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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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RisperdalConsta50mg said:
B-complex, D3, omega 3. But don’t think supplements can help to heal brain damage, this is the most stupid thing I ever heared in my life, I already did month of supplements cycle in the past but nothing have improved.

We are so desperate that we think some vitamins can help with brain damage caused by psychiatric powerful (the most powerful) drug. If I was not brain damaged and suffering i would laugh the shit out of them by reading people so desperate to heal from brain damage by taking multivitamins.
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Supplements are important pieces of the puzzle for recovery, according to the Invega Documentary. While we don’t understand the true extent/degree of help supplements may play. They still are overwhelmingly helpful
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I was fine, i was normal.. Now I’m a retarded with ring in the ears h24 who can’t function and i’m like derealized but more than that since my receptors changed expression..

I was fine, i was healty and i was normal, i had to take all this damage for what? Is this the price i had to pay in order to left the psych ward and come back home? My life was the price?

Plus sexual disfunction, i can’t even play videogames anymore because i can’t concentrate and i can’t remember a shit, all of that just in order to left the psych ward?

I can’t process what I’m going trough because i was literally a normal dude, what the hell they did to me? And why? Was that necessary?
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Ugh, I also took it to go home. What a sick policy. There are tons of people who are desperate to leave the psych ward and some of them aren't even psychotic anymore, or being in the hospital mad their paranoia worse. It shouldn't be a get-out-of-jail card.
 
Wanted to give a positive update. I'm about 12 months off. And am beginning to feel like I'm returning back to a life I used to live. I felt pretty good on Invega after about 6 months. The problem was I had a brain burn sensation up until around 10 1/2 months where I recognized I was having trouble peeing. Turns out I had a UTI which I took antibiotics for, and I'm almost certain the inflammation was from the UTI because it has been healing ever since I took them. So, get checked for a UTI if you have any urinary symptoms. It even could be silent which mine was for the most part.

Overall, I feel like life is returning and I'm perceiving many new things. You can trust your brain to heal as well as your body to get rid of whatever chemical is in it after a certain amount of time. I have deep emotions, basically no anhedonia, no insomnia, no akathisia, no anxiety, chest pain and nerve pain are no longer a problem. Some symptoms I thought would never change, but I had hope in the back of mind. Some of this hope was from logical reasoning because of this site showing most people recover. I checked through every forum, it felt sort of like a rollercoaster. But I felt it was necessary to look through these because this is my body and my life. I researched and found a high enough percentage recovered to confirm to me that most of my worry was anxiety induced and from symptoms like anhedonia and blunting.

There were moments where I felt hopeless, but that only made me more grateful for the moments I had hope and faith. Maybe some of you experience hope in small amounts. I was very grateful for this hope as well as many other things. I tried to practice gratefulness for what I had.
A routine is what kept me well adjusted, I would go out to restaurants with my family and eat a dessert almost all the time the first couple months because it was the only thing I could feel some dopamine. (I took this as, a cheat code that gives you something. It won't be perfect but it is something. Does a shower give you that, a sauna, a snack, crying, etc.) I would take walks almost every day.

I want to let you know if you have a hatred or bitterness, it will turn around. I had moments that because of the amount of pain I was in I could not stop going back to hatred. I had envy for others and felt like I would rather be born as anyone else at some points. I hated my parents. I hated my doctors. I knew I hated that I hated them, because I wanted to love them. It was difficult. And I do feel like acceptance and forgiving was a journey. I'm not perfect at it, but I love my parents. My mom showed me lots of caring along this journey, but I noticed it was hard for her with the amount of constant struggle I was going through. If you need support, splitting it between different people can be good because it is important you get this support.

You also may not be treated with the most respect you think you deserve. Everyone is living their own life, and be grateful for the people who do listen and do care. They are very important. They showed me something special about human nature. I did not feel like I was getting enough for my situation though. There was a lot of struggle and sometimes nothing pulled me out of the struggle. I made it through and so can you.

What I will say is that I felt I had over 20-30+ symptoms that all went away. If you have a symptom and think it won't go away it will.

I also gained hope and faith from god and wrote something to identify my struggle and others.
  1. Maybe there is a god that sees your struggle. He has you struggle now to make you better in some other time. I believe your struggle isn't for nothing. Honestly. I experienced too much in my past to give up on god. I experienced miracles in my past. I cannot just forget. It is like we have experienced such a low, but we have experienced such highs in our lives. It is possible for us to feel those highs for some reason. Even if we do become low. The highs become deluded and turned into something we might not remember. But we know that they happened. Somehow they happened. And that is a miracle. That in our past we experienced these highs. Maybe out of that we can pull some faith into a god. We got to live in a life with these highs even if it is temporary. That is a miracle in itself. He could fix anything if he wanted. He has plans for you and me possibly. All one big mystery. Humans, Earth, The Universe. Formed out of nothing.
Feel free to message me anytime.





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3 injections. Invega Sustenna. 234 mg + 156 mg + 117 mg.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Yeah but in the past i switched car and i used automatic for like years then go back to manual and never had problems because it’s like learning how to go with bike as a child, you never forgot, the same is driving a car.


This is brain damage, not some sort of “ i dint drive manual for a while so it’s normal i lose it a little bit”.

I drive that car For years and years and today i cannot remember how to set te ligh on, how to turn on the air and how to switch gears. This is never happened to me even with liters of alchool or 10 joints. This is literally brain damage, loss of brain function like memory and cognition, this is literally damaging the brain.
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It's not brain damage, you're just chemically screwed up right now. If it was permanent brain damage, no one would recover and we would be like lobotomy victims.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Ugh, I also took it to go home. What a sick policy. There are tons of people who are desperate to leave the psych ward and some of them aren't even psychotic anymore, or being in the hospital mad their paranoia worse. It shouldn't be a get-out-of-jail card.
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Count me in also, I had to take it to be able to be discharged. Its like they already know how strong the injection is.
 
InvegaInferno said:
How come? not even friends? elaborate more please.
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No girlfriend, no friends, no family support. Yes maybe they help me with logistic like going into appointment because i cannot drive by myself long distance but they don’t do more than that, sometimes they dont even do that like for the vet because of my cat or some other things.

My mother developed dissociative behaviour and she asked more hours at work so she dont have to think about me, his boyfriend is a piece of shit that I’m sure he is happy that i’am in this pain. He is really abusive and psychological tyrant but wait until i recover and i get back in shape and strenght, i will break his face i will beat the shit out of him
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
No girlfriend, no friends, no family support. Yes maybe they help me with logistic like going into appointment because i cannot drive by myself long distance but they don’t do more than that, sometimes they dont even do that like for the vet because of my cat or some other things.

My mother developed dissociative behaviour and she asked more hours at work so she dont have to think about me, his boyfriend is a piece of shit that I’m sure he is happy that i’am in this pain. He is really abusive and psychological tyrant but wait until i recover and i get back in shape and strenght, i will break his face i will beat the shit out of him
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You know the real face of people around you when you don’t have anymore defense, when this came, They Will show you Who they really are.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Ugh, I also took it to go home. What a sick policy. There are tons of people who are desperate to leave the psych ward and some of them aren't even psychotic anymore, or being in the hospital mad their paranoia worse. It shouldn't be a get-out-of-jail card.
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heyy how are u now
 
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