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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

mona21 said:
Today is 10 months of my last injection. Ten months of hell idk how many more before any relief. Just wanted to make a monthly update to keep a track of how things are going month by month. There isnt much improvement. I feel like things are only getting worse as time goes on. All my hope of having a life after this is lost now . I wish I could say something different. I wish I could have stayed more hopeful. I am holding on because I promised myself I would till 18 months anyhow. @Kiaf85 and @Kaatrina are the two users whose recovery posts are reasons I will hold on to this worthless life till 18 months. I am in the middle of a breakdown now. Idk if I am lucky or not that I can cry my eyes out for the inevitable death that I see coming for me in 8 months . I wish I could feel something more than just sadness and void. I have started seeing a lot of videos on Near death experiences or NDEs. I wish we could really know what life after death was like. Sometimes I just wish there was a life where I could have it all , where I could be happy and none of this would have happened. I wish there is peace in the afterlife and all of us are relieved from this mental hell.
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I don’t want to scare you, but at 13th months mark I developed tinnitus, now i’am at 18 months and not recovered.
 
I still feel i was much smarter before, my brain is coming back slowly but it's still less 10iq point's down.
Vyvanse used to make me super smart now it just make me normal. Maybe that's what the guy said before it, doesn't work to full effect but this thing dumb you down.

Hops i recover soon, I'm just studying programming now, but the information doesn't stick in my brain easily like before
 
twinpeaks123 said:
if I can find even one person who recovered after symptoms either worsened returned or fluctuated after a couple of months then I can have hope in recovery, what I am going through feels extremely rare, usually recovery is linear ( you notice some improvements and it keeps increasing)
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Hey I recovered fully after 2 years all I can advise is don’t focus too hard on a timeframe honestly. I wanted to be fully recovered in a year maybe a year and a half at most but honestly 2 years later (roughly) I feel normal again . I would say I didn’t feel any type of progress till maybe 9 months in for my most prevalent side effect (pssd) and I thought like you it was just going to get better quick since I was noticing improvement but it just wasn’t. One day I felt improved next day I felt I haven’t improved at all. It’s a very tough mental and physical challenge that I went through everyday while trying to balance my actual life duties. But I did login for the first time in a while and seen you also took two loading doses like me. So I wouldn’t worry yourself too much you should be fine.
 
BKInvegahealer said:
Hey I recovered fully after 2 years all I can advise is don’t focus too hard on a timeframe honestly. I wanted to be fully recovered in a year maybe a year and a half at most but honestly 2 years later (roughly) I feel normal again . I would say I didn’t feel any type of progress till maybe 9 months in for my most prevalent side effect (pssd) and I thought like you it was just going to get better quick since I was noticing improvement but it just wasn’t. One day I felt improved next day I felt I haven’t improved at all. It’s a very tough mental and physical challenge that I went through everyday while trying to balance my actual life duties. But I did login for the first time in a while and seen you also took two loading doses like me. So I wouldn’t worry yourself too much you should be fine.
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What was your symptoms? Would your hand go numb really easy when holding phone or sexual disfunction and tremor ? Also i have fucked up sleep and when i wake up and wanna go back to sleep it goes in phase that im seeing dreams but im awake which is weird i had two shots as well, its been 4.5 months but 0 improvements so far
 
moerez said:
What was your symptoms? Would your hand go numb really easy when holding phone or sexual disfunction and tremor ? Also i have fucked up sleep and when i wake up and wanna go back to sleep it goes in phase that im seeing dreams but im awake which is weird i had two shots as well, its been 4.5 months but 0 improvements so far
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Ssris mess with blood flow which is why your hand goes numb easily and also why many people who take this experience sexual dysfunction in my opinion. The other stuff I never experienced besides the messed up sleep. 4.5 months in is still extremely early I would advise you to take beet products to help with blood flow stay active and eat healthy.
 
BKInvegahealer said:
Ssris mess with blood flow which is why your hand goes numb easily and also why many people who take this experience sexual dysfunction in my opinion. The other stuff I never experienced besides the messed up sleep. 4.5 months in is still extremely early I would advise you to take beet products to help with blood flow stay active and eat healthy.
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Whats funny is i dont even take ssri and i have all the symptoms, there is no way that i recover im pretty sure, i dont even get headaches even i dont drink water or dont sleep, i have more side effects than other people which makes me think that i never recover and im pretty sure i will be one of the cases who never recover
 
moerez said:
Whats funny is i dont even take ssri and i have all the symptoms, there is no way that i recover im pretty sure, i dont even get headaches even i dont drink water or dont sleep, i have more side effects than other people which makes me think that i never recover and im pretty sure i will be one of the cases who never recover
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This is a prime example of why people who recover don’t come to this thread no more we try to give help and recovery stories and y’all literally just want to continue to be negative for no reason. Invega is a ssri. If you think you’ll never recover you may convince yourself you’ll never recover and that’s all ima say. 🤷‍♂️ Most y’all have deeper problems than invega or what ever they have given you and that’s why y’all are where y’all are.
 
I like the having a proactive attitude idea. If you think you won't recover, it will be a lot harder. Never is a long time. Anything can happen. You'll get there.

Invega is an antipsychotic. SSRIs are antidepressants, and can help with anxiety.
 
BKInvegahealer said:
This is a prime example of why people who recover don’t come to this thread no more we try to give help and recovery stories and y’all literally just want to continue to be negative for no reason. Invega is a ssri. If you think you’ll never recover you may convince yourself you’ll never recover and that’s all ima say. 🤷‍♂️ Most y’all have deeper problems than invega or what ever they have given you and that’s why y’all are where y’all are.
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I never said you lie or recovery is impossible, some people react good to the AP like invega and have less side effects from when they start, all im saying is i have many symptoms that usually people who recover dont have after 4 months, no pill works for me and i feel like lobotomy all the time and everyday is worse than yesterday , how do you want me to be optimistic?
For people who recover is easy to say others have underlying problems because they cant heal, Can you say Bojana who killed her self after not recovering for 14 months had underlying issue? No she just wasn’t lucky enough to recover. Its all luck that some people recover and some dont
 
BKInvegahealer said:
Hey I recovered fully after 2 years all I can advise is don’t focus too hard on a timeframe honestly. I wanted to be fully recovered in a year maybe a year and a half at most but honestly 2 years later (roughly) I feel normal again . I would say I didn’t feel any type of progress till maybe 9 months in for my most prevalent side effect (pssd) and I thought like you it was just going to get better quick since I was noticing improvement but it just wasn’t. One day I felt improved next day I felt I haven’t improved at all. It’s a very tough mental and physical challenge that I went through everyday while trying to balance my actual life duties. But I did login for the first time in a while and seen you also took two loading doses like me. So I wouldn’t worry yourself too much you should be fine.
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YOu have pssd symptoms with invega? What were your symptoms? What sexual side effectsdid you have and did it come back? Did your empathy, cognitive abilities also come back? Did the emotional blunting go away?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
YOu have pssd symptoms with invega? What were your symptoms? What sexual side effectsdid you have and did it come back? Did your empathy, cognitive abilities also come back? Did the emotional blunting go away?
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He never had anhedonia and had emotions , i checked his recent posts, thats why im saying some people recover because they dont have much side effects, many people get stuck because the drug is too much for them
 
anonymoususer777 said:
YOu have pssd symptoms with invega? What were your symptoms? What sexual side effectsdid you have and did it come back? Did your empathy, cognitive abilities also come back? Did the emotional blunting go away?
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I had all those things don’t listen to that guy^^^ I genuinely believe people be on here scare farming others. All those came back earlier than the sexual side effects. unfortunately I won’t be posting in here anymore because people like him so if you want to know more message me personally.
 
BKInvegahealer said:
I had all those things don’t listen to that guy^^^ I genuinely believe people be on here scare farming others. All those came back earlier than the sexual side effects. unfortunately I won’t be posting in here anymore because people like him so if you want to know more message me personally.
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Why do you get mad? I just said what you said , you literally said i had no anhedonia and insomnia in your recent posts! So why do you get mad when i rewrite your post? You literally had no side effects only thing you had was sexual disfunction.
 
moerez said:
He never had anhedonia and had emotions , i checked his recent posts, thats why im saying some people recover because they dont have much side effects, many people get stuck because the drug is too much for them
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Like me? At 13 months I developed tinnitus instead of healing, now i’am at 18 months, i will end it all if at 24 months i’am still like this.
 
BKInvegahealer said:
I had all those things don’t listen to that guy^^^ I genuinely believe people be on here scare farming others. All those came back earlier than the sexual side effects. unfortunately I won’t be posting in here anymore because people like him so if you want to know more message me personally.
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Did your drive, ambition, and initiative to do things come back as well? When did your sexual function come back?
 
moerez said:
I never said you lie or recovery is impossible, some people react good to the AP like invega and have less side effects from when they start, all im saying is i have many symptoms that usually people who recover dont have after 4 months, no pill works for me and i feel like lobotomy all the time and everyday is worse than yesterday , how do you want me to be optimistic?
For people who recover is easy to say others have underlying problems because they cant heal, Can you say Bojana who killed her self after not recovering for 14 months had underlying issue? No she just wasn’t lucky enough to recover. Its all luck that some people recover and some dont
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I dont know anyone who felt better in 4 months. Most people i spoke to said they felt better (not fully recovered) after 6 to 12 months. The first few months are the hardest.
 
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