got back from dinner out with family, mom in town for the weekend so good times. ๐Ÿ‘

Had 1200mg gabapentin, a bowl of Trainwreck and 20mg methadone earlier, then two d9/d8/thc-p gummies right before dinner. Picked up my (day late) testosterone script while out, so 50mg that IM just now with another joint, 5mg zyprexa, 50mg diphenhydramine and 6mg melatonin. Sleepy time. ๐Ÿ˜ด

โœŒ๏ธ โค๏ธ
 
Ugh, cant sleep and cant tell if the pain Im feeling is due to my โ€connective tissue disorderโ€ or if Ive just done some stupid movement today while carrying groceries. My lower back and hip are absolutely killing me.

Also decided to take another break from nicotine today for no other reason than uhh, idk really. I guess I wasnt getting much out of it atp. Ill get back to it eventually though, like a toxic exโ€ฆ

Anyways just a short rant as Im reading through my comfort thread and fantasizing about the drug combos that would release my soul from my body. Although in actuality Im thankful for my sobriety today.

12,5mg propiomazine and 10mg melatonin, tried taking half a propiomazine tablet sublingually again and it just burned and numbed my tongue and mouthโ€ฆ

Goodnight yall ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ
 
Damn... Every time I read that type of experience it feels like doom. I'm worried about you, like it or not ...๐Ÿ˜›
And then again it makes me wonder whether I should better go for something long- lasting like methadone ๐Ÿ˜’... The ups and downs with Kratom are really not helpful ...
Wanted to stick to 3x 7 g today, but no fkn way... I'm at 28 g already and still so irritated I added
75 mg Pregabalin
10 mg Diazepam (third day in a row)
Usual 25 mg dph
And tempted to abuse K for potentiation again - like last night ๐Ÿ˜’
Please knock me out-state
I gotta say that for me, methadone was a total life saver. I was unbelievably unstable in every aspect of life when I was on heroin. And methadone helped me get my shit together. I mean I still do opioids now and then but I don't have to worth about wds ever. BUT like thelightbringer already said, methadone's usefulness for you largely depends on whether your goal is total abstinence or maintenance. kratom is wayyy easier and faster to taper down from.

As for me? Let's see. My night consisted of:
3000 mg gabapentin
90 mg Adderall
200 mg methadone
The usual parade of psych meds

I'm thinking a tolerance break from stims might be in order. but they're so useful for productivity! So I am kind of at an impasse there.

Hope everybody's staying safe out there!

Ps @Sp4rky what does the duration of ic-26 look like? Just curious
 
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