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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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maryjaneforever said:
Haha one day. I was so manic nothing could stop me. Two visits to prison. A psych ward. And I also died.

In my defence something so horrid and awful and beyond comprehension happened to me. So I lost my shit and I threw my whole life away. Everything family. My house. Everything. I was running on pure adrenaline. I had a great time trashing my life forever.

I knew it would hurt when I came down though. I knew it would be bad. I wanted my life to end on a big hurrah. Like skyking have u heard of him?

But no I’m still here and I got shot up and now I have to fucken deal with everything I’ve done. Awesome.
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Ahhh cool well I guess I can see why your thoughts also loop in your head. Because I also fucked my life pretty fantastically.

Your right its like in psychosis you have the keys to the universe. Everything is magical.

Then you get invega and everything is about as fucked as it can get.

Thanks for sharing.
 
Reality is no fun. If they had of left me alone I would have been fine. I wasn’t hurting anyone. And I was marking portals to other dimensions with all my energy. In my own house. And I lived alone. So what’s the problem.

Since Invega I can’t make decisions. I second guess everything. I am unsure and not confident in my decisions. Whereas before I would be like I want that and I’m going to get it. But now it’s like do you want that, are you sure, maybe you don’t, ok go and get it then, goes and gets it, doesn’t want it. Kind shit. It’s fucked.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Reality is no fun. If they had of left me alone I would have been fine. I wasn’t hurting anyone. And I was marking portals to other dimensions with all my energy. In my own house. And I lived alone. So what’s the problem.

Since Invega I can’t make decisions. I second guess everything. I am unsure and not confident in my decisions. Whereas before I would be like I want that and I’m going to get it. But now it’s like do you want that, are you sure, maybe you don’t, ok go and get it then, goes and gets it, doesn’t want it. Kind shit. It’s fucked.
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I'm exactly the same. Even just with the most basic shit between my dad and I I'll be second guessing what I'm doing. I'm like a toddler.

Man sounds like you went wild huh.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Reality is no fun. If they had of left me alone I would have been fine. I wasn’t hurting anyone. And I was marking portals to other dimensions with all my energy. In my own house. And I lived alone. So what’s the problem.

Since Invega I can’t make decisions. I second guess everything. I am unsure and not confident in my decisions. Whereas before I would be like I want that and I’m going to get it. But now it’s like do you want that, are you sure, maybe you don’t, ok go and get it then, goes and gets it, doesn’t want it. Kind shit. It’s fucked.
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I'm imagining being alone in psychosis making portals sounds like fun. I was doing some similar shit. In my dads closeted lieing in the floor look at a glass pain window thinking it was a beautiful tessaract. And how I could live in the beautiful reality away from the world.
 
IOSIP said:
I'm exactly the same. Even just with the most basic shit between my dad and I I'll be second guessing what I'm doing. I'm like a toddler.

Man sounds like you went wild huh.
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Yeah totally nuts. But I’ll tell you why and I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to deal with it.
My daughter died. That’s what happened. So I trashed everything and was going to join her. That pain too unbearable for fucking words. that’s it. Just leave it there.
IOSIP said:
Are you in a relationship? I hope so.
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Just with Satan.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Yeah totally nuts. But I’ll tell you why and I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to deal with it.
My daughter died. That’s what happened. So I trashed everything and was going to join her. That pain too unbearable for fucking words. that’s it. Just leave it there.

Just with Satan.
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I'm so sorry maryjane. Thanks for sharing my heart goes out to you. No need to say more. Fuck.
 
maryjaneforever said:
God doesn’t heal kids with cancer.
He does nothing about the wars in Israel.
Why would he heal us?
Earth is Satans realm.
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wallah there are people they are dark come out of your cave there are magnificent things on this earth 🌎 life is beautiful the flowers 🌸 the little birds, the hair in the wind the wet feet in the sand, VIVA Palestine ❤️
 
fenec said:
wallah there are people they are dark come out of your cave there are magnificent things on this earth 🌎 life is beautiful the flowers 🌸 the little birds, the hair in the wind the wet feet in the sand, VIVA Palestine ❤️
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You ok?
 
fenec said:
wallah there are people they are dark come out of your cave there are magnificent things on this earth 🌎 life is beautiful the flowers 🌸 the little birds, the hair in the wind the wet feet in the sand, VIVA Palestine ❤️
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YES fenec knows whats up. FREE PALESTINE. Inshallah we meet brother one day. Leave that racist country france and come here to Canada. It is bad right now but quebec will accept you no problem. JOIN US BROTHER.
 
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