I boofed whole rocks with mxPCP and it made time crawl by in a fun wayOk, so, this seems a lot like ketamine. It is best insufflated (unless you want to deal with needles) and lasts a short time, an hour or so, like a party drug.
That's awesome man I'm glad it was the answer you sought after. I advise mixing this with mxPCP it takes you deeper without being too much and when you come out of it you're feeling amazing for days just don't do it a lot space it out a week at a timeI don't seem to be able to hole on it, at least not without a needle which is something I've never used outside of a medical setting. With that said the state I achieved was at least equally valuable and powerful.
I achieved what I would call a pre-verbal proto-emotional state. Self and perspective was retained but all narrative was lost. The story of self was totally gone. I couldn't move but didn't want to either. I just knew at an intuitive instinctual level what this for and instantly recognized I was a somatic Shaman. I noticed myself speaking words like God, dissolution, I, Am I, God is me, I am God. All is God. The words just came out without any sense of them being in my head and I didn't understand them as words in the typical sense when I heard I only held the proto meaning of them in my body. At some point I started talking in tongues. Soon after that there was unbearable tension in my jaw and stomach and I let out a big gutteral ohm sound that felt like it rocked my body and the entirety of the Earth and acted as great release. It was all at a base level even below emotions like sadness, or happiness, or anger or anything like that.
It was all incredibly dreamy and surreal but also very lucid and vivid even there were not words or narrative or story.
I feel like achieved a great release and completed a somatic arc I've been working on the past few months with psychedelics and integration. This was not actually my intent, my intent was surrender and ego death but this is equally valuable and spiritual in it's own right and I find myself gracious for the insight. Not just is this release but this is recognition and mapping of this space that I can carry with me anywhere.
All IN
T0: 225mg
T1hr 100mg
T2hr 300mg
Oof that was a lot for the nose to take, it took the whole next day before it felt mostly better.
It didn't seem to do much if anything for me when I boofed it (dissolved in water and squirted with an oral syringe). I did a few boofs of a tenth or two each before I gave up and decided to snort someI boofed whole rocks with mxPCP and it made time crawl by in a fun way
I did like 3 grams over the course of almost a week (this was about 2 weeks ago) and I'm still blowing a bit of blood out of my nose. It's not nearly as much as it was a week ago, but it definitely fucked my nose or maybe it helped me get a nasty sinus infection.I don't seem to be able to hole on it, at least not without a needle which is something I've never used outside of a medical setting. With that said the state I achieved was at least equally valuable and powerful.
I achieved what I would call a pre-verbal proto-emotional state. Self and perspective was retained but all narrative was lost. The story of self was totally gone. I couldn't move but didn't want to either. I just knew at an intuitive instinctual level what this for and instantly recognized I was a somatic Shaman. I noticed myself speaking words like God, dissolution, I, Am I, God is me, I am God. All is God. The words just came out without any sense of them being in my head and I didn't understand them as words in the typical sense when I heard I only held the proto meaning of them in my body. At some point I started talking in tongues. Soon after that there was unbearable tension in my jaw and stomach and I let out a big gutteral ohm sound that felt like it rocked my body and the entirety of the Earth and acted as great release. It was all at a base level even below emotions like sadness, or happiness, or anger or anything like that.
It was all incredibly dreamy and surreal but also very lucid and vivid even there were not words or narrative or story.
I feel like achieved a great release and completed a somatic arc I've been working on the past few months with psychedelics and integration. This was not actually my intent, my intent was surrender and ego death but this is equally valuable and spiritual in it's own right and I find myself gracious for the insight. Not just is this release but this is recognition and mapping of this space that I can carry with me anywhere.
All IN
T0: 225mg
T1hr 100mg
T2hr 300mg
Oof that was a lot for the nose to take, it took the whole next day before it felt mostly better.
I find it doesn't hurt much going up the nose, compared to things of any class it's pretty smooth. I do find it can really get kind of gummy and stay around for a while and really leave the nose clogged up and stuffy for some time. It's not hard to imagine how this could lead to sinus infection. MXPCP is a little harsh but nothing compared to pyros, it's not nearly as gummy either, a little saline wash 20 minutes afterwards and I'm mostly fine.I did like 3 grams over the course of almost a week (this was about 2 weeks ago) and I'm still blowing a bit of blood out of my nose. It's not nearly as much as it was a week ago, but it definitely fucked my nose or maybe it helped me get a nasty sinus infection.
I think we just had this conversation on reddit im the dude who got banned from r/dissociativesIt didn't seem to do much if anything for me when I boofed it (dissolved in water and squirted with an oral syringe). I did a few boofs of a tenth or two each before I gave up and decided to snort some
That's weird. 180mg gets me right into a quick awesome hole and then right back to sobriety.I don't seem to be able to hole on it, at least not without a needle which is something I've never used outside of a medical setting. With that said the state I achieved was at least equally valuable and powerful.
I achieved what I would call a pre-verbal proto-emotional state. Self and perspective was retained but all narrative was lost. The story of self was totally gone. I couldn't move but didn't want to either. I just knew at an intuitive instinctual level what this for and instantly recognized I was a somatic Shaman. I noticed myself speaking words like God, dissolution, I, Am I, God is me, I am God. All is God. The words just came out without any sense of them being in my head and I didn't understand them as words in the typical sense when I heard I only held the proto meaning of them in my body. At some point I started talking in tongues. Soon after that there was unbearable tension in my jaw and stomach and I let out a big gutteral ohm sound that felt like it rocked my body and the entirety of the Earth and acted as great release. It was all at a base level even below emotions like sadness, or happiness, or anger or anything like that.
It was all incredibly dreamy and surreal but also very lucid and vivid even there were not words or narrative or story.
I feel like achieved a great release and completed a somatic arc I've been working on the past few months with psychedelics and integration. This was not actually my intent, my intent was surrender and ego death but this is equally valuable and spiritual in it's own right and I find myself gracious for the insight. Not just is this release but this is recognition and mapping of this space that I can carry with me anywhere.
All IN
T0: 225mg
T1hr 100mg
T2hr 300mg
Oof that was a lot for the nose to take, it took the whole next day before it felt mostly better.
That's weird. 180mg gets me right into a quick awesome hole and then right back to sobriety.
Do you have a hive disso tolerance?
I'm not for sure whether I've holed or not beforeAt the time, I'd just call it mild to moderate. I've learned that there's a small percentage of the population that doesn't hole on anything and will actually just black out before holing. I want to try something more ketamine adjacent and test that out. I might also need to IM or IV to do it. Even IN has a pretty gradual come up before the peak which gives my mind time to adjust and prevent ego dissolution. I also have a couple factors that would lead to be less likely to hole including ADHD, strong meta-cognition, and high kinesthetic awareness I'm kind of naturally coordinated and athletic and stay in tune with my body. I know with FXE there were some people who couldn't hole on it who would hole on O-PCE, ketamine, or mxe. For me, this is the only thing I tried to hole on so I'm not totally convinced I'm part of that percentage but those factors would make me more likely to fall there.
Please dont drink isopropanol. No good can come of that. Will only make tomorrow harder. Come on now, put it down. Please?I'm not for sure whether I've holed or not before
I was born being exposed to intravenous methamphetamine and alcohol/benzo use among other things so I'm pretty sure that I have permanent ndma damage and have from birth
Luckily no alcohol fetal syndrome it seems but God damn if it isn't close I feel like all drugs either affect me normally but I have to take more before I realize oof it's all setting in or I simply have a higher tolerance or likewise can tolerate lethal amounts of some things that would hurt other people
Going to rehab tm i am drinking isopropyl. If i live I'll see y'all in the next post we meet if not i love you and i hope you have a good night and do better than i did