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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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wbga said:
Because they never experienced it in slightest.

They will just think it is just "moving" "restless"

They have no idea how painful it is.

it is like burnt on fire

anhedonia is like if you compared to taste you have tongue but have no taste buds. You feel the food but there is no taste.
THere is life but have no taste whatsoever.
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Its fucking hell on earth. Makes you feel so lonely as well. I really feel so bad for people who suffer for years
 
IOSIP said:
They don't care. It stops ok pyschosis. It's like they really don't understand how bad it is when you can't feel dopamine or serotonin. I read somehmwhere that invega rebalances dopamine. What a load of shit. If fucking kills dopamine.
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It might be good for people who make waaaaaay too much dopamine but in non-schizophrenics it just fucks you up.
 
IOSIP said:
When they injected me. They let me out of hospital i was still have delusional thoughts at the time. I just wasn't talking about them. It wasn't until 2 weeks or so after getting out of hospital that all the side effects hit me. It's such a sick joke they injected you and push you out the door before they can see the damage they are doing
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Upon my second injection, I felt my brain unraveling as I was leaving. I'll never forget that feeling, it was something out of a horror movie. I was shuffling, drooling and dissasociating by the time I got home.

I was also still delusional when they let me go home. But I'm not sure how much was delusion or the insanity-resembling extreme anxiety OCD gave me.
 
IOSIP said:
What's the dumbest thing yall did during your psychosis?
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lol I gave a scam artist some bitcoin (I never bought bitcoin before) because I thought they were lifting a curse. I still don't know how I got sucked into it, they were so good at making me feel loved and seen at a time when I didn't. I had a problem with a close friend and my parents kept yelling at me because I was being manic. But it was so obviously a scam. If I had not talked to them I probably would have just gone to the crisis center for monitoring and been fine.
 
wbga said:
It seems it is able to control part of my brain which I have no access to.

It has abilities that I don't have. I think it is more connected to right hemisphere.

It is not only hands that it can control, but whole body.

But unlike people's belief, it can control me only when I let them control over my body.
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I firmly believe invega causes dissasociation. Parts of your brain that would normally communicate can't. This caused an inability to draw correctly for me, I was horrified to see that I had forgotten something I spent years learning how to do. (I can draw again now, its's like riding a bike to me, rediscovering a lot of things like my old memorization techniques too) It came from a lack of connection, drawing takes multiple parts of your mind and body working in concert.

So maybe the way it blocked connections left you with this. I'm curious about the details of your experience are. What did this consciousness text you?

I have two friends with DID (formerly multiple personality disorder). One of them makes full switches and the other more often has "co-pilots" than full switches, but it's not the way you describe. If you don't mind disclosing, do you have a history of severe environmental trauma such as being a small child in a war zone, childhood sexual abuse and/or severe neglect? Just to rule out DID.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I firmly believe invega causes dissasociation. Parts of your brain that would normally communicate can't. This caused an inability to draw correctly for me, I was horrified to see that I had forgotten something I spent years learning how to do. (I can draw again now, its's like riding a bike to me, rediscovering a lot of things like my old memorization techniques too) It came from a lack of connection, drawing takes multiple parts of your mind and body working in concert.

So maybe the way it blocked connections left you with this. I'm curious about the details of your experience are. What did this consciousness text you?

I have two friends with DID (formerly multiple personality disorder). One of them makes full switches and the other more often has "co-pilots" than full switches, but it's not the way you describe. If you don't mind disclosing, do you have a history of severe environmental trauma such as being a small child in a war zone, childhood sexual abuse and/or severe neglect? Just to rule out DID.
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I have a whole 300 pages of texts talking my past lives, how I came to earth, the purpose on this earth etc

I had quite traumatic events in my life which I don't want to talk too much here.

It was all induced by mushroom I took. I never knew a mushroom can be this dangerous.
 
wbga said:
I have a whole 300 pages of texts talking my past lives, how I came to earth, the purpose on this earth etc

I had quite traumatic events in my life which I don't want to talk too much here.

It was all induced by mushroom I took. I never knew a mushroom can be this dangerous.
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All I want to know is if it happened in early childhood. We can talk in DMs.

I kind of want to see those texts, or at least some of them if you don't mind.
 
Does anyone out here have a time machine i can borrow. So I can unfuck my life?
 
InvegaAnon said:
Upon my second injection, I felt my brain unraveling as I was leaving. I'll never forget that feeling, it was something out of a horror movie. I was shuffling, drooling and dissasociating by the time I got home.

I was also still delusional when they let me go home. But I'm not sure how much was delusion or the insanity-resembling extreme anxiety OCD gave me.
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Omg I forgot about the shuffling and drooling
wbga said:
I have a whole 300 pages of texts talking my past lives, how I came to earth, the purpose on this earth etc

I had quite traumatic events in my life which I don't want to talk too much here.

It was all induced by mushroom I took. I never knew a mushroom can be this dangerous.
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I was going to say DID aswell. Two systems talking to each other.
 
IOSIP said:
How is everyone doing today?
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I am thinking about how I should resolve my situation.

I know all the fear, negativity is coming from lingering invega in my system

but the fact that I can't go back to the past which I really loved changed gives me a lot of anxiety apart from sole invega.

One thing I am so sad about is the people that I lost because I had to come back to my country due to invega.

I had so many good friends overseas, and now I have no idea what I should do.

I am not really excited about meeting my girlfriend anymore.

THis is really sad but true.
 
My hard drive is ok, just the motherboard is shot on my computer! As far as I know anyway. If anyone wants to help, I can dm you.
 
wbga said:
I am thinking about how I should resolve my situation.

I know all the fear, negativity is coming from lingering invega in my system

but the fact that I can't go back to the past which I really loved changed gives me a lot of anxiety apart from sole invega.

One thing I am so sad about is the people that I lost because I had to come back to my country due to invega.

I had so many good friends overseas, and now I have no idea what I should do.

I am not really excited about meeting my girlfriend anymore.

THis is really sad but true.
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Yeah don't worry i also ruined my life.
I get treated like a drug addict because when I went to hospital I tested positive for every single drug possible. Because my friend lied to me and I got spiked that lead me into psychosis.

So now doctors are treating me like a complete liability. Meanwhile I have very real generalised anxiety disorder and they are threatening not to continue to prescribe me my anti anxiety medication because of all this.

I am so upset and scared and anxious. I don't want to have panic attacks.
 
IOSIP said:
Yeah don't worry i also ruined my life.
I get treated like a drug addict because when I went to hospital I tested positive for every single drug possible. Because my friend lied to me and I got spiked that lead me into psychosis.

So now doctors are treating me like a complete liability. Meanwhile I have very real generalised anxiety disorder and they are threatening not to continue to prescribe me my anti anxiety medication because of all this.

I am so upset and scared and anxious. I don't want to have panic attacks.
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I ended up in hospital for coke seizure from IV coke and i still get clonazepam, bromazepam and zopiclone from my shrink. I also get morphine from my GP. Just because one doctor wont prescribe you anything doesent mean the next doctor wont. When i first got out of the psych ward i had a shitty gp who wouldnt prescribe me morphine because the shrink in there wrote down that i was a addict. However i switched doctors and the next one prescribed it to me no problem.

Not all doctors are the same you have to remember that
 
paranoid android said:
I ended up in hospital for coke seizure from IV coke and i still get clonazepam, bromazepam and zopiclone from my shrink. I also get morphine from my GP. Just because one doctor wont prescribe you anything doesent mean the next doctor wont. When i first got out of the psych ward i had a shitty gp who wouldnt prescribe me morphine because the shrink in there wrote down that i was a addict. However i switched doctors and the next one prescribed it to me no problem.

Not all doctors are the same you have to remember that
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It shouldn't be this hard. I shouldn't have to fight to keep on the scripts I've been on for like 10 years. I don't want to go doctor shopping to get scripts. I don't even know how to explain what's happened.

Fuck my life. Appreciate your reply I just feel so fucking broken.
 
IOSIP said:
It shouldn't be this hard. I shouldn't have to fight to keep on the scripts I've been on for like 10 years. I don't want to go doctor shopping to get scripts. I don't even know how to explain what's happened.

Fuck my life. Appreciate your reply I just feel so fucking broken.
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Ya i was on them for about 10 or 11 years then was yanked off cold turkey in the psych ward. That was fucking hell. I didnt think i was going to get my scripts back ever but my friend kept pushing my to see a different doctor and i did and it worked out.
 
paranoid android said:
Ya i was on them for about 10 or 11 years then was yanked off cold turkey in the psych ward. That was fucking hell. I didnt think i was going to get my scripts back ever but my friend kept pushing my to see a different doctor and i did and it worked out.
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Thanks for the advice. Really appreciated
 
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