What drugs have you turned down? Regrets?

[yubacity]

I really hope you will be able to hold your grandchild one day... The futility of it all, wanting shit that's doing us no good at a cost you can't justify... Those moments make me feel like the worst fool on earth... I have kids as well... And no savings at all. My mom saved for them in my place . But that shall change...

Heroin helps in the beginning but childhood trauma I have all the love in the world I married my high school sweetheart I cheated on her so many times but she the only woman I have loved I was lucky a buisness took of I retired now every morning I wake up at 4 because im in wds anxiety
4 kids only my youngest have I actually been hands on . Yesterday was my birthday jenny was just looking at me she knows I feel so alone why can't I be normal . My brotherd are dying alcohol meth middle brother suicide attempt cousin died of hanging himself 34 year old cousin who I started buisness with died alcohol liver failure uncle same old man same my grandads 2 brothers in punjab opium addicts but I broke the cycle of beating broken ribs nose us three had to watch him treat our sister like a queen ge nearly killed my brother in punjab beat him to a pulp men of the village brreaking down door we never laid hand on our kids my boy was arrested under the influence of meth and posseion the one thing I feared my kids having to go through addiction I told him every day I love him boxing mma just so he would not turn to drugs . Why can't I stop

 

[Shinji Ikari]

I had and turned down Dimethocaine with a lab report; later to hear it was AMAZING if IV'd. .

I remember when dimethocaine first came along and the reports were saying it was amazing at first but that didn't last and most people were saying it was like pro plus that makes your face go numb. Hadn't heard of anyone IVing it. I'm guessing it isn't really around anymore anyway.

While I enjoy toning things down a bit

Do you like ketamine?

 

[notsmokeymcpot42088]

Yea I didn't hear ish about it IV till years later on BL. (Didn't try it myself as it was 3x cardiotoxic as cocaine if I recall with 1/3 the potency....than I heard about ppl gettin many minute bellringers and ish and thought damn! Yea my guess is it is flat illegal now, probably was an analog act possibility than. It sucked snorted basically just a local anesthetic. Lol I even mixed it with some 4fma hoping to recreate some kind of coke like effect but ended up giving up.

Ketamine good MXE better (IMO of course)

 

[paltatomate]

Do you like ketamine?

i haven't tried it, but i don't think i would enjoy it.
i can get pretty dissociated without the help of substances. and that's a feeling i don't enjoy, it even makes me a bit anxious.
while it's good to rise the threshold for certain stimuli while still being present and able to think.

 

[Joey]

I flushed the better half of a quarter Oz of meth last year. I guess that's turning it down. Sometimes I regret it because I could get high for a week or more on what was in that bag.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Heroin helps in the beginning

Yeah, that's why we're here Ig...
Wow... It's running strong in your family!Hmm. After more than 2 decades on H (if I understood that correctly?!?), and with that history... Seems a lot asked to just stop... Did you try to get Methadone maybe? Sorry I don't know much about you or what all you tried before...

 

[yubacity]

Yeah, that's why we're here Ig...
Wow... It's running strong in your family!Hmm. After more than 2 decades on H (if I understood that correctly?!?), and with that history... Seems a lot asked to just stop... Did you try to get Methadone maybe? Sorry I don't know much about you or what all you tried

I know it works for some not me. I tried 12 steps would go in there high as fuck and pretend I'm doing well . Its not only heroin but I been a addict since 15 34 years I was 18 months clean finally no paws but my brain told me to reward myself . What should I do I prefer death over this. 1200 quid a week on gear but ill go to another petrol station because it 2 p cheaper kids younger years a blur they still love me but I had times I left them in car to smoke brown my wife in labor tell her im hoing to cafe she see me crashed out in car while she giving birth to my eldest . Now my biggest fear my son on meth he in honeymoon period all I told him out the window u can have all the love in the world but this shit is lonely as hell

 

[notsmokeymcpot42088]

I flushed the better half of a quarter Oz of meth last year. I guess that's turning it down. Sometimes I regret it because I could get high for a week or more on what was in that bag.

1.4 butanediol got flushed for me as too steep a dose curve and too many interactions. That was drug abuse.....now that I dont have faucet like access to benzos i want them little bottles back lol

 

[emkee_reinvented]

Heroine, no regret. Did smell nice, the yellowish kind, like a spice.
It was in front of me, my own place. Shocking as ...
the one who brought it was a 15 year old French nice fellow.

Met him in French few year before. He spoke Dutch to, hope he is OK.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

I know it works for some not me. I tried 12 steps would go in there high as fuck and pretend I'm doing well . Its not only heroin but I been a addict since 15 34 years I was 18 months clean finally no paws but my brain told me to reward myself . What should I do I prefer death over this. 1200 quid a week on gear but ill go to another petrol station because it 2 p cheaper kids younger years a blur they still love me but I had times I left them in car to smoke brown my wife in labor tell her im hoing to cafe she see me crashed out in car while she giving birth to my eldest . Now my biggest fear my son on meth he in honeymoon period

I see.. living as an addict you pile up a load of guilt... And the reward issue is a big one for me as well, so I feel you there.. Rn what all are you using? H only? Smoking exclusively? Also it's hard enough to watch friends on meth... My heart would bleed if it was my son... I really don't know what to tell you for that, other than that it's tragic for parents..And I hope he'll decide to stop for himself ... As well as I wish for you to find a way out of despair for yourself. I would still suggest a replacement as a first step... Seems near impossible to taper with heroin to me...

all I told him out the window u can have all the love in the world but this shit is lonely as hell

Looks different in the beginning but it's true in the end...
Edit: feel free to PM

 

[crazyhairman]

DMT no regret. The way I see it . Upon death your brain is flooded with DMT. I don't want to mess with any of that. When I die I want to have all my DMT intact.

Never tried heroin either. Did all the Rx opiates I never felt the need to try the H. I've chased enough dragons in my time with meth lol.

 

[Psychlone Jack]

The last drug I turned down was cocaine, from a friend I'd went to school and grown up and done time with on a happenstance meet up at the methadone clinic about 5 months ago, early morning when I was a homeless, crying hot mess. He offered me a bump at his truck, I declined and mentioned what I really needed was some weed. He said "yeah?" and reached in the truck, snapped off a nug and handed it over. That, I accepted lol.