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Cocaine doing coke alone

jessepinkman779 said:
Ok. After all of your advice I'm going to try and stop after tonight. I don't know how well it will go. I've ordered modafinil they'll be here Wednesday.
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Hell yea that's awesome to hear! Just being willing to try to be sober is a great first step. Whatever happens, remember to give yourself grace. So what's the plan? You got enough for today, what about tomorrow? Are going for a full sober day or tapering down?
 
jessepinkman779 said:
Firstly excuse me for hijacking a thread I don't know how to create a new thread, or what section to post it in

I'm currently 2 years deep into a serious coke addiction. I'll be honest -i absolutely love it. I feel depressed when I try and go without it and happy/normal when I have it. It's costing me a fortune. I don't really want to stop, but I know I can't go on forever. I've tried cutting down on the amount I have daily, but it just builds back up again. I feel lost and I don't know what to do. I'm not even sure why I'm posting this. I've dabbled with coke for 30 years, but I've been heavily addicted for 2 years. Everyone close to me wants me to stop, but it's the best antidepressant in the world for me.

I should add that I'm also prescribed Espranor 12mg daily for opiate addiction. However, I only take that once ever few days.

Has anyone else ever been in this situation? Are the people close to me right in saying I need to stop coke and I just can't see it because I'm so deep in? Or should I just carry on and be as safe as possible as I always am. You'll all know how more ISH coke is though. I've lost family members because they can't watch me on coke Daly, I've lost friends for the same reason. The way I see it is I'm not hurting anyone or putting anyone else in danger so I don't see people's problem. I just don't know what to do for the best. I live in the UK, I'm 46 years old and otherwise healthy to the best of my knowledge.

Does anyone else live with a coke addiction and not want to stop, but are feeling pressure from friends and family to stop?

Sorry again for hijacking a thread. I have a drug worker but I can't talk to her about this because she will just have me thrown in rehab.
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I had a pub friend who moved up from England years ago and he was the funniest guy ever ,in the pub every night but only for 2 pints after his dinner.i put cameras all round his property which was a bit strange as its a small village ,he was an ex coke addict who had to move due to debts ,he basicly moved the whole length of the country .he never touched a drop of coke for a whole year then he actively sought it out.ive never seen someone go downhill so fast ,ended up in a mental hospital cos he was in some strangers garden with a pair of scissors at 3 in the morning. He died about 5 years later at 48 years old .I'll have the odd line when I'm out which is about twice a year apart from that I think it's the most overrated drug ever.i instantly know if someone's on coke you just can't hide it even though your trying really hard .I hope you stop I honestly think opioide addiction is far less harmfull as there's medication avalible for people to live an almost normal life.is there a substitute for heavy cocaine addiction via the NHS and if there is does it work? .sorry don't mean to sound so sombre I wish you all the best
 
ageingpartyfiend said:
Not really.

Some people use dexamphetamnibe etc to get dopa tickled, but really with coke the best way is to just....stop!
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I've just never seen the attraction to coke.once you've had a few pints and your out or at a house party maybe but I feel like shit for at least 2 days after .also I've had many a house party when it's just 2 or 3 of you doing lines and it gets to the point your tired and really just want to get away from the people you've been speaking shite to for 5 hours lol
 
WellTram said:
U are addicted to cocaine, compound so bad for your body that not even official medicine found it usefull.
They rather developed other, longer lasting stims acting by same mechanism. Insanely expensive and psychologycaly very dissapointing drug ( if u can compare to your experience with other stimulant cocaine is something i definitely won't choose. Crack cocaine is even more damaging and without any usefulnes for anything. ) But i accept it, u love cocaine so take it for everything u want. Even much more potent stimulants won't steal your health and money as perfectly as cocaine will and if u won't stop or won't find better alternative u will loose everything. Your mind included. Mind, health, money, home...I provided solutions for example other drugs possibly presenting better substitutions. I told you about them and ok, do what u want and take cocaine for rest of your life because it's fun and u love it. I will take other stimulating substances, mood and motivation boosting meds, including energy boosting atypical opioid with prominent monoaminergic effects which are responsible for 70 % of the effects of this opioid. Much better for health taking combination of caffeine, modafinil and/or stimulating opioid + congnitive performance improving antidepressive and also some benzos for calming down if i overstinulate my body and mind.
Good luck i hope u will be fine and able to enjoy cocaine for a long, long time.
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That's exactly what happened to my friend ,his mind went ,I remember being in the car with him once and he kept looking round to the empty back seat whilst driving thinking there was someone thereit wasn't cos he was blasting coke that day just an accumulation of daily use
 
Passable_rock said:
Hell yea that's awesome to hear! Just being willing to try to be sober is a great first step. Whatever happens, remember to give yourself grace. So what's the plan? You got enough for today, what about tomorrow? Are going for a full sober day or tapering down?
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I've got enough to last tonight. I'm going full sober tomorrow. I'm dreading it but I'm going to try.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
I've got enough to last tonight. I'm going full sober tomorrow. I'm dreading it but I'm going to try.
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Best of luck! Replacing a drug with another one is not always the way to go but it can help greatly, do you have something to take the edge off? Like kratom or cannabis maybe? kratom can have an energetic opioid like high, it's pretty fun I like it alot. It can be useful to quit harder addictions, I'd recommend it if it's available to you.
 
Passable_rock said:
Best of luck! Replacing a drug with another one is not always the way to go but it can help greatly, do you have something to take the edge off? Like kratom or cannabis maybe? kratom can have an energetic opioid like high, it's pretty fun I like it alot. It can be useful to quit harder addictions, I'd recommend it if it's available to you.
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I've got weed, diazepam and I can source the other one. Technically it will be Wednesday when I quit because I've got enough coke here to last until about 3am. I can't thank you all enough for just talking to me like a human being and giving me me such good advice. I've also got my Espranor that will take the edge off. I can get hold of morphine if the cravings get really bad,but I'm not sure that's a good idea. Although short term it might help. Tolerance is a bitch though. And the morphine is only sulphate 10mg tablets £40 for a box of 56 off a friend of a friend. friend. Better than coke I suppose.
 
Ah well it shouldn't too hard then yea? The diazepam will be handy for sure, just be careful not to over do it ok? I'd stay away from the morphine if I was you, would you get a nice enough high since you're on buprenorphine? I thought I was supposed to make one pretty much unable to get pleasurable effects from regular opioids.
 
Passable_rock said:
Ah well it shouldn't too hard then yea? The diazepam will be handy for sure, just be careful not to over do it ok? I'd stay away from the morphine if I was you, would you get a nice enough high since you're on buprenorphine? I thought I was supposed to make one pretty much unable to get pleasurable effects from regular opioids.
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If I stay off my Espranor for 4 days and take a breakthrough dose of morphine I feel pretty good. Although it has been a while
 
jessepinkman779 said:
If I stay off my Espranor for 4 days and take a breakthrough dose of morphine I feel pretty good. Although it has been a while
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What's a breakthrough dose for you in this situation? I've never been on one of those you take for opioids addiction like methadone, bupe etc. I hope I never have to use them lol.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
I bought a baller. I did 3 days off it last week but I was depressed
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you will be low mood for a few days for sure after stopping, but it's possible to ride it out and it doesn't last that long

one of the best things I did when my resolve failed on 2 or 3 occasions was to flush the drugs - It felt awful for about an hour but then I felt much, much better as I realised that I'd have felt shit a few hours into the session anyway and then for a day or two afterwards too. And a really big part of me did not want to take the coke anyway, just the fiendish addicted part.

Now I know that sounds like a waste of money, and it was in a way. But it's not as much of a waste of money as taking a toxic drug and then feeling shit for ages after doing so. So in that way was the better choice.

It's not gonna be a pain-free process mate, but it will be a LOT less painful than carrying on - 100% definitely. Best wishes
 
ageingpartyfiend said:
you will be low mood for a few days for sure after stopping, but it's possible to ride it out and it doesn't last that long

one of the best things I did when my resolve failed on 2 or 3 occasions was to flush the drugs - It felt awful for about an hour but then I felt much, much better as I realised that I'd have felt shit a few hours into the session anyway and then for a day or two afterwards too. And a really big part of me did not want to take the coke anyway, just the fiendish addicted part.

Now I know that sounds like a waste of money, and it was in a way. But it's not as much of a waste of money as taking a toxic drug and then feeling shit for ages after doing so. So in that way was the better choice.

It's not gonna be a pain-free process mate, but it will be a LOT less painful than carrying on - 100% definitely. Best wishes
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Thank you.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
I bought a baller. I did 3 days off it last week but I was depressed
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and how long does that last you? 3 days is great and I agree with what the other said; quitting a drug is always gonna be boring and depressing at first. I'm slowly learning how to get bored again myself, it sucks lol but I feel like it's gonna be a rewarding process.
 
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