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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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anonymoususer777 said:
is your motivation back? Do you feel endorphins after exercise?

Btw 5 miles in 29 minutes is seriously fast....did you mean 5km in 29 minutes?
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my motivation is fully back, i feel good after exercise too. also, no i meant 5 miles. i've been running for over 10 years. my trick is to think of the bad things that happened to me, like invega, and i get this surge of energy to not stop. i also have played sports all my life which helps.
 
twinpeaks123 said:
do you still have anhedonia?
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My main symptoms are cognitive, but I also have emotional blunting which seems to go hand in hand with cognitive impairment. I don't know if I ever experienced anhedonia the way that people on here describe it. I was not a super emotional person before the injections, maybe due to SSRI use in childhood. I am very upset about living this way, don't get me wrong. I have a lobotomy feeling in my head, I am disabled. It is hell, but I don't know if I can relate to the people that seem to experience intense emotional agony (?? if that's what you mean by "anhedonia")
At first I could not cry at all, now I can cry sometimes but it takes much more than it used to, it's hard to access deeper emotions. It also feels weird to cry
I guess what I am trying to say is, I feel numb and dead inside, I do not feel strong emotions but it concerns me more to not have thoughts/cognition, to have a blank mind, first and foremost... I think you can have anhedonia without having cognitive impairment, but if you have severe cognitive impairment then you necessarily also have anhedonia

deathbypsychiatry said:
"Even after controlling for illness duration, severity, and substance abuse – antipsychotics appeared to decrease brain tissue volume. Specifically, the antipsychotics reduced both gray matter and white matter. Oddly enough, illicit drug abuse had no significant correlation with brain volume loss."

source - https://mentalhealthdaily.com/2015/07/03/antipsychotics-and-brain-damage-shrinkage-volume-loss/
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Not at all surprising that antipsychotics are more harmful than recreational drugs. What I would like to know is, is there any actual evidence that psychosis causes brain damage? It sounds like pseudoscience, and I wonder when/where they came up with that theory
 
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4.5 months, feeling a tiny bit better, i sleep less hours like before i slept 12 hour's, now i can sleep 8 hour's. And i managed to go to sleep at night and wake up in the morning.

I can have some semble of self, like yesterday i want to buy a new jacket.
I am starting to feel coffee a tiny bit.

I also felt Vyvanse i took it right now and i feel like i drank coffee like a bit of energy.
 
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ixi said:
My main symptoms are cognitive, but I also have emotional blunting which seems to go hand in hand with severe cognitive impairment. I don't know if I ever experienced anhedonia the way that people on here describe it. I was not a very emotional person before the injections, maybe due to SSRI use in childhood. I am very upset about living this way, don't get me wrong, this Invega induced brain damage was completely unnecessary and ruined my life. I have a lobotomy feeling in my head, I am disabled. It is hell, but I don't know if I can relate to the people that seem to experience intense emotional agony (?? if that's what you mean by "anhedonia")
At first I could not cry at all, now I can cry sometimes, but it probably takes much more than it used to.


Not at all surprising that antipsychotics are more harmful than recreational drugs. What I would like to know is, is there any actual evidence that psychosis causes brain damage? It sounds like pseudoscience, and I wonder when/where they came up with that theory
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can you enjoy movies and tv?
 
Fuck that shit I want a refound of 1million for each months of the first year i felt non Well due to the harm they did to me, 2 millions for each months of the second year.

I want to be refounded with 22 milions until now.
 
Hey guys- when do the suicidal thoughts lesson (what month in recovery) . I was never suicidal before getting these injections and now the thoughts of suicide are intrusive and I cant control them.
It's not an option to talk with my psychiatrist about them as they will want me back on Invega and if I get back on it Ill definitely do it. has anyone else at the early stages of recovery have suicidal intrusive thoughts?
 
lukeflowz said:
Hey guys- when do the suicidal thoughts lesson. I was never suicidal before getting these injections and now the thoughts of suicide are intrusive and I cant control them.
It's not an option to talk with my psychiatrist about them as they will want me back on Invega and if I get back on it Ill definitely do it. has anyone else at the early stages of recovery have suicidal intrusive thoughts?
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I Think most people get that, you just feel bad 10/10 first 4 months. I don't have intrusive thoughts anymore months 4.5. I'm going to shopping and i feel like a human.
 
lostsoulowen said:
I Think most people get that, you just feel bad 10/10 first 4 months. I don't have intrusive thoughts anymore months 4.5. I'm going to shopping and i feel like a human.
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I hope when four and a half months comes this way, I can feel even at least 10% better. This would allow me to endure for longer.
 
Does anyone experience problems with motor movements? Problems like dystonia and dyskinesia. My body usually becomes rigid in one position; I can't even keep my head straight, it's like my muscles are locked in a certain position.
 
This shit even changed the way I blink. For 7 months, I haven't had a single expression on my face. My facial muscles feel locked and non-functional. My perception is so clouded that I can't even understand what state I'm in. I'm watching my surroundings with a pair of eyes and a non-existent brain. I can never describe what I'm going through. For 7 months, I've been searching for recovery stories, but there's no one who's completely recovered from this shit. There's some improvement, but not complete recovery. These things they gave us weren't like the poisonous mushrooms our ancestors encountered in nature; at least when they ate those, they vomited, got a fever, and never put the poison in their mouths again. They gave us this poison stealthily for months. It feels like I'm living through the most terrifying thing in the world. I don't even know how I'm writing this; I guess I have some muscle memory left.
 
I started to take sertraline as the doctor proposed me that, and they have sent a official request for neurological examination and also a PET, so i wanted to cooperate with the doctor when she proposed me sertraline
 
twinpeaks123 said:
can you enjoy movies and tv?
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not really, no. TikTok videos are short enough for me to pay attention to

deathbypsychiatry said:
"While Andreasen initially attributed this shrinkage of the frontal lobes to a disease process, in 2011 she announced that long-term use of the old standard antipsychotics, the new atypicals, and clozapine were all “associated with smaller brain tissue volumes.” She found that this brain shrinkage was dose related; the more drug a person was given, the greater the association “with smaller grey matter volumes.” A loss in white matter volume was also “most evident among patients who received more antipsychotic treatment.” Illness severity and substance abuse had “minimal or no effects” on brain volumes, she concluded."
Source - https://psychrights.org/Research/Digest/NLPs/The-Case-Against-AntipsychoticsWhitaker2016.pdf
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thank you
 
Matthew01 said:
What about dopamine agonist? You're supposed to suggest to the doctor full dopamine agonists,tell her to give you cabergoline. Setraline is for serotonin. Dopamine is the major problem. Sertraline is an ssri and can cause PSSD: post ssri sexual dysfunction
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I already have sexual di sfuncuotn and the doctor before giving dopamine agonists want to know my receptors status by PET exam
 
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