Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Can I ask you what strain you smoked? During my recovery from Invega, I specifically smoked a sativa joint and immediately entered a psychotic episode. Unfortunate, but it indicated to me that i recovered from Invega.

Now I only smoke indica or hybrid and haven’t had any issues. I also don’t smoke every day like I used to, only once in awhile. But in general you should be careful smoking weed even in recovery from Invega because it can send you into another episode.

Lessen learnt. It was a cbd/thc oral mixture. Not sure of the strain.

 

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I feel like I've forgotten what normal feels like. Like something has drastically changed for good and i wish for normal but don't know what normal feels like anymore.

There should be no fear or worry for no reason.

I come up with all kinds of reason to worry and fear about my situation even when you don't have to.

I never felt I was a failure until invega.

 

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There should be no fear or worry for no reason.

I come up with all kinds of reason to worry and fear about my situation even when you don't have to.

I never felt I was a failure until invega.

My brother and sister are over for dinner. They are living normal lives. I feel so disconnected from them. My mental health issues feel all consuming. It never used to be this way. I feel like a different person.

 

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My brother and sister are over for dinner. They are living normal lives. I feel so disconnected from them. My mental health issues feel all consuming. It never used to be this way. I feel like a different person.

Social awkwardness.

Fear.

Anxiety.

I am not sure what to do man.

 

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Social awkwardness.

Fear.

Anxiety.

I am not sure what to do man.

I'm a fucking recruiter of 13 years how am I ever going to do that job again? I'm terrified. Can't relate to people.

 

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I'm a fucking recruiter of 13 years how am I ever going to do that job again? I'm terrified. Can't relate to people.

Basically this invega fucks our life up.

Really I don't know how to unfuck my life.

I keep remembering this past choices that I have ever made to lead to this point.

I had so much brighter future...

 

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Basically this invega fucks our life up.

Really I don't know how to unfuck my life.

I keep remembering this past choices that I have ever made to lead to this point.

I had so much brighter future...

I was approved for a home loan. Now I have nothing. This shit is scary. I can't even sit there and pretend to enjoy the conversation i just feel disconnected in a completely different headspace that is far from happy.

 

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I was approved for a home loan. Now I have nothing. This shit is scary. I can't even sit there and pretend to enjoy the conversation i just feel disconnected in a completely different headspace that is far from happy.

I know what you mean. I can't even enjoy and have genuine smiles that I had before.

Just everything seems meaningless torture.

 

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Basically this invega fucks our life up.

Really I don't know how to unfuck my life.

I keep remembering this past choices that I have ever made to lead to this point.

I had so much brighter future...

Oh God its awful hey.

 

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Oh God its awful hey.

I try to stay positive but realistically I just fucked my life too hard.

I couldn't even imagine this was even possible.

Just such a low life is expected of my life ahead.

 

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I try to stay positive but realistically I just fucked my life too hard.

I couldn't even imagine this was even possible.

Just such a low life is expected of my life ahead.

Yeah I also had no concept of how hard i could have fucked my life. I feel that deeply. Every day I wake up to the fact that my life has changed dramatically forever and will never be the same i know that for sure. It's scary.

 

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Yeah I also had no concept of how hard i could have fucked my life. I feel that deeply. Every day I wake up to the fact that my life has changed dramatically forever and will never be the same i know that for sure. It's scary.

Hell on earth.

Someone need to save me really.

I can't live like this.

Pain is literally killing me.

But it doesn't really kill me and that's the worst part.

 

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Hell on earth.

Someone need to save me really.

I can't live like this.

Pain is literally killing me.

But it doesn't really kill me and that's the worst part.

Yeah I know exactly what you mean. All I think is im to scared to die. But every day is awful. I also can't live like this but can't do anything about it. So I suffer.

The rest of my life will be suffering.

 

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Yeah I know exactly what you mean. All I think is im to scared to die. But every day is awful. I also can't live like this but can't do anything about it. So I suffer.

The rest of my life will be suffering.

All I worry is the life after I heal.

Maybe this feeling and pain is also caused by invega but I am so worried about my failed life.

All those regrets.

 

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All I worry is the life after I heal.

Maybe this feeling and pain is also caused by invega but I am so worried about my failed life.

All those regrets.

You and me both. I keep going down stairs to eat the food. But I cannot engage the conversation.

It feels to painful listening to people talk about normal things.

My life isn't normal i feel completely disconnected. I think it's the anhedonia I'm not sure though.

Believ in God could be right maybe it takes years to heal. I dont have years.

 

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You and me both. I keep going down stairs to eat the food. But I cannot engage the conversation.

It feels to painful listening to people talk about normal things.

My life isn't normal i feel completely disconnected. I think it's the anhedonia I'm not sure though.

Believ in God could be right maybe it takes years to heal. I dont have years.

This is just so cruel punishment.

I never knew this kind of pain is possible.

I should have run away from hospital if I knew about invega.

 

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This is just so cruel punishment.

I never knew this kind of pain is possible.

I should have run away from hospital if I knew about invega.

Another day is almost done for me over here. Can't wait to do it all again tomorrow.

This shit completely destroys your humanity. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin.

 

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I had so many hopes and future plan.

It is all gone.

I can't bear it.

Oh my god. I fucked up so hard.

 

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I had so many hopes and future plan.

It is all gone.

I can't bear it.

Oh my god. I fucked up so hard.

Yeah me to buddy. Really badly as well. Let's pray we can get better. Even though I'm not the religious type.

 

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I used to be skilled in the art of small talk. Could chat shit no problem. Now I have nothing.