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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

InvegaAnon said:
Happy 4/20 and Easter to those who celebrate. JOINTS FOR JESUS!

I'm getting lost in my head again. I got high and felt like making my own essay-style podcast and getting excited like "Yeah, yeah... maybe I can do it." I got mad that the psychedelic space is becoming right wing dominated and it really shouldn't be that way. Even people I thought were cool and good slid to the right like slimy little weasels.
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Right wing because it promotes marriage love and family instead of satanic LGBT?
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Right wing because it promotes marriage love and family instead of satanic LGBT?
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You say you're not homophobic and you call me satanic. Newsflash, that's homophobic.

I'm not sure if he had anyone queerphobic on his show but he did have someone who was sympathetic to capital N Nazis and has been complaining vaguely about "wOkEnEsS". He's buddies with Joe Rogan and kinda wants a slice of the same pie. I thought he was a sweetheart but I think at some point he stopped being true to himself and started chasing money. I'll always like The Midnight Gospel though.
 
InvegaAnon said:
You say you're not homophobic and you call me satanic. Newsflash, that's homophobic.

I'm not sure if he had anyone queerphobic on his show but he did have someone who was sympathetic to capital N Nazis and has been complaining vaguely about "wOkEnEsS". He's buddies with Joe Rogan and kinda wants a slice of the same pie. I thought he was a sweetheart but I think at some point he stopped being true to himself and started chasing money. I'll always like The Midnight Gospel though.
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What do u mean.
 
I’m seeing most people start to feel better at around 6-8 months. Really hoping and praying that I’m in that same boat. Living like this is tough. It literally feels like something is eating away at my body.
 
I feel like I’m going to have to relearn how to be human when this shit is gone. Like how to act in public cause right now I feel so awkward around people.
 
Now I know what they mean by derealization. I am not present anymore. I now also know what it means to be suicidal. Plenty of recovery stories on here and reddit but that what if haunts me 24/7. 6 months in and things that have gotten better: no more sugar cravings, slightly better cognition after drinking coffee, ejaculate coming back. I need psychedelics, weed and stimulants but have limited access. I smoked a couple weeks ago and heard actual fucking voices, it's true that this shit causes schizophrenia, I'm afraid of the dark now for some reason. This drug shouldn't exist.
 
invegetable said:
Now I know what they mean by derealization. I am not present anymore. I now also know what it means to be suicidal. Plenty of recovery stories on here and reddit but that what if haunts me 24/7. 6 months in and things that have gotten better: no more sugar cravings, slightly better cognition after drinking coffee, ejaculate coming back. I need psychedelics, weed and stimulants but have limited access. I smoked a couple weeks ago and heard actual fucking voices, it's true that this shit causes schizophrenia, I'm afraid of the dark now for some reason. This drug shouldn't exist.
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I think it causes schizophrenia as well. I’m afraid of the dark now too. It’s so evil. My reality is one of nightmares. This drug is catastrophic. I may end my life. I’m sorry this is happening to you.
 
rawbanana said:
I feel like I’m going to have to relearn how to be human when this shit is gone. Like how to act in public cause right now I feel so awkward around people.
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Being dumber literally changes your face because you have this confused expression on your face. Like you are not capable of drawing any conclusions from anything and you are constantly straining to make heads or tails of a situation. It's humiliating.
 
rawbanana said:
I think it causes schizophrenia as well. I’m afraid of the dark now too. It’s so evil. My reality is one of nightmares. This drug is catastrophic. I may end my life. I’m sorry this is happening to you.
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Yeah I'm sorry too. What the fuck right? What in the actual fuck.
 
invegetable said:
Yeah I'm sorry too. What the fuck right? What in the actual fuck.
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What sucks is no matter how many people there are online going through this it doesn’t make me feel better. Like there’s no community feeling for me that’s like “hey we’ll get through this together.” it’s just wow we’re all fucked and this sucks and I’m sorry. There’s also nothing we can do legally cause these doctors have the right to destroy our lives.
 
rawbanana said:
What sucks is no matter how many people there are online going through this it doesn’t make me feel better. Like there’s no community feeling for me that’s like “hey we’ll get through this together.” it’s just wow we’re all fucked and this sucks and I’m sorry. There’s also nothing we can do legally cause these doctors have the right to destroy our lives.
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I think the shock and devastation will get worse and really settle in if a couple years go by and nothing changes. At that point I don't think I would reach out to anybody to be fair. I'm already getting an instinct to be alone. I've read the whole thread and a lot of people stop posting after a year or two. They may have "moved on with their lives" but really? If you've regained your empathy and know that this level of suffering exists would you really do that?
 
Hello

Honestly guys, seems like there's so much talk on having received a couple of injections and thinking you have not recovered.

Please realise that your mind is very power and if you are adjunct at not recovering and not lifting yourself up from that mind space that leads to making the necessary changes in your life so that you can feel great then it becomes very hard to live fully and live up to your potential.

I explain in my YouTube videos some of the things that I have done in order to get back my life and since my last hospital stay, I have and STILL TAKING INVEGA for the past almost THREE YEARS.

And I am now living my best life. For those of you not needing to and are not on Invega anymore you should consider yourself very lucky and do WHATEVER IT TAKES to get a proper life back and that means MAKING CHANGES in your life.

Listen, I'm not on here much but I am a life coach (as a hobby) and help people out for free. If you want to talk to me easily then visit my website www.emerginghealing.com all my contact is there and even my whatsapp is there and we can also have video calls. Again I'm doing this all for free because I love helping people out, please don't mind the prices on the site.

I the meantime feel free to check out my latest YouTube upload.



All The Best

Lui Bliss
 
invegetable said:
I think the shock and devastation will get worse and really settle in if a couple years go by and nothing changes. At that point I don't think I would reach out to anybody to be fair. I'm already getting an instinct to be alone. I've read the whole thread and a lot of people stop posting after a year or two. They may have "moved on with their lives" but really? If you've regained your empathy and know that this level of suffering exists would you really do that?
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Reach out to me.. And Ive been dealing with this Invega stuff on blue light for 9 years. I have moved on with my life but it's still a part of my life
 
LuiBliss said:
Reach out to me.. And Ive been dealing with this Invega stuff on blue light for 9 years. I have moved on with my life but it's still a part of my life
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Hi Lui, thanks for your response. I may as well ask you stuff on here as there's no need to make it private. How long were you on the injections? What dose? Symptoms? How long until you recovered? And why on earth are you still taking it?
 
rawbanana said:
What sucks is no matter how many people there are online going through this it doesn’t make me feel better. Like there’s no community feeling for me that’s like “hey we’ll get through this together.” it’s just wow we’re all fucked and this sucks and I’m sorry. There’s also nothing we can do legally cause these doctors have the right to destroy our lives.
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I couldn't agree with this statement more. Invega is the loneliest place in the world. Nothing but suffering that nobody else can truly relate to. It doesn't comfort me that random strangers on the internet are also suffering.
 
IOSIP said:
I couldn't agree with this statement more. Invega is the loneliest place in the world. Nothing but suffering that nobody else can truly relate to. It doesn't comfort me that random strangers on the internet are also suffering.
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Are you not still getting better?
 
LuiBliss said:
My pleasure, "invegetable" 🤦

I was started on rispsridone in 2011. Got off it and went to jail to 2013. in 2014 I ended up back in the hospital where they put me on invega sustenna I started to ween off it in 2016 and was completely off in 2017. Ended up back in hospital but managed to escape without getting it again. I ended up in prison a few months later. While in prison I got evicted from my apartment so when I got out of prison I was homeless, this is now 2018. Being homeless I got into fights on the streets but a false allegation got me back in prison where they sent me to the hospital and court decided that I needed to be on the antipsychotic. So they put me back on it. In 2019 they sent me back from hospital to prison and I was released from prison. Within a few months I got off it again, ended up back in prison cuz of the crazy shit I was doing while hanging out in the streets. When I was done my sentence in prison they sent me to the hospital where I stayed for almost 1.5 years fighting my case against coercively giving me inveva. I lost my case. They gave me the needle. I beat up a nurse as a result of my frustration. I'm in trouble with the law again. Once released from hospital I go to jail for the day where my brother bails me out. It is now 2022 and i have had enough. In order to not go back to prison and live a "normal" life I promise the judge to stay on the needle. I'm now on invega trinza.

Thankfully I'm not a zombie anymore because I have been while I'm on it before. I had depression, I had anhedonia, and I was suicidal in the beginning. I'm doing very well now.

I'm getting by with the side effects like weight gain and ejaculating liquid fluid and less intense orgasms. For the time being I'm letting all this be because I enjoy a high quality of life.

I was feeling like shit for the first 1.5 years while on it. Then I did some self healing that's absurd to anybody who would hear this but I ate a little bit of my own shit. Something I would do on a regular basis at the hospital and prison so that I would protect myself from the poison that they feed us.

But anyhoo that's a whole other topic on the benefits of coprophagia.

Don't get me wrong doing this helped but it was also other things like the boost I got from naturopathic supplements and herbs. These are very powerful forces when invited into pur biological system. And Ofcourse I have been having a daily meditation practice where I ask my higher Self to get me doing better and better. And to fill me with vitality and vigour and strength.

Yeah, hope that part on coprophagia wasn't too graphic but lots of species do it and it's very beneficial. Your brain gets an idea of what's going on in your body and what's coming out. Then it begins to heal itself.

Before the use of technology to read stool and urine doctors used to taste them to give an idea of their patients diagnosis.

So here you go, I said a little more about it.. What do you know?

OK that's it for now, I'm here if you need anything or have any more questions.

Best,

Lui
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What the actual fuck lol. Dis regard the eating of feces. I can't believe how long you've been on invega for. You must have full blown schizophrenia. Because no normal person can tolerate this medication.
 
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