fuqrisperdal
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 30, 2025
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While I'm suffering such terrible pain, trying not to let my family know anything, the fact that they still think I'm fine, that I'm still taking those antipsychotics and see the medication as a cure, drives me crazy. Even my brother, who is a doctor, doesn't know about those medications. I have a lot of symptoms that the people here don't have, and I'm only not committing suicide to avoid causing them a major trauma, and yes, I'm scared. But I'm at the edge now. I think they need to feel a great pain in their lives too. Since their brains are healthy, they'll grieve and adapt, at least. I'm at a level where I wouldn't be able to understand or react if someone died right now, at least in that respect they're lucky.
