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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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rawbanana said:
This drug has taken more than my mind. It’s taken opportunity and passion away from me. My point of view is gone. I don’t care about anything anymore.

Even if I recover, what do I even want from life? I’m 28 years old and I have no money and no degree. I have parents who I hate and no friends.
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Lol@28 .... 28 is very young, people turn their lives around in their 40s and 50s regularly. By the way, invega emphasizes all the bad in your life from present and past. Before invega i was very hopeful and full of life, i knew i could turn my life around. After being on invega, the fact tgat i blew my career opportunity, and lost the girl i loved and the people who wronged me or became many times magnified than they were before invega. Invega somehow kills the area of the brain or chemicals tbat cause positivity. Depression, agitation gets magnified. Right now its your brain fooling you. If you recover, the rest of your life willcome easily. I am in my 40s and i was certain before invega that i would thrive. If i become the person i was before invega again than the rest will be easy but i dont know if i ever will and thats what im worried about.

I also have serious financial problems and the fear that i might not be able to continue working with invega and have no way to survive is causing severe stress, again invega maginfies every stress you have.
 
I was at a wedding today and I felt so out of place.
I would pause in conversations and I couldn’t coherently articulate myself and felt embarrassed. I hope I find some alleviation to the suffering I feel now. It’s too hard at the moment. Invega has successfully turned me into a vegetable and I don’t know if I’m going to make it through this. This sucks man.
Hopefully as the months go on I’ll find things easier. This blank mind and akathisia is hard to deal with.
 
lukeflowz said:
I was at a wedding today and I felt so out of place.
I would pause in conversations and I couldn’t coherently articulate myself and felt embarrassed. I hope I find some alleviation to the suffering I feel now. It’s too hard at the moment. Invega has successfully turned me into a vegetable and I don’t know if I’m going to make it through this. This sucks man.
Hopefully as the months go on I’ll find things easier. This blank mind and akathisia is hard to deal with.
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Glad you got out and did something. No matter how it feels the worst possible thing we can do while recovering from Invega is sit around and let time and the world pass us by aimlessly as everything else continues on.
 
rawbanana said:
This drug has taken more than my mind. It’s taken opportunity and passion away from me. My point of view is gone. I don’t care about anything anymore.

Even if I recover, what do I even want from life? I’m 28 years old and I have no money and no degree. I have parents who I hate and no friends.
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You sound like me, same.
 
I miss being happy. Been very depressed recently. I hate these damn “medications”. My brain feels like mush.
 
Abilify2mg said:
I forgot what true happiness is even like . Im not terribly depressed but have severe anhedonia and life has no spark . I pray i heal sooner from this
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It’s hard to find the will to live right now. I’m not suicidal but I sleep all day as long as I can to escape the misery.
 
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Went to a water park yesterday and found myself laughing and having a good time while I was going down the slides, it was awesome especially considering I’m feeling pretty crap mending from the flu. 5 months since my last injection now, in the earlier months I was wondering if recovery is possible but I’m wholeheartedly believing it now. Stay strong you lot… it’s only a matter of time!! don’t forget to look after yourself, make healthy choices and push yourself to do things, even if it’s just a brisk walk.
 
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@Trueart2 Yeah sure I would listen to your songs even if I cant feel them 😞🙁 which is a bit miserable
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lukeflowz said:
I was at a wedding today and I felt so out of place.
I would pause in conversations and I couldn’t coherently articulate myself and felt embarrassed. I hope I find some alleviation to the suffering I feel now. It’s too hard at the moment. Invega has successfully turned me into a vegetable and I don’t know if I’m going to make it through this. This sucks man.
Hopefully as the months go on I’ll find things easier. This blank mind and akathisia is hard to deal with.
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I went to a wedding about a month ago and felt the exact same way. You can’t really maintain conversations anymore. It’s actually so sad. I’m miserable
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Lol@28 .... 28 is very young, people turn their lives around in their 40s and 50s regularly. By the way, invega emphasizes all the bad in your life from present and past. Before invega i was very hopeful and full of life, i knew i could turn my life around. After being on invega, the fact tgat i blew my career opportunity, and lost the girl i loved and the people who wronged me or became many times magnified than they were before invega. Invega somehow kills the area of the brain or chemicals tbat cause positivity. Depression, agitation gets magnified. Right now its your brain fooling you. If you recover, the rest of your life willcome easily. I am in my 40s and i was certain before invega that i would thrive. If i become the person i was before invega again than the rest will be easy but i dont know if i ever will and thats what im worried about.

I also have serious financial problems and the fear that i might not be able to continue working with invega and have no way to survive is causing severe stress, again invega maginfies every stress you have.
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The way I look at it you were able to live 40+ years without being damaged by this drug. I had 28. It’ll never really be the same again.

Yeah I agree about everything bad being magnified. It’s true. It’s hard to feel like life is even worth it anymore.
 
We need to do something about this. Waiting is dangerous,look at what happened to brokenself. Is anybody going to the hospital? Risperdalconsta maybe you need to bring more witnesses to the research place. Maybe you need to go to another doctor, maybe you need evidence from another and go back with that evidence. The research guy mentioned something about neurons changing expressions, this thing might be more complicated than we thought.
 
Matthew01 said:
We need to do something about this. Waiting is dangerous,look at what happened to brokenself. Is anybody going to the hospital? Risperdalconsta maybe you need to bring more witnesses to the research place. Maybe you need to go to another doctor, maybe you need evidence from another and go back with that evidence. The research guy mentioned something about neurons changing expressions, this thing might be more complicated than we thought.
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You think one person is going to magically fix the system?

They come up with excuses because they do not care. They don’t want to acknowledge what they’ve done to us. We are on our own. There is no magic answer or some solution to this. All you can do is just live and hope it gets better.
 
Again you are saying it will never be the same again but you have not recovered yet so you dont know. Get checked how much of the drug is left in your body. Younger person has a better chance of recovery than older. My life it seems has come to an end, i may have to commit suicide.

I think you must stay positive, stress can hinder your recovery.

Did you speak to anyone whos running and athletic ability did not come back after recovery?
 
I think I’ve heard of some people who recovered their athletic ability after one shot or so.

You are only 3-4 months into recovery. It always feels hopeless at that point. You will feel better by December. And then you will feel motivated again. Two shots is nothing and you got the lowest doses.
 
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