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TheHolyRedCow

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hi.

so my parents found out some ketamine and amohetamine i used as comfort meds going through my withdrawals.

i dont need them anymore since I went to a psychstrist and i have 1 x 300mg pregabalin 2 x 10 diazepam, 3 x 0.15mg clonidine and 200mg seroquel for sleep.
I was also prescribed cipralex but dont take it.

Now this is the best i have been in the last 3 years but for them was a shock. I told them the truth about my opioid addiction but still, first it was hard for them to believe me, second, how would be best for them or me to deal with this situation. They love me very much but they come from a completely different world then me and they were raised different.
I was an addict since around 13 years old and used substances recreationally almost my entire life but i only really had issues with weed for around 10 years and opiods for around 3 years.

And another question, how can i study on this medication? I cant get pharmaceutical grade amphetamine since i wasnt diagnosed with adhd before turning 18(i know stupid law)

i also take the following supplements: Tyrosine, lions mane, B complex, ginger root, ashwwaganda, coenzima Q10, omega 3, rhodiola(3%rosavins, 1% salidrosides), vitamin C. All this during the day.
To be honest I think speed willl help me a lot with studying on this medication but if it s not prescribed by doctors they wont approve.

so: Fanily members are hurt, confused and anger since they dont understand that addiction is a disease and honestly what they found out were only comfort meds in the latter stages of my recovery but it doesnt matter to them. How to approach the situation and how to make them basically not be hurt but supportive

2) How to be able to study complex things on this medication(still going through withdrawals at the moment)

3) How can i change their state of mind/behaviour(which is conpletly justified but it pushes me towards relapsing)

I understand is hard for them to realise their soon was dependent on substances for most of his life and that he ll be an addicted all life. I am going to SMART meeting though
 
IME, my family all "got with the program" (becoming educated on addiction, understanding that my first trip to rehab wasn't going to cure me, etc)... at different times, and for different reasons. If you're still going through WD right now, I'd give yourself some type of break with the studies and worrying about what anyone thinks right now- family or not. If you're trying to get clean and stay clean you need to be somewhat selfish right now more than ever.

You can repair things so much easily when youre feeling good, and living clean for real. Trying to patch everything at once while still going through it not only puts more stress on you (lessening your long term goals) and IME, is a wasted effort. Time clean and void of BS from addiction says a lot more then you can, right now at least.

Just my two cents based on my experience alone. Just keep on going.
 
TheHolyRedCow said:
hi.

so my parents found out some ketamine and amohetamine i used as comfort meds going through my withdrawals.

i dont need them anymore since I went to a psychstrist and i have 1 x 300mg pregabalin 2 x 10 diazepam, 3 x 0.15mg clonidine and 200mg seroquel for sleep.
I was also prescribed cipralex but dont take it.

Now this is the best i have been in the last 3 years but for them was a shock. I told them the truth about my opioid addiction but still, first it was hard for them to believe me, second, how would be best for them or me to deal with this situation. They love me very much but they come from a completely different world then me and they were raised different.
I was an addict since around 13 years old and used substances recreationally almost my entire life but i only really had issues with weed for around 10 years and opiods for around 3 years.

And another question, how can i study on this medication? I cant get pharmaceutical grade amphetamine since i wasnt diagnosed with adhd before turning 18(i know stupid law)

i also take the following supplements: Tyrosine, lions mane, B complex, ginger root, ashwwaganda, coenzima Q10, omega 3, rhodiola(3%rosavins, 1% salidrosides), vitamin C. All this during the day.
To be honest I think speed willl help me a lot with studying on this medication but if it s not prescribed by doctors they wont approve.

so: Fanily members are hurt, confused and anger since they dont understand that addiction is a disease and honestly what they found out were only comfort meds in the latter stages of my recovery but it doesnt matter to them. How to approach the situation and how to make them basically not be hurt but supportive

2) How to be able to study complex things on this medication(still going through withdrawals at the moment)

3) How can i change their state of mind/behaviour(which is conpletly justified but it pushes me towards relapsing)

I understand is hard for them to realise their soon was dependent on substances for most of his life and that he ll be an addicted all life. I am going to SMART meeting though
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As for studying complex things are you talking about high school or something? Or is it something you can put off for a while? :)
 
thatmf said:
As for studying complex things are you talking about high school or something? Or is it something you can put off for a while? :)
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i am a subject matter expert in cybersecurity amd currently a team lead for a team of 5 people responsible for designing the monitoring solution for 19M users
 
thatmf said:
As for studying complex things are you talking about high school or something? Or is it something you can put off for a while? :)
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curreently i study for 2 more certifications in my field and i dont wanna put them on hold.
Well technically i am not a team lead anymore. After the company was bought, they fired 1000 employees and closed 40 departments to artifically increase profits. My work union took them to court and i got 3 months of salary without any work and now since from 1 seltember i am unemployed i get 75% from the state and 30% from the work union. So i am free all day practically but i hate it. I love working, i love. solving complex matters it s like a hobby to me so i really eeally want to be able to study
 
TheHolyRedCow said:
curreently i study for 2 more certifications in my field and i dont wanna put them on hold.
Well technically i am not a team lead anymore. After the company was bought, they fired 1000 employees and closed 40 departments to artifically increase profits. My work union took them to court and i got 3 months of salary without any work and now since from 1 seltember i am unemployed i get 75% from the state and 30% from the work union. So i am free all day practically but i hate it. I love working, i love. solving complex matters it s like a hobby to me so i really eeally want to be able to study
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Sounds like a good time to get clean if ever. Chances like this where you're actually free of work for a few weeks don't come often.
 
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