Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

[IOSIP]

I had a thought. If you offered me elon musks net worth in exchange for a years worth of invega shots. I would decline. That's how bad this shit is. All the money in the world wouldn't be worth it to have 12 shots of this shit.

Compared to where I started I feel alot better. Broadly speaking I still feel like shit because I ruined my life and now have to somehow pick up the peaces.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

I had a thought. If you offered me elon musks net worth in exchange for a years worth of invega shots. I would decline. That's how bad this shit is. All the money in the world wouldn't be worth it to have 12 shots of this shit.

Compared to where I started I feel alot better. Broadly speaking I still feel like shit because I ruined my life and now have to somehow pick up the peaces.

Yup whats the point of all that money if you're suffering from invega damage and unable to enjoy your money. Funny enough , I believe Elon musk suffers from anhedonia and other symtpoms of depression because he abuses ketamine which is used for depression. So not every rich person lives a great happy life without drugs.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

holy shit , maybe Australia isn't as magical as it sounds in my head. They got a brutal mental health system with CTOs and psychiatry abuse. Becareful @IOSIP and please never get yourself hosptilized again to avoid a CTO this shit is a nightmare.

 

[IOSIP]

holy shit , maybe Australia isn't as magical as it sounds in my head. They got a brutal mental health system with CTOs and psychiatry abuse. Becareful @IOSIP and please never get yourself hosptilized again to avoid a CTO this shit is a nightmare.

No chance of me getting hospitalised again. Thanks for the concern though.

 

[IOSIP]

Im thinking about playing video games again. Which is another positive step in the right direction. For months all I could watch was tik toks. Then for the last month I've watched YouTube vids. Now I'm bored with them im dreaming of video games again.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

No chance of me getting hospitalised again. Thanks for the concern though.

atleast you only had 1 hosptilization so far , CTO's require 3 or more hopstilization in the last 3 years . I technically meet the requirement be on a CTO so my psychiatrist can decide tommorow to place me on a never ending CTO. I'm literlly at his mercy.

Im thinking about playing video games again. Which is another positive step in the right direction. For months all I could watch was tik toks. Then for the last month I've watched YouTube vids. Now I'm bored with them im dreaming of video games again.

Thats def an improvement , I couldn't play any games till 7 months since last injection and I still don't enjoy it but its tolerable . Check out league of legends, its all I play .

 

[IOSIP]

atleast you only had 1 hosptilization so far , CTO's require 3 or more hopstilization in the last 3 years . I technically meet the requirement be on a CTO so my psychiatrist can decide tommorow to place me on a never ending CTO. I'm literlly at his mercy.


Thats def an improvement , I couldn't play any games till 7 months since last injection and I still don't enjoy it but its tolerable . Check out league of legends, its all I play .

Im continuing final fantasy 7 re birth. I stopped playing due to akathisia. Then I stopped playing due to anhedonia.

Man that akathisia is the biggest nightmare i suffered from those injections.

I would love my cunt of a psychiatrist to get to experience that for 3 months like me.

Tony how's the family? Seems like you've been chill lately.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

Im continuing final fantasy 7 re birth. I stopped playing due to akathisia. Then I stopped playing due to anhedonia.

Man that akathisia is the biggest nightmare i suffered from those injections.

I would love my cunt of a psychiatrist to get to experience that for 3 months like me.

Tony how's the family? Seems like you've been chill lately.

ye i heard ff 7 rebirth is really good , never played it myself def check it out regardless of the anhedonia .

My family is alright , we're cool and chill. I mean don't get me wrong they 100% still think im crazy but I don't speak to them as much. My older brother who triggered everything by calling my sister while I was in the car and said " yoo that guy is fkn crazy" didnt know i was in the car with her lol but yeah i dont speak to him anymore and he doesnt call me so idc.

 

[IOSIP]

ye i heard ff 7 rebirth is really good , never played it myself def check it out regardless of the anhedonia .

My family is alright , we're cool and chill. I mean don't get me wrong they 100% still think im crazy but I don't speak to them as much. My older brother who triggered everything by calling my sister while I was in the car and said " yoo that guy is fkn crazy" didnt know i was in the car with her lol but yeah i dont speak to him anymore and he doesnt call me so idc.

Not gonna lie the simple fact that I can sit still and play a game is incredible. I remember wheb the akathisia started howni couldn't sit still at all.

I've got heaps of games I can play massive catalogue on the ps5.

Glad to hear your getting along with them ok. Your a good person and a little crazy sometimes though. Ahahahaa

 

[IOSIP]

In further good news I'm no longer suicidal. I really was suicidal every day for about 3 months there with the akathisia and anhedonia.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

Not gonna lie the simple fact that I can sit still and play a game is incredible. I remember wheb the akathisia started howni couldn't sit still at all.

I've got heaps of games I can play massive catalogue on the ps5.

Glad to hear your getting along with them ok. Your a good person and a little crazy sometimes though. Ahahahaa

Ye run through those games and before you know it, you will be recovered from invega in few months.

BRO I swear to god since my last injection in feb 2024 I literlly had no problems no psychosis . I was just on here talking to ppl about psychiatry but never mentioned it to family. All my fkn problems started when I took that parnate from india. What happened was i took 60 mg and my dopamine levels shot up causing me not to sleep and I started acting irrational , irratic and delusional which explains why I kept talking about psychiatry so much. I'm fine now no problems what so ever and sleep fine. My shrink suggested a bipolar medication called valproic acid lol so he thinks im bipolar now haha.

In further good news I'm no longer suicidal. I really was suicidal every day for about 3 months there with the akathisia and anhedonia.

thats a huge improvement next it will most likely be akathisia , anhedonia will be the last though cuz the VTA (reward center of the brain) has been altered by invega so it will take a while to to go back to normal.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I've just started my recovery and have a long way to go. But I've noticed on that most people if they say they recovered they say about 80%. I'm curious to know that is this really the case. We tend to look at our past, the good old days, with rose colored blinders. "Remember when I was so great things were so great" I find myself often doing that and then really think about it and the truth is life sucked then too. Not nearly as bad but it wasn't that great. I wonder if people fully recover and are disappointed that life isn't as good as they imagine it was in hindsight. But then again it could be true maybe there is permanent damage. I'd hope not. Just curious is all, what do you guys think?

In objective terms, the "good old days" aren't that good compared to the present that I'm living. I never had more stuff going on, and never had this much money and connections, and it is just getting started.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I find myself often doing that and then really think about it and the truth is life sucked then too. Not nearly as bad but it wasn't that great.

This is going to be very hard to understand, but now life is easier than before this is partially because I'm extremely calm inside in a very weird way (as when unconscious), and as I watch time pass by it, days go as fast as seconds it's all the same to me. Recently I closed my eyes for a whole day just to test this theory, and time passed by like nothing. But this calmness also goes in places where some emotions would usually appear..

But then again it could be true maybe there is permanent damage. I'd hope not. Just curious is all, what do you guys think?

I'm still gradually improving at same pace, my recovery has not stopped. ~1% a month is slow, as it was always, but it was also always reliable.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I’m glad you recovered goes to show everyone will recover whether it’s 6 months 1 year 2 years 4 years 5 years but everyone will recover

80% is still far from fully recovered, but I'm still a good example of how recovery keeps going after a lot of time,
and a good example of how not everything is in the recovery percentage, and things aren't as white and black.

 

[paliperidonevictim2005]

80% is still far from fully recovered, but I'm still a good example of how recovery keeps going after a lot of time,
and a good example of how not everything is in the recovery percentage, and things aren't as white and black.

Can you feel intense euphoric style attraction to women again like I can

 

[invega011024]

Welcome to the club. You poor bustard. Just know the anhedonia gradually gets better.

What are you doing with your time?

Video games. I found that only overwatch can hold my attention since you're constantly moving.

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Hahaha i didnt die @youwillrecoverhere i was just tired of all this bs and attacking me for being too enlightened but i love you all. @paliperidonevictim2005 you were close i landed in jail because my parents sued me for 7 years of abuse from 2018-2025. They did this because i was about to post on Facebook to all their friends neighbours and family what kind of abuse been at this home and how they actively use fake schizophrenia diagnosis on me while im calm and doing nothing wrong. The day i was about to post it 2 cops entered my room and brutally handcuffed me and send me 1 day to prison cell then next day sergeant interrogated me for 2 hours where i explained what is really going on and how actually they are the abusers not me which fortunately he believed and when we finished and camera stopped recording he said "you shoot yourself in foot by living with them". If he was dumb i could be still in jail waiting for court case. The amount of evil they have to their own son is insane. I never been this broken after what hospitals did to me and they do this... I guess they rather see me dead then happy and truthful. @TonyTonyChopper you are forgiven homie all love hahah

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Now i sleep in my friend Adrian home and work on delivery. The court case is pending but i try to use mediator to calm this shit. Normally i would not give a fook but i have fake schizophrenia diagnosis in my records so i rather resolve this peacefully cause if judge is dumb i could be fooked.

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Dont ban me guys. Lets support eachother. Remember the stuff i posted was just expression how much pain those psychiatrist and family caused me without no validation at all. Remember we had suicides here we all suffer because of psychiatry so banning me is further invalidating. All love

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

holy shit , maybe Australia isn't as magical as it sounds in my head. They got a brutal mental health system with CTOs and psychiatry abuse. Becareful @IOSIP and please never get yourself hosptilized again to avoid a CTO this shit is a nightmare.

Yes exactly. Say whatever you want about Poland but because im here i avoided CTO for years. Its sadistic abuse that happens in 21 century and not mamy seem to care