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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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anonymoususer777 said:
Thats a very quick recovery, if it is recovery. I am experiencing similar windows as libido has improved and i still wake up at night, but at later times. Have racing thoughts in the morning and sometimes later.

I liked your bouncing ball example and i hope it is true.

But i sometimes doubt if this is recovery because besides the windows of improvement in libido and sleep, I Still have sexual dysfunction and ed, my body heats up unbearably, unable to exercise or run, imagination and cognitive function are still missing, having memory issues, energy levels crash mid day, still no motivation, and have extremely painful nostalgic feelings.
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I am also facing extremely painful nostalgia feelings, I think it’s because we miss our lives before the invega
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Thats a very quick recovery, if it is recovery. I am experiencing similar windows as libido has improved and i still wake up at night, but at later times. Have racing thoughts in the morning and sometimes later.

I liked your bouncing ball example and i hope it is true.

But i sometimes doubt if this is recovery because besides the windows of improvement in libido and sleep, I Still have sexual dysfunction and ed, my body heats up unbearably, unable to exercise or run, imagination and cognitive function are still missing, having memory issues, energy levels crash mid day, still no motivation, and have extremely painful nostalgic feelings.
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Thanks for your input. I'm not sure what it is, I'm just grateful that the intense anhedonia and akathisia is no longer. I guess that could be called "recovery" in a sense, or a path to full recovery.

Regarding the symptoms you mentioned, my imagination and cognitive abilities are not yet back to pre-invega level, however they are adequate for day-to-day activities and they are better now than they were 1 month ago. I still experience midday energy crashes from time to time, particularly drowsiness and tiredness, but more so in the mornings. With regards to motivation, some of it came back as soon as anhedonia subsided.

One interesting thing I observe is that I don't have these nostalgic feelings that you and @twinpeaks123 mentioned. I'm not sure why. If anything, at the height of invega side effects, i.e day 1-30, I couldn't even remember who I was pre-invega, how I was, my personality and character,..., which made this period of time particularly difficult. It was as if I was a completely different person and my past didn't matter. But as time went on, some of these memories start to come back and a lot of things started to make sense again.
 
I honestly can’t deal with this stiff neck, I changed my posture and developed it yesterday, why are my symptoms getting worse, i don’t know how I can do this for 8 more months

I looked it up and no one else seems to be dealing with this
 
twinpeaks123 said:
I honestly can’t deal with this stiff neck, I changed my posture and developed it yesterday, why are my symptoms getting worse, i don’t know how I can do this for 8 more months

I looked it up and no one else seems to be dealing with this
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I saw a post from Quora forum where someone developed bad posture, and muscle stiffness, try to take warm bath, and use some anti-inflamation muscle cream
 
cloudflare said:
Thanks for your input. I'm not sure what it is, I'm just grateful that the intense anhedonia and akathisia is no longer. I guess that could be called "recovery" in a sense, or a path to full recovery.

Regarding the symptoms you mentioned, my imagination and cognitive abilities are not yet back to pre-invega level, however they are adequate for day-to-day activities and they are better now than they were 1 month ago. I still experience midday energy crashes from time to time, particularly drowsiness and tiredness, but more so in the mornings. With regards to motivation, some of it came back as soon as anhedonia subsided.

One interesting thing I observe is that I don't have these nostalgic feelings that you and @twinpeaks123 mentioned. I'm not sure why. If anything, at the height of invega side effects, i.e day 1-30, I couldn't even remember who I was pre-invega, how I was, my personality and character,..., which made this period of time particularly difficult. It was as if I was a completely different person and my past didn't matter. But as time went on, some of these memories start to come back and a lot of things started to make sense again.
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The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.

Are you a particularly good athelete and active before invega? Do you have a problem with body heating up excessively during exercise post invega?
 
twinpeaks123 said:
I am also facing extremely painful nostalgia feelings, I think it’s because we miss our lives before the invega
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The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
You can feel weed? Thats a good sign
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Well, it’s not like it used to be, due to consciousness and alterations of perception, when i smoke i don’t like it because it only worsening that wierd feeling, last time i smoked weed (not CBD) was like back in april and i felt the same, so i dont like it..
 
The year is almost over and I’m 6.5 months off of the injections, I feel much better than I did when I first got the injections but still have anhedonia; at least I think it’s anhedonia. I think if I didn’t have a job I would be suicidal, when I was in psychosis it caused me to leave my job out of fear and it was the worst I’ve ever felt. I’m able to do my job well and I’m taking better care of myself but I still do miss the euphoria and excitement I used to feel about things. I said I was going to take a week break from weed but I don’t feel like waiting that long actually so I will try it again later today. Even if I have hard days things are better than how they were in the beginning of the year and I hope next year will treat me better.
 
invegaloner said:
The year is almost over and I’m 6.5 months off of the injections, I feel much better than I did when I first got the injections but still have anhedonia; at least I think it’s anhedonia. I think if I didn’t have a job I would be suicidal, when I was in psychosis it caused me to leave my job out of fear and it was the worst I’ve ever felt. I’m able to do my job well and I’m taking better care of myself but I still do miss the euphoria and excitement I used to feel about things. I said I was going to take a week break from weed but I don’t feel like waiting that long actually so I will try it again later today. Even if I have hard days things are better than how they were in the beginning of the year and I hope next year will treat me better.
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I am almost at the same time off my injections. What was the dosage of your injections? How many injections? Are you able to feel weed and the euphoria it causes?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.

Are you a particularly good athelete and active before invega? Do you have a problem with body heating up excessively during exercise post invega?
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yeah I get those too. I think they are anxiety from invega, although perhaps for some, invega is not the root cause but an exacerbator.

I did work out at least 5 times/week quite consistently before. And no, i didn't have that problem where the body heats up.
 
this sounds cringe but before invega, I had plans to improve my appearance and just look amazing in general, invega has now put these plans on hold

I could have done so much in 9 months-12 months, fuck invega and fuck psychiatry
 
invegaloner said:
The year is almost over and I’m 6.5 months off of the injections, I feel much better than I did when I first got the injections but still have anhedonia; at least I think it’s anhedonia. I think if I didn’t have a job I would be suicidal, when I was in psychosis it caused me to leave my job out of fear and it was the worst I’ve ever felt. I’m able to do my job well and I’m taking better care of myself but I still do miss the euphoria and excitement I used to feel about things. I said I was going to take a week break from weed but I don’t feel like waiting that long actually so I will try it again later today. Even if I have hard days things are better than how they were in the beginning of the year and I hope next year will treat me better.
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Watchout for psychosis from smoking weed. Stay safe.
 
Guys is it normal for me to not feel much difference in just a little over 3.5 months. My akathisia is gone, but I still have the mental agony and anhedonia. I feel pretty much the same as when I was on the injections. Is there any hope for me ?
 
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