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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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cloudflare said:
Thanks for your input. I'm not sure what it is, I'm just grateful that the intense anhedonia and akathisia is no longer. I guess that could be called "recovery" in a sense, or a path to full recovery.

Regarding the symptoms you mentioned, my imagination and cognitive abilities are not yet back to pre-invega level, however they are adequate for day-to-day activities and they are better now than they were 1 month ago. I still experience midday energy crashes from time to time, particularly drowsiness and tiredness, but more so in the mornings. With regards to motivation, some of it came back as soon as anhedonia subsided.

One interesting thing I observe is that I don't have these nostalgic feelings that you and @twinpeaks123 mentioned. I'm not sure why. If anything, at the height of invega side effects, i.e day 1-30, I couldn't even remember who I was pre-invega, how I was, my personality and character,..., which made this period of time particularly difficult. It was as if I was a completely different person and my past didn't matter. But as time went on, some of these memories start to come back and a lot of things started to make sense again.
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The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.

Are you a particularly good athelete and active before invega? Do you have a problem with body heating up excessively during exercise post invega?
 
twinpeaks123 said:
I am also facing extremely painful nostalgia feelings, I think it’s because we miss our lives before the invega
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The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
You can feel weed? Thats a good sign
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Well, it’s not like it used to be, due to consciousness and alterations of perception, when i smoke i don’t like it because it only worsening that wierd feeling, last time i smoked weed (not CBD) was like back in april and i felt the same, so i dont like it..
 
invegaloner said:
The year is almost over and I’m 6.5 months off of the injections, I feel much better than I did when I first got the injections but still have anhedonia; at least I think it’s anhedonia. I think if I didn’t have a job I would be suicidal, when I was in psychosis it caused me to leave my job out of fear and it was the worst I’ve ever felt. I’m able to do my job well and I’m taking better care of myself but I still do miss the euphoria and excitement I used to feel about things. I said I was going to take a week break from weed but I don’t feel like waiting that long actually so I will try it again later today. Even if I have hard days things are better than how they were in the beginning of the year and I hope next year will treat me better.
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I am almost at the same time off my injections. What was the dosage of your injections? How many injections? Are you able to feel weed and the euphoria it causes?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
The nostalgia i am referring to are painful things and sad moments that happened in the past, although i get depressed when i think about my life before invega too.

Are you a particularly good athelete and active before invega? Do you have a problem with body heating up excessively during exercise post invega?
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yeah I get those too. I think they are anxiety from invega, although perhaps for some, invega is not the root cause but an exacerbator.

I did work out at least 5 times/week quite consistently before. And no, i didn't have that problem where the body heats up.
 
this sounds cringe but before invega, I had plans to improve my appearance and just look amazing in general, invega has now put these plans on hold

I could have done so much in 9 months-12 months, fuck invega and fuck psychiatry
 
invegaloner said:
The year is almost over and I’m 6.5 months off of the injections, I feel much better than I did when I first got the injections but still have anhedonia; at least I think it’s anhedonia. I think if I didn’t have a job I would be suicidal, when I was in psychosis it caused me to leave my job out of fear and it was the worst I’ve ever felt. I’m able to do my job well and I’m taking better care of myself but I still do miss the euphoria and excitement I used to feel about things. I said I was going to take a week break from weed but I don’t feel like waiting that long actually so I will try it again later today. Even if I have hard days things are better than how they were in the beginning of the year and I hope next year will treat me better.
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Watchout for psychosis from smoking weed. Stay safe.
 
Guys is it normal for me to not feel much difference in just a little over 3.5 months. My akathisia is gone, but I still have the mental agony and anhedonia. I feel pretty much the same as when I was on the injections. Is there any hope for me ?
 
lukeflowz said:
Guys is it normal for me to not feel much difference in just a little over 3.5 months. My akathisia is gone, but I still have the mental agony and anhedonia. I feel pretty much the same as when I was on the injections. Is there any hope for me ?
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3.5 months is a short time. You aren’t even halfway to the recovery timeframe(generally 8-12 months). Get a job and stay strong.
 
invegaloner said:
I’m on a low dose of rexulti right now which hopefully will prevent psychosis symptoms? Also because of the depression I had pre invega. My therapist/psychatrist wants me on it for a least a year because of how damaging psychosis can be on the brain and I was unknowingly in psychosis for months. I also only got off of invega by chance almost, it’s actually way too hard to get thank you for being ass American health insurance. My therapist agreed to letting me switch meds but they wanted to taper first because of fear of rebound psychosis but I literally couldn’t. Thankfully I’m still in the clear. I know it’s a bad thing that I still smoke and my therapist has been advising against it too but it’s more of a habit at this point unfortunately… i like the act. It’s just a Really boring habit now. It’s just so strange how different the high feels now. It makes me not want to smoke in social settings because I’m not getting high the same way they are anymore.
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I had psychosis and have never had problems with weed or psychedelics for that matter. Even coke never gave me psychosis. But everyone is different i had non drug induced psychosis
 
invegaloner said:
My diagnosis was depression with psychotic features but I don’t really buy it. The first time I smoked it was really intense but I never had visual or audio hallucinations and I was good for over a year smoking, but i guess that’s the risk because you can’t guarantee what will happen. I don’t really remember details bc of the psychosis but I was smoking a lot, I think stress pushed me over. Never done psychedelics but I want to try shrooms to see if I can feel it on invega because I’ve never tried but it’s not accessible to me atm… probably for the best.
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Stress was what caused my psychosis to. That and not sleeping. part of the reason i have no trouble getting z drugs and benzos off my shrink now lol.

I dont remember the psychosis either or most of it anyway. But ya ive taken lots of shrooms sometimes at very high doses and its nothing like psychosis.
 
1 week left before i reach 17 months, still not recovered.. Waking up every morning knowing that the day will be under the alterations due to these injection it’s traumatizing, going on the whole day like that it’s an agony and i can’t exit from this loop, i’am trapped inside these alterations and honestly idk what to do anymore..
 
I came to read a Reddit post where someone says that if you don’t recover in 2 years (24 months) and you report that here into bluelight, then the moderators just ban you, is that true?
 
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