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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Trueart2 said:
You need to tell the doctor you’d like the process to continue even without your imprisonment. Advocate for yourself and write a formal letter to give to the doctor while reassuring her of your relationship with her. It’s time to set boundaries and set yourself up for success. Anything else is ridiculous
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My fear is that this doctor won’t follow my case if i left the ward, so i will be at “point zero” again..
 
Today i came back at the psych ward after 3 days spent at my home, poor my little cat, i can’t even immagine how much he feel alone and abandoned this month that I was there, i shared how much love I can to her these 3 days but i have to go to that psych ward today..
 
I hallucinate from weed again and I have been for months, detailed surfaces get all glonky. It got particularly glonky today. I usually don't have the emotional effects.

I really need to cut back from weed, I am capable of smoking an ounce in a month and it took me six months or a year, I forget which, to get through an ounce. I don't think it's good for me to be doing this all the time.
 
something bizzare just happened 25 minutes ago, I thought it was feeling fine then I pondered the purpose of existence and time, now I got a huge wave of anhedonia and feeling emotionally blunted like even the angry feelings I have felt have become dissipated or became muted, anyone else experienced this? quite concerning to say the least
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Today i crossed 18 months after my last injection. NOT RECOVERED.
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Sorry you have gone through this- I’m nearly at 5 months and I haven’t realised any clear recovery signs. I think you being in the ward right now could be advantageous, regardless of what everyone else thinks as you are at a point where you may need intervention to assist you. I don’t mean more antipsychotics, but maybe this PET scan you might get, may diagnose a problem with your dopamine receptors and you may get prescribed a pure dopamine agonist. Would you be open to try an antidepressant, if that’s a possibility? I know there are potential faults of taking them, but it may help lift you. I know if I was at 18 months and not recovered I’d be more open to trying things.

Anyway, I’m suffering myself and not giving advice- just a perspective. I think by you being in the psych ward right now is beneficial as you have a doctor who is actually listening to you. I suppose you could see if it’s an option if you could leave the facility and still see that doctor, but I don’t think that would happen. Anyway you have nothing to lose at the moment- do what’s required to get PET scan. It seems they won’t be prescribing you more antipsychotics, so you’re safe on that front. Best of luck
 
lukeflowz said:
Sorry you have gone through this- I’m nearly at 5 months and I haven’t realised any clear recovery signs. I think you being in the ward right now could be advantageous, regardless of what everyone else thinks as you are at a point where you may need intervention to assist you. I don’t mean more antipsychotics, but maybe this PET scan you might get, may diagnose a problem with your dopamine receptors and you may get prescribed a pure dopamine agonist. Would you be open to try an antidepressant, if that’s a possibility? I know there are potential faults of taking them, but it may help lift you. I know if I was at 18 months and not recovered I’d be more open to trying things.

Anyway, I’m suffering myself and not giving advice- just a perspective. I think by you being in the psych ward right now is beneficial as you have a doctor who is actually listening to you. I suppose you could see if it’s an option if you could leave the facility and still see that doctor, but I don’t think that would happen. Anyway you have nothing to lose at the moment- do what’s required to get PET scan. It seems they won’t be prescribing you more antipsychotics, so you’re safe on that front. Best of luck
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Yeah i’am already taking mitrazapine as antidepressants, temesta to control/prevent panic attacks and for sleep, and melatonine..
 
Feeling better 5.1 months after, i can cock food now, buying some new stuff to my place (oven,pans etc)
Going to cinemas sometimes.
I kind of feel okay in terms of day to day, but I don't have stamina or ability to focus or think hard.
I hope i will be able to focus soon
 
lostsoulowen said:
Feeling better 5.1 months after, i can cock food now, buying some new stuff to my place (oven,pans etc)
Going to cinemas sometimes.
I kind of feel okay in terms of day to day, but I don't have stamina or ability to focus or think hard.
I hope i will be able to focus soon
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Did you get invega injections, what were your dosages and number of injections? Did you have sexual.dysfunction?
 
Yesterday the general doctor (not that psychiatryst lady) caught me crying, and said something like “we see that your stay there is doing some progress”..

Idk what him was talking about, he just asked me “why are u crying” and i answered “because of what they did to me” and then he replied “what do you feel about them?” And i said “i feel anger over them, but I belive in the justice, in the giuridic system that we have there in our country, and They Will get accountable for What They did”..

The he did a little smile, and said me “let’s talk Monday”.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Yesterday the general doctor (not that psychiatryst lady) caught me crying, and said something like “we see that your stay there is doing some progress”..

Idk what him was talking about, he just asked me “why are u crying” and i answered “because of what they did to me” and then he replied “what do you feel about them?” And i said “i feel anger over them, but I belive in the justice, in the giuridic system that we have there in our country, and They Will get accountable for What They did”..

The he did a little smile, and said me “let’s talk Monday”.
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Who's that? Are you talking to someone that's not you're doctor that's supposed to help you?“we see that your stay there is doing some progress”this sounds very suspicious
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Yesterday the general doctor (not that psychiatryst lady) caught me crying, and said something like “we see that your stay there is doing some progress”..

Idk what him was talking about, he just asked me “why are u crying” and i answered “because of what they did to me” and then he replied “what do you feel about them?” And i said “i feel anger over them, but I belive in the justice, in the giuridic system that we have there in our country, and They Will get accountable for What They did”..

The he did a little smile, and said me “let’s talk Monday”.
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As suggested previously, all this stay is doing is making people think there's actually something wrong with you aside from antipsychotic damage. You're likely to be here more months waiting on the PET scan the way it's going. It's completely up to you to figure out what the limit is for this type of life, and it doesn't seem like it's entrapping you in medical debt either.
 
Trueart2 said:
As suggested previously, all this stay is doing is making people think there's actually something wrong with you aside from antipsychotic damage. You're likely to be here more months waiting on the PET scan the way it's going. It's completely up to you to figure out what the limit is for this type of life, and it doesn't seem like it's entrapping you in medical debt either.
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Y’am brain damaged out from here like i’am brain damaged inside here that ward. Medicals debt don’t bother me since i have health ensurance. Until i feel that they are Willing to push for neuro-exames i keep staying there, in the exact moment i feel that feeling was a fairytales they did to me i immediately go back home, i still have the “won trial sentence” paper, so basically this is my free ticket to go back to my home.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Y’am brain damaged out from here like i’am brain damaged inside here that ward. Medicals debt don’t bother me since i have health ensurance. Until i feel that they are Willing to push for neuro-exames i keep staying there, in the exact moment i feel that feeling was a fairytales they did to me i immediately go back home, i still have the “won trial sentence” paper, so basically this is my free ticket to go back to my home.
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This is 1 in a lifetime opportunity, so many other doctors rejected you.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Did you get invega injections, what were your dosages and number of injections? Did you have sexual.dysfunction?
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Yeah 5-6 injection, yes i got sexual dysfunction i guess, my whole body barely worked.

My friend killed himself yesterday, he's gf texted me.
I saw the video of he's final moments, i just been this whole day thinking about him, that i will never see or talk with him again. I hope he's in a better place now.

He's girlfriend was just approved a visa to come see him, but he couldn't wait anymore played russian roulette and ended he's life.
 
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