sadmachine
Bluelighter
0 tolerance, only used 2-3 times in my life.
I dropped 10mg and for the first hour I felt all the typical benefits I was looking for but after that it's just swings and roundabouts. I took another 10mg one hour in when I felt it suddenly just falling off. One minute I want to talk everyone's heads off and listen deeply, the next I feel like a cold emotionless robot. One minute my libido skyrockets and I'm suddenly really horny for my partner, the next 0 libido. I suddenly feel angry/frustrated for 5 mins and then I don't. I never experienced this in my weekend warrior meth days (15 years ago) it was always heaven followed hell.
I had plans to get a lot of work done but now 2 hours and 20mg in I'm not getting the effects I'd hoped for. I wasn't really looking for the euphoric high I just wanted a boost to get things done and maybe express myself to my girlfriend and friends in ways that I normally would be too inhibited/unmotivated to.
I should also add I did eat quite a lot (3mg) of clonazepam yesterday, and 2mg the day before, so maybe that's diminishing it. My other theory is that for my purposes maybe only 5mg is what I need. I'm going to give Lisdexamfetamine a try in the coming weeks maybe that will provide me with something more to what i'm looking for. Another theory I have is that im overthinking it too much and having expectations, perhaps if I just forget/ignore that I took anything and go about my day as usual maybe I'll notice the effects more.
Any tips or tricks would be greatly appreciated, last time coffee just made the sides worse, nicotine kind of helps only if I constantly keep a zyn in or chain smoke. Overall it's very up and down, does anyone else experience this? Did I just get my doses/timing wrong perhaps?
I dropped 10mg and for the first hour I felt all the typical benefits I was looking for but after that it's just swings and roundabouts. I took another 10mg one hour in when I felt it suddenly just falling off. One minute I want to talk everyone's heads off and listen deeply, the next I feel like a cold emotionless robot. One minute my libido skyrockets and I'm suddenly really horny for my partner, the next 0 libido. I suddenly feel angry/frustrated for 5 mins and then I don't. I never experienced this in my weekend warrior meth days (15 years ago) it was always heaven followed hell.
I had plans to get a lot of work done but now 2 hours and 20mg in I'm not getting the effects I'd hoped for. I wasn't really looking for the euphoric high I just wanted a boost to get things done and maybe express myself to my girlfriend and friends in ways that I normally would be too inhibited/unmotivated to.
I should also add I did eat quite a lot (3mg) of clonazepam yesterday, and 2mg the day before, so maybe that's diminishing it. My other theory is that for my purposes maybe only 5mg is what I need. I'm going to give Lisdexamfetamine a try in the coming weeks maybe that will provide me with something more to what i'm looking for. Another theory I have is that im overthinking it too much and having expectations, perhaps if I just forget/ignore that I took anything and go about my day as usual maybe I'll notice the effects more.
Any tips or tricks would be greatly appreciated, last time coffee just made the sides worse, nicotine kind of helps only if I constantly keep a zyn in or chain smoke. Overall it's very up and down, does anyone else experience this? Did I just get my doses/timing wrong perhaps?
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