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Mental Health The Rant Thread Vs. Really? How Does That Make You Feel?

distAnTKarmA said:
Every single day I keep oversleeping. And I just wake up fucking furious. I can't sleep, can't do shit. I hate my fucking life, nothing will ever just work the fuck out. I don't know why I try or care at all, no one's coming, why do I even expend any effort. I could work 70 hours every week and not have money on Monday. What's the fucking point.
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And then I finally get here, after beating myself up for an hour long drive, and nothings even started yet, no one's working at all. So, obviously it just doesn't matter half of the time.

Idk why I strive to be perfect in a world that wouldn't notice if I died tomorrow. My nervous system is just primed for hate and discomfort.
 
distAnTKarmA said:
And then I finally get here, after beating myself up for an hour long drive, and nothings even started yet, no one's working at all. So, obviously it just doesn't matter half of the time.

Idk why I strive to be perfect in a world that wouldn't notice if I died tomorrow. My nervous system is just primed for hate and discomfort.
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Lol I did it again today 🤦 wtf... I even got plenty of sleep. Got up with plenty of time, went downstairs to get coffee and a bagel, literally drank coffee and had taken half an Adderall, finished eating and like dozed off on the couch for half an hour.

I guess this is what it must feel like to have narcolepsy. Oh well whatever man, I didn't even let it make me mad this time. I need to get back into meditating more... One isn't meant to be this angry all the time.
 
I can't really rant about much tbh. I know I control my own life. I guess good intent doesn't always produce the results I want, and that makes me frustrated for sure.
distAnTKarmA said:
One isn't meant to be this angry all the time.
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I think you should extend yourself gratitude for trying like you do. It cleans out the conscience. Be nice to thyself. I think that with time clean, inspiration comes, at least it did with me. I'll try to do the same lol.
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
I can't really rant about much tbh. I know I control my own life. I guess good intent doesn't always produce the results I want, and that makes me frustrated for sure.

I think you should extend yourself gratitude for trying like you do. It cleans out the conscience. Be nice to thyself. I think that with time clean, inspiration comes, at least it did with me. I'll try to do the same lol.
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Thanks for the kind words. It means a lot to me.

I've been making a point to get to sleep earlier, and so I finished out last week pretty well, and today, not feeling quite so angry getting up.

Just going to try my best to start being responsible with my money, so I can do the things I need to do in life, and not just be angry about the things that make me feel helpless
 
paranoid android said:
Fucking snowstorm tomorrow may delay my fucking weed getting here. Why the fuck do i have to live in Canada?
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We just had an ice storm. Some people still don't have power. Trees were falling down everywhere. It was crazy hearing them explode.
Then yesterday it was 18 and today 12. Crazy weather.
Summer will be here soon. A month later for your province lol
 
Jen X said:
We just had an ice storm. Some people still don't have power. Trees were falling down everywhere. It was crazy hearing them explode.
Then yesterday it was 18 and today 12. Crazy weather.
Summer will be here soon. A month later for your province lol
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Dam thats insane. I got my weed today anyway we didnt get much snow. Our summers technically dont start till july really lol
 
I tried to wear a child's hat but then everyone was all "you can't really look like Rita from arrested development this is the real world"
 
Ive had it up to here with unaware people running around spouting off pro police propaganda in a society that has been destroyed by the police.
 
i’m really making my own problems but i’m also not. being on drugs is wrecking my ability to socialise and keep the house clean but even without them i’m still depressed and disabled and behind in school so it’s all bad no matter what.

i’m a terrible person because my cats are probably going to accidentally eat my drugs and get hurt because i don’t care about them enough to not do lines in the house and i hate myself for it.
 
Really water got poured on my advanced directive and there's nothing you can do? I'll force my way back inpatient asshole wtf
 
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