Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

[Deleted member 592205]

oh my bad I have misread probably.

Is not your fault, is the result of antipsychotic damage, today i was not able to start a manual car (i drive manual for almost the time before risperidone) and i forgot how to switch gears and how to use that car even if it’s the first car i had and the car who i got the license with, so i drive a lot with that car.

They blasted our brain and now we are retarded, you ever seen in your life those people who are pretty similar with down syndrome? We are like them now. Almost like them.

 

[InvegaInferno]

Yeah like I spent over 1’000$ in supplements during these 14 months, i taked The Sun so much that I become like Obama and i got so much walking and gym before i broke my ankle that i had to fully recover like 7 months ago but nothing has improved, now i can’t walk proprely because my ankle hurt so let alone hit the gym or doing long walks, my body is not healing because i cannot deep sleep.

After 14 months you lose any hope trust me, you stop to do all these things, plus with a broken ankle i can only sit down but then tinnitus make me impossible to disctract over things so I’m here under siege h24 7/7 i cannot even escape into sleep because i lost the ability to fall asleep.

I can only imagine what 14 months is like...I mean Im 3 months off and still find it hard. But still hold on you don't have any other option, I've spoken to someone who's recovered after 2 years and she had only 2 injections. I wonder how they cope..but still its hard to believe that the body doesn't heal all this time especially in your case where you had only one injection cause the body renews cells and recycles so how come.

 

[InvegaInferno]

Is not your fault, is the result of antipsychotic damage, today i was not able to start a manual car (i drive manual for almost the time before risperidone) and i forgot how to switch gears and how to use that car even if it’s the first car i had and the car who i got the license with, so i drive a lot with that car.

They blasted our brain and now we are retarded, you ever seen in your life those people who are pretty similar with down syndrome? We are like them now. Almost like them.

Maybe try again and practice more, I mean I understand you've forgot how to drive but why can't you regain or relearn again I don't know man, It sucks but try, was this your first time in a while?

 

[Deleted member 592205]

Maybe try again and practice more, I mean I understand you've forgot how to drive but why can't you regain or relearn again I don't know man, It sucks but try, was this your first time in a while?

Yeah but in the past i switched car and i used automatic for like years then go back to manual and never had problems because it’s like learning how to go with bike as a child, you never forgot, the same is driving a car.


This is brain damage, not some sort of “ i dint drive manual for a while so it’s normal i lose it a little bit”.

I drive that car For years and years and today i cannot remember how to set te ligh on, how to turn on the air and how to switch gears. This is never happened to me even with liters of alchool or 10 joints. This is literally brain damage, loss of brain function like memory and cognition, this is literally damaging the brain.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

Yeah but in the past i switched car and i used automatic for like years then go back to manual and never had problems because it’s like learning how to go with bike as a child, you never forgot, the same is driving a car.


This is brain damage, not some sort of “ i dint drive manual for a while so it’s normal i lose it a little bit”.

I drive that car For years and years and today i cannot remember how to set te ligh on, how to turn on the air and how to switch gears. This is never happened to me even with liters of alchool or 10 joints. This is literally brain damage, loss of brain function like memory and cognition, this is literally damaging the brain.

If we are in our “comfort” zone for a while maybe we can think we are recovering but is just being used to copy with sympthoms and the loss, you will realize that immediately when you try to do something new or something old you did before, then you Will realize how much your brain is blasted and How much recovery was just an illusion.

 

[rawbanana]

I really don’t want to live like this anymore

 

[InvegaInferno]

Yeah but in the past i switched car and i used automatic for like years then go back to manual and never had problems because it’s like learning how to go with bike as a child, you never forgot, the same is driving a car.


This is brain damage, not some sort of “ i dint drive manual for a while so it’s normal i lose it a little bit”.

I drive that car For years and years and today i cannot remember how to set te ligh on, how to turn on the air and how to switch gears. This is never happened to me even with liters of alchool or 10 joints. This is literally brain damage, loss of brain function like memory and cognition, this is literally damaging the brain.

I get you, I mean to say you haven't drove since you were injected maybe if you try to relearn with that you can pass the time also.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I really don’t want to live like this anymore

There is no way to accept that we got damaged in our cognition and sexual plus others aspect of our life, i mean, if we got ribes and shot in the head and survived, or we had a car accident you know is more acceptable because things happen in life, but it’s not acceptable that doctors did this to us, and in my case i don’t even was psychotic they just basically did that “we know you want to go back home, but we have to perma-damage your brain before we let you go, so you won’t never forget about us and you life will be ruined and you will live
The rest of your life in misery. We can do that and we want to do that to you because destroying people’s brain make us so horny and our dick became so alive that we masturbate while we think of how we damaged people’s brain”.

 

[InvegaInferno]

If we are in our “comfort” zone for a while maybe we can think we are recovering but is just being used to copy with sympthoms and the loss, you will realize that immediately when you try to do something new or something old you did before, then you Will realize how much your brain is blasted and How much recovery was just an illusion.

Maybe so, maybe no, they say time heals lol, they also say time will tell.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I get you, I mean to say you haven't drove since you were injected maybe if you try to relearn with that you can pass the time also.

I drive the whole time i Just switched car, then i realized how much I’m blasted after 14 months, recovery is an illusion, it’s only a matter of being used to copy with sympthoms until the point you tell yourself you are healed but the reality is that you get used to live with the life they ruined to you

 

[InvegaInferno]

I drive the whole time i Just switched car, then i realized how much I’m blasted after 14 months, recovery is an illusion, it’s only a matter of being used to copy with sympthoms until the point you tell yourself you are healed but the reality is that you get used to live with the life they ruined to you

You still have your appointment with your doctor's, don't give up on recovery yet. Remember other people's stories those with a similar timeline like yours, I don't think anyone would fake their own happiness on an anonymous page, what will they gain from pretending.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I drive the whole time i Just switched car, then i realized how much I’m blasted after 14 months, recovery is an illusion, it’s only a matter of being used to copy with sympthoms until the point you tell yourself you are healed but the reality is that you get used to live with the life they ruined to you

We have to face the reality, we cannot pretend that some kind of damage like the one we are enduring just disappear after 2 years out of nowhere, if some sort of pain or loss of function dont heal in some weeks, some months you have to accept that is permanent damage/ loss. There is nothing in the body that stop work properly for like 18/24 months then out of nowhere start to work again like before, we are not stupid and we should know that. We are just sto desperate to belive that one day after some years we get our brain back, but there is no recovery, recovery is “I’m adapted to the loss i had and now i can live my life without the thing i had before” this is what they mean with recovery

 

[Deleted member 592205]

We have to face the reality, we cannot pretend that some kind of damage like the one we are enduring just disappear after 2 years out of nowhere, if some sort of pain or loss of function dont heal in some weeks, some months you have to accept that is permanent damage/ loss. There is nothing in the body that stop work properly for like 18/24 months then out of nowhere start to work again like before, we are not stupid and we should know that. We are just sto desperate to belive that one day after some years we get our brain back, but there is no recovery, recovery is “I’m adapted to the loss i had and now i can live my life without the thing i had before” this is what they mean with recovery

Recycling of receptors time is 30-45 days so if we are not healed in this time there is some damage, the more the time pass the less this damage can heal. Let alone 14 months, even a donkey or a monkey know that 14 months with loss of function equal permanent damage.

We just are desperate and we hope that all came back like before but nobody can just accept their life pre-antipsychotic is gone.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

We are just desperate, ruined and desperate, just look at us, look at me, if someone have pity on me would just shot me in the head to stop my pain and suffering.

They don’t tell us (the doctors) that we have permanent brain damage because if they did they know exactly that we Will suicide.

 

[rawbanana]

There is no way to accept that we got damaged in our cognition and sexual plus others aspect of our life, i mean, if we got ribes and shot in the head and survived, or we had a car accident you know is more acceptable because things happen in life, but it’s not acceptable that doctors did this to us, and in my case i don’t even was psychotic they just basically did that “we know you want to go back home, but we have to perma-damage your brain before we let you go, so you won’t never forget about us and you life will be ruined and you will live
The rest of your life in misery. We can do that and we want to do that to you because destroying people’s brain make us so horny and our dick became so alive that we masturbate while we think of how we damaged people’s brain”.

And no one understands it’s so lonely. I want to be done

 

[Matthew01]

Christ,the medication that was helping me sleep a little has finished, it was for something else,what do I do now.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

In the past they did lobotomy by damaging the brain from the outside, now they can do it by the inside with injections.

I remind you that at the beginning the big pharma advertising their injection as “chemical lobotomy” and this is because like a old lobotomy cause permanent brain damage.

Just use what is left of your brain and think about that for a second: we got injected, we lost brain function, time ha passed, like months, for some even more than a year and we are not recovered.

There is no sense in hoping for a miracle after 2 years, the same thing is if we had surgery and they damage our nerve and we loss the function of one arm or one leg, and after 14 months we are here hoping that one day because of a miracle we start to walk again and to use both arm again.


This is so stupid and desperate. This is very cringe, for real.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I never heared about a ankle fracture that is not healed after 7 months, not even a full broken bone take so long to heal, this is a clear sign that our basic function is lost, the body don’t recover anymore let alone the brain.

Now i go to sleep aka not being able to sleep with continuous awakenings with a very very soft semi-sleep. Tomorrow will be the same as today, the day after the same, and like that for the next week, the next month, the next year.

Until a day I’m just used to the loss and i start to feel my situation as if its normal, like forgetting what really mean normal. Then That day i will scream “I’m recovered thanks to god” but the fact is that I’m just get used to the loss and this don’t hurt me anymore, maybe i won’t even notice it anymore because after a while we just forgot of things were before.

Good night all.

 

[rawbanana]

I need a way out of this hell

 

[InvegaInferno]

I never heared about a ankle fracture that is not healed after 7 months, not even a full broken bone take so long to heal, this is a clear sign that our basic function is lost, the body don’t recover anymore let alone the brain.

Now i go to sleep aka not being able to sleep with continuous awakenings with a very very soft semi-sleep. Tomorrow will be the same as today, the day after the same, and like that for the next week, the next month, the next year.

Until a day I’m just used to the loss and i start to feel my situation as if its normal, like forgetting what really mean normal. Then That day i will scream “I’m recovered thanks to god” but the fact is that I’m just get used to the loss and this don’t hurt me anymore, maybe i won’t even notice it anymore because after a while we just forgot of things were before.

Good night all.

Being able to forget is being able not to feel the pain anymore of whatever you're dealing with. I don't think anyone can forget what kind of pain invega has caused which is the loss of your usual normal self, your soul. You'll be yearning to feel like yourself all over again until then you can say that you've healed when you feel like you, so I still hold on to my opinion and not to downplay anyones story or what they've dealt with or overcome. Everyones body is different, some take more time than others with less injections and some take more injections with less time to recover.. and some who haven't recovered.. I hope and pray that we all do.
ps. I like your pfp.

Goodnight.