Mushoku_Sensei
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Damn, you still can't get proper treatment? It's been a while right?
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Evening blueworld
Not a bad day but have an early morning to start tomorrow, so wanna try and sleep early tonight.
20:00
10mg methadone
10mg diazepam
Grain size RSO oil Face on fire strain
.5g joint Black Rose Sugar
Its just past 9pm now and im baked AF and can feel I can easily go and rest now.
Not a bad day but have an early morning to start tomorrow, so wanna try and sleep early tonight.
20:00
10mg methadone
10mg diazepam
Grain size RSO oil Face on fire strain
.5g joint Black Rose Sugar
Its just past 9pm now and im baked AF and can feel I can easily go and rest now.
Dreamflyer
Bluelighter
Yep. My provider of 10 years lost his license last March. I tapered off of all my meds, found a new provider in September, lost him a month later and had to taper off again.
That was over 6 months ago, and I *still* can't find anyone in my insurance network to help me!
Sorry I've been so rubbish at checking in with these threads lately it's been one heck of a week between work and unforeseen crisies at home and I'm still trying to figure out what the new routine is going to be.
Definitely in need of some additional relaxation tonight so we're going with 450mg of pregabalin 5mg of diazepam and 60mg of Rick Simpson oil.
While I wait for all that to hit I'm going to roll myself a little joint grab myself a hot drink and settle in for the evening.
Sleep well lovelies
Definitely in need of some additional relaxation tonight so we're going with 450mg of pregabalin 5mg of diazepam and 60mg of Rick Simpson oil.
While I wait for all that to hit I'm going to roll myself a little joint grab myself a hot drink and settle in for the evening.
Sleep well lovelies
Hey, guys.
Another great day out and about on vacay, and another day and a half before the real world sets back in, so I'm feeling fine on all fronts.
5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
25mg thc gummy
20mg thc/30mg cbd gummy
85mg methadone
Ripping this Strawberry Lemonade cart, tasty and effective, and a baby joint of Fiestaz earlier.
Great day all around, another lined up for tomorrow. Bet.
Another great day out and about on vacay, and another day and a half before the real world sets back in, so I'm feeling fine on all fronts.
5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
25mg thc gummy
20mg thc/30mg cbd gummy
85mg methadone
Ripping this Strawberry Lemonade cart, tasty and effective, and a baby joint of Fiestaz earlier.
Great day all around, another lined up for tomorrow. Bet.
SuperPsych
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So far today:
3mg Buprenorphine
600mg Gabapentin
150mg Caffeine
Lots of Nicotine
Took like 6 grams of White Maeng Da ( still got a tiny bit of stimulating effect despite the subs)
I feel a little bad. Just dropped 250mg of Carisoprodol. Told myself I wouldn't do any today because I did some last night. Just got my first paycheck from my new job after getting fired from my last job and I got so anxious that I started to get chest pain, so I said fuck it and took some Soma. I worked more hours this pay period than I did at my old job AND get tips and it was a couple of hundred less than it would be for the same amount of hours at my old job. Thinking about contacting my old job. They said once I got my shit together that they'd be open to talking about rehiring me. I'm on anti-depressants and Subs and have been doing MUCH better than the few months leading to my firing. It'll just be hard to survive with this job. I mean I'll be able to survive but that's literally all I'll be doing. No luxuries or comforts
3mg Buprenorphine
600mg Gabapentin
150mg Caffeine
Lots of Nicotine
Took like 6 grams of White Maeng Da ( still got a tiny bit of stimulating effect despite the subs)
I feel a little bad. Just dropped 250mg of Carisoprodol. Told myself I wouldn't do any today because I did some last night. Just got my first paycheck from my new job after getting fired from my last job and I got so anxious that I started to get chest pain, so I said fuck it and took some Soma. I worked more hours this pay period than I did at my old job AND get tips and it was a couple of hundred less than it would be for the same amount of hours at my old job. Thinking about contacting my old job. They said once I got my shit together that they'd be open to talking about rehiring me. I'm on anti-depressants and Subs and have been doing MUCH better than the few months leading to my firing. It'll just be hard to survive with this job. I mean I'll be able to survive but that's literally all I'll be doing. No luxuries or comforts
Hey, guys.
Another great day out and about on vacay, and another day and a half before the real world sets back in, so I'm feeling fine on all fronts.
5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
25mg thc gummy
20mg thc/30mg cbd gummy
85mg methadone
Ripping this Strawberry Lemonade cart, tasty and effective, and a baby joint of Fiestaz earlier.
Great day all around, another lined up for tomorrow. Bet.
Much the same as yesterday, only no gummies and I haven't taken my methadone yet - holding off until late for that so I feel 100% well when I wake up in the morning. Chilling this evening, getting mega stoned and eating sweets, gearing up for one more half day of vacation,
Returned home from vacation this evening, too short but excellent. Back to real world shit tomorrow lol.
Usual scripts, 5mg apixaban and 10mg olanzapine; will wake up at some point and take my 85mg methadone. Just took 12mg sublingual melatonin. Currently smoking a couple joints of some of my friend's homegrown he gave me to try today. It's not bad.
Usual scripts, 5mg apixaban and 10mg olanzapine; will wake up at some point and take my 85mg methadone. Just took 12mg sublingual melatonin. Currently smoking a couple joints of some of my friend's homegrown he gave me to try today. It's not bad.
5mg diazepam and some weed.
Shit day.
Bleurgh.
Sleep well lovelies
Shit day.
Bleurgh.
Sleep well lovelies
SuperPsych
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I hope that your evening turns around. Sorry to hear of the tough day.5mg diazepam and some weed.
Shit day.
Bleurgh.
Sleep well lovelies
My day:
4mg Buprenorphine total
600mg Gabapentin total
2 cigarettes
Vaped nicotine
Later tonight:
500mg -1000mg Carisoprodol
7.5mg Mirtazapine (if the Soma doesnt knock me out before I'm able to take it)
The Soma has KNOCKED me out the last couple of times that I've taken it. I'm usually able to fight it for a while and stay awake and enjoy the effects but not lately. Makes it very hard to wake up in the morning also so I'm going to avoid taking it on nights where I work early the next day
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
I remember getting buzzy on Bupre when i wasnt opiate dependent. Tbh i havent actually felt high, even a little buzz, from it since getting on it for maintenance. Genuinely does feel like being sober.
Drinking some sake and smoking weed-
and idk if its gonna help but I took some gabapentin because I did a little meth earlier/last night, was actually really really good glass. Crystal clear large shards, and the high was a lot mellower than im used to. Nonetheless i imagine its going to be tough to sleep tn. Shit its already almost 5am lol.
Im just gonna keep drinking and smoking weed for a while, hopefully i can just pass out.
ChemicallyEnhanced
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So far:
Cigarettes - too many, I have a nasty hacking cough right now..think it's improving, though
Sertraline 150mg
Morphine 190mg
Gabapentin 1800mg
Cigarettes - too many, I have a nasty hacking cough right now..think it's improving, though
Sertraline 150mg
Morphine 190mg
Gabapentin 1800mg
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pack of these^ and pack of these:
(paracetamol extracted)
^You're gonna have to pee in the night
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You know too much, this is my nightly fate 
Same old noise, a fat bowl pack to end the day, the normal boring scripts soon and some dinner, if this weed manages to summon my appetite, and 85mg methadone later tonight.
Still stoked at the news I got at the clinic this morning, approved for take homes so I'm making that trip twice weekly at the ass crack of dawn now instead of six times a week. Makes my life much, much simpler.
Still stoked at the news I got at the clinic this morning, approved for take homes so I'm making that trip twice weekly at the ass crack of dawn now instead of six times a week. Makes my life much, much simpler.
SuperPsych
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Gonna be knocking back 15mg mirtazapine in a few hours.
I sure do miss being able to enjoy THC. I miss getting stoned at night to unwind. Might have some CBG later
I sure do miss being able to enjoy THC. I miss getting stoned at night to unwind. Might have some CBG later
Are you unable to use THC because of the mirtazapine? Also, a second question, how do you like mirtazapine? I heard positive things about it in combination with venlafaxine.
5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
A few shots of whiskey
12mg melatonin
Weed - various forms and strains, about to smoke a joint of Trufflez and call it a night.
And my usual 85mg methadone whenever my body decides to wake me up and tell me to take it, because I've figured out that's the better option between that and waking up dope sick every morning lol.
10mg olanzapine
A few shots of whiskey
12mg melatonin
Weed - various forms and strains, about to smoke a joint of Trufflez and call it a night.
And my usual 85mg methadone whenever my body decides to wake me up and tell me to take it, because I've figured out that's the better option between that and waking up dope sick every morning lol.
SuperPsych
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Mirtazapine has nothing to do with my inability to use/enjoy THC. THC just took a turn on me in my mid 20's or so. It now triggers anxiety/panic attacks pretty regularly. I have been able to enjoy it with a tolerance, but now that my tolerance is at zero it's hard to get it back up to be able to enjoy the effects again. I do enjoy high CBD and low THC buds though.
I like mirtazapine as an anti-depressant. It's not as extreme in it's effects as venlafaxine. Venlafaxine I found to be a pretty good anti-depressant. It helped me get thru a point in my life where I was suicidal. I had to stop due to some extreme side effects. Mainly the fact that the sexual dysfunction was so bad and my body was unable to even release itself through nocturnal emissions It got to the point where I had blue balls 24/7. It hurt to wake up, couldn't get comfortable trying to sleep. couldn't sit without pain, couldn't walk without pain. I'd only ever take it again as a last resort (if my life depended upon it)
Mirtazapine I like. It's not in your face and the changes are subtle. It's not as chemical feeling as SSRI/SNRIs. Reuptake inhibitors have that robotic feeling. Like being unable to feel sad when you should, just this mask of "happy" that feels unnatural and not human. Mirtazapine feels a bit more natural. It's leveled out my mood enough that I've been able to make positive changes like picking up reading again, going on long walks often. It's also great for sleep and helps anxiety quite a bit. The main downside for me is weight gain. The munchies that it can cause are crazy. I have an appointment later this month and I'm going to talk to my doctor about the possibility af adding Bupropion with my Mirtazapine. I suspect that I have ADHD so I think the combo of the 2 will be pretty effective for me. I guess the main part about Mirtazapine that I dislike the most is that I can no longer have spur of the moment psychedelic trips. I now have to plan them out so I can taper off. On that note, does anyone have any idea how long I should be off of mirtazapine before being able to take a psychedelic? I'm on a pretty low dose (15mg)